SLOW day.

I don't know what is wrong, I really don't know. Everything seems moving in slow motion. I want to start doing something but instead, I just sit on my rocking chair and do nothing. Weather really, really sucks. I thought OC was supposed to be sunshine county, but now I'd call it deep dark dump . It is windy, wet, cold, dark, foggy, weird, and cold one more time. All this sucky weather makes my old, 27 year old bones hurt. And people look meaner and nobody is smiling or asking how are you Doin'??? Is everybody worried about what will happen in this grazy messed up world next? Ah, happens what happens- but if I could choose what would happen then I would choose sunshine 24/7 for next PMS period, which lasts about until Christmas. :)

I was watching this weird messed up reality show "Beauty and the Geek". I really don't understand why those girls were called Beauties? If you don't have "brain" it does not make you beauty, you know. Go home and put more make up on , maybe then I concider calling you beauty.
Oh, I am so bitter today and probably will be tomorrow, and I was yesterday. lol But really, I just talk about things that bother me. There are lots and lots of happy events, thoughts people I would like to share with you, but beauty does not attract that many people. Everybody wants to see and read about the dirty laundry and see if there are some undiscovered sceletons in my closet. Oh, of course there are- my life is one big mysteri and I am just starting to rediscover myself- reinvent myself- rejuvenite...lol ok, ok, I went little overboard here. Let's just say- I am finally starting to figure out why I am here and what is my mission. But I am not telling you.... Do you have any idea people who YOU are and why you are the way you are and do the things you do ???