Monday, March 27, 2006

Happy Birthday to youuuu.

1. Goat Cheese Terrine- Goat cheese, cream cheese, blue cheese, chives,
cilantro, walnuts
2. Salt cured Salmon - Salmon

3. Appetizers- crab meat, mayo, smoked salmon, cream cheese filled

4. Cabbage rolls filled with vegetables and meat

5. Potato salad with a kick- Chinese cabbage, potatoes, red bell
tomatoes, green onions, cilantro, canned peas and carrots,

6. Pre-marinated grilled beef

7. 3 lbs of tiger shrimp ( with jack cheese sauce)

8. Pesto Potatoes( boiled)

9. Asparagus with lemon sauce and peppers( steamed), OR steamed mixed vegetables.

10. (pre-marinated) Roasted leg of lamb( with balsamic vinegar reduction

11. Kypsise tort( farmers cheese, strawberry preserves, whipped cream,
strawberries, condensed milk.)

12. Miniature cheesecakes/ Birthday cake.

13. Single serving desserts( cheesecake, chocolate mousse, whipped
hot chocolate, caramel sauce, Ice cream,peanut butter, macademia nut butter

14. Bread rolls( pizza dough, cream cheese, bacon, sundries tomatoes, cucumber- baked minutes before dinner)

Drinks, drinks , drinks.( margaritas, cosmos, apple sours.... vodka, whisky,

15. Snitzels( pork)

Ok, this is Menu for my Dh's Birthday. But I know some of the items are subject to change. If weather is rainy- grilling is out of question and I have to come up with roasted fish or chicken.
Also, I will play around with apetizers and see what I come up with.

So , if you guys have nothing to do on April 1st, come celebrate April Fools day with us. ( well, march 31st is my Dh's 40th Birhtday, but we are having a party on April 1st. around 6 pm. :)>):)

Sunday, March 26, 2006


James Blunt
I have seen peace.
I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?

And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend.
I'll cry on your shoulder.
You're a friend.
You and I have lived through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,But don't go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me,
and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

Saturday, March 25, 2006

I hate evenings.

Today started out really nice. We woke up 8.30 and had pancake breakfast, even Gabriel ate Then 3 of us played , cleaned garage and around 4 pm we went to Borders book store. Now it is 9 pm and my head is about to explode. I have horrible headache and my eyes are swollen red. I am starting to think that there are some spring allergies that make me feel like this . Seriously.... And then I had headed argument with Nick over the phone... same old, same old. I am sick and tired and he is working his ass off and does not understand why I am sick and tired if I do not have to work. He even dared to compare me with " chinese" females whose husbands are away 6 months at a time and they manage to stay stress free. FUCk the other people. What the heck do I and other people have in common? We are human? That is about it. Cheesh.. what is with him. Find yourself some chinese chick who can cook , clean and stay happy 24/7 with 2 kids. I am not "that " kind of girl.

Srry. I really needed to went. I am sure I regret tomorrow that I even mentioned it, but I really have to let some steam out....

Friday, March 24, 2006


Well, it is friday. Gabriels shool had Parent(s) night out. Yeah, wohoo, awsome, great, I was so freekin' exited. ( whatever). So I dropped Regina and Gabriel to Tutor Time and I went to see 16 Blocks( Bruce willis). No regrets , awsome movie. I just hated that one bad guy who finally did a good thing in a bad way got away..... Happy hollywood ending....
So , about 40 minutes into movie I got a phone call from my doctor ( it was 8.45 pm) about my labs. Luckily I do not carry arthiritus gene but he told me to come back to office sometimes next week to run more tests to find the reason of my pains.
Today new kind of pain appeared. I but on my favorite pair of boots with midium size heals. At first everything was fine, but when I was walking from my car to movie theater both of my feet started hurting to the point I was in tears. Month ago I did not have that pain. Seems like my bones have started drifting to some different direction. :(
Ugh, I want nick to come back and find a good job in US. ( at least 150 000 dollars per year lol) and good health insurance ...

Ok. I have to give Regina meds now. She is still coughing ( she started in January) and nothing makes her cough go away. she also has Laryngitis .

So far these are all of my symptoms.
Joint pains
Fluid filled systs ( ganglion cysts)
Bladder Dysfunction
Bowel Dysfunction
problems with memory
Depression Fatigue

Balance or Coordination Problems

Abnormal Numbness or Pain

Vision Problems


I need to get out of this house. Outside is most wonderful spring weather and all I do is sit inside. But I am to lazy, I am to tired, I am so sick , I am so busy. I have way to many excused not to go out. But the most accurate one is I am lazy and I have pink eye and my eyes are very sensitive to light right now.

Nick comes home next week. Wohoo. At least I get few "easyer day", because I NEED THEm. I am so burned out.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Not very good day. :(

Today started out not very good. After I woke up I did my streching routine, but I overdid it , I heard a " CRACK" and my back awas locked. I was not able to move. At least kids were sleeping so I had some time to get myself together and but on a smily face. lol I made appointment to see my favorite chiro Dr Ray from PodyPro! and after few "CRACKs" I feel 50 % better. But that is not it.

Few days ago my eyes started hurting and looked puffy. People asked if I was crying or tyred or sick, because my face looked horrible. :( So I went to see doctor for that. And guess what, I have conjunctivitis (pink eye). I got eyedrops for that and I feel much better now. :) I also asked from my doctor why my pains ( bone, joints) are getting worse, not better. He drew some blood to test for artiritus( sp), if tests come back fine, then they will let me know whats the next step will be. Until then I just have to take Celebrex, and since my insurance does not cover it , I have to pay in full ( 107 dollars- monthly dose- I think). Anyway, I am just getting tired of being in pain. I am used to pain, but I have to give up a lot because of pain. There are things I want to do but I can not . I want to get down on floor and play with kids, but it is really hard for me to get down on all four, and play pony rides with them, I want to carry them around them sitting on my sholders- I can't. I am 27 going on 70. :( I want my health back. I want my life back.

Monday, March 20, 2006

The real housewives of Orange county.

Oh wow. Unbelivable. Real housewives??? WTFDTM?? And they are from OC?? WOW. I AM SO EXITED. Maybe I should drop my "poor" husband, go out and findmyself billioner boyfriend so I could get myself boob job, liposuction and full face job ( so I could better fit in///) Just kidding.
What comes next from OC. ?? There is Laguna Beach on MTV, OC, Real life Housewives, and somthing else. Only thing that is missing is - How low income people manage to survive in OC. Orange county is not only Newport Beach, Coto De Caza, or Laguna Beach. There are plenty of lover income citys here. HEre are lot of homeless people ( men, woman, kids) who have no jobs or food to eat before bedtime. But show about them will not get any good ratings , right. SO why spend some Good money on people who have no money??? Life. I do not get it.


As many of you may know by now, Donald is Daddy- again. And I can see future headlines- DONALD TRUMP FOUND DEAD in his bedroom, Melania and baby missing.
I think that Melania is very very very smart woman- and of course he loves Donald and is greatly attracted to him- I blame it on Money..... ( sorry Melania and Donald, I am just being brutally honest.....)

New Trump: Donald, Melania Have a Boy

Monday Mar 20, 2006 7:35am EST
Monday Mar 20, 2006 1:20pm EST (updated)
By Stephen M. Silverman
Donald Trump

It's a baby boy for Donald Trump and wife Melania, the real-estate entrepreneur announced Monday.

The couple's son, Barron William Trump, was born at 5 a.m. and weighed in at 8 1/2 lbs., Trump tells PEOPLE.

"It's a beautiful baby and she's a beautiful mother," says the 59-year-old Apprentice star.

Of his wife Melania, Trump said, "I just think she's looking forward to being a great mother. I have no doubt how good she will be."

Monday, March 13, 2006

Money, money,money..

What is wrong with everybody?? Fundriser here , fundriser there... Reginas school has Jog-a- thons, Gabriels school has See's candy fundriser, then couple of other families asked money.... do I look like a millioner to you guys. I shop at walmart and Kohls on sales rack... so there you go... nobody will get any money from me.... I am poor.... I spend all my extra money for photography and shutterfly.... and pictureframes. I need more pictureframes..... I do not have enough pictureframes....

I am just little bitter today because everything just pisses me off. People are loosing weight eating meat. People are loosing weight eating bread.,.. And there is me, who eats bread and chicken and I gain weight. ??? I have been monitoring my diet past few weeks. I wrote down how much I ate, what time I ate. Every time my daily intake exceded more than 1400-1500 cal , I gained weight. Every time I had pork, I gained weight. On each day I had 10 containers of yoplay fat free yogurt- I lost weight, On those days I had one head of cabbage I lost weight.... I am so sick of healthy food. Seriosly, I want to eat chicken without worring about feeling sick. I want to eat cheese and not get upset stomach. I want to live happily ever after without worring about money, health problems, cancer, and what other people think. I want world peace.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Uh, cold, I wish I had fur, I wish I was a bear, with

..a furry furry hair. ( I think I watch too much Barney). But yes, It is very cold here in usually sunny southern Ca. I
I hate it. I do not mind rain, but this cold is just too much to handle.

I just want to complain more about my problems. Well, lets talk about physical pain I am in.
About 4 years ago my wrists started hurting - they still do. 2 years ago my knees just decided they are sick of being strong and healty knees, and now I got pain there. Year ago, after I had my car accident , my sholders started hurting and now - LATEST- my big toe ( righ one), well, bunion really ia swollen and hurts really , really really.
Everything was fine when I woke up, but around noon things slowly started to change. At first my toe turned numb ( really weird feeling), and then pain set in. and right now (8.48 PM), I am unable to move my toes at all, pain is horrible. I really do not know what is going on. I wish I knew. I hope pain will dissapear for tomorrow, because if it is still there, I do not know how I can drive my kids to school. :(:(:(
Bummer :(

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Oscar Night..

I did not plan watch oscars this year, but Jon Stewart with his opening speech just got my attention. I just love his sense of humor. He made me laugh all night long. That guy does not have to try hard to make people laugh- he is natural. ;) He is cute too ;)

Now, if you ask me how many of those movies nominated I had seen then I can tell you- only few-

  • _Crash-- I loved it- won best Picture!!!!!!!
  • walk the line-- NMS
  • Batman Begins- I love it
  • Cinderella man-- Did not like it all
  • Tim Burton- Corps Bride--- LOOOOOVED IT. I love tim burton.
  • Charlie and the chocolate factory- Good but not that good.
  • War of the Worlds--- My fave

  • I really want to see Transamerica
  • Memoirs of Geisha
  • King Kong
  • North County.

Now I am off to do some minor cleaning. ( kids toys, dirty dishes etc). Tomorrow is monday and my cleaning team is coming to clean my house ( they do it every monday). But I am about to fire them- they are doing ok job and past few weeks they have been avoiding dusting and floors are after cleaning still dirty ( spots here and there) and they broke few dishes and forgot to notify me. SO bye-bye . I HATE LETTING THEM KNOW THAT THEY ARE FIRED. :( Usually nick does the dirty work....

Friday, March 03, 2006


I just took Nick to LAX airport. It was fun month . He really did help me a lot. He took Gabriel to school and picked Regina up froms school, he took kids out to lunch and played a lot with them. I just do not have that energy to run around and chase them. All I want to do all day long is to sleep or just do nothing. I manage to clean the house, cook, do laundry and then just hug my pillow.
. Everything makes me extremely tired. Some days I hit the bed around 9 am and fall asleep even before kids are asleep, but I am sure, now that he is gone, I will be up until 2-3 am doing nothing. As right now, I am so tired I am about to fall over BUT I can not fall asleep.

Now it is me and kids again. To make things worse- Regina is SICK AGAIN. I have no idea what is going on with this girl. She is coughing and coughing and coughing. She stops for a week and goes again. I think I will take her to see some specialist because she has been coughing since january and nothing seems to be working. :( Well, at least I have my fun neighbor friend who kees me entertained day and night- there is never dull moment when she is around. ;)

Thursday, March 02, 2006

2 more days and...

I'll be single again... yup, nick is leaving late on friday night. Poor me. I look forward to sleepless nights, grazy mornings and not cleaning up after him. This time he will be back before his 40 th b day ( on march 31st). But still, he will be gone and will spend my time doing nothing ....

Now about my laptop- while I was in estonia I brought kids computer game Nu pogodi( Just wait_ kids animated series). After I downloaded the game my computer started acting up. And 3 days ago it stopped responding to anything at all. i did virus scans and found porn dialer( whatever is that), I checked memory and my computer had no memory left- also, my computer could not find any hadware left in my computer- no ups drives, no cd/dvd drives etc. I had about 5 picture folders( total 200 pictues that I had not backed up) and I lost them all. yesterday my husband restored my computer to factory settings and now it is working again, but what is weird ( at least I think is weird), after first virus scan( even before computer was hooked up to internet) norton found Alexa (

McAfee(R) AVERT™ recognizes that this program may have legitimate uses in contexts where an authorized administrator has knowingly installed this application. If you agreed to a license agreement for this, or another bundled application, you may have legal obligations with regard to removing this software, or using the host application without this software.
Please contact the software vendor for further information.

See for a list of Program detections added to the DATs.

See for information about how to enable, disable, and exclude detection of legitimately installed programs.


Upon execution of this application, Alexa toolbar is installed in Internet Explorer. Search keywords used in Google were transferred to Alexa servers. Also Alexa sends personal information such as usernames to the Alexa site.)

WHY, WHY, WHY??? But at least now my Toshiba is working fine and after few more virus scans and virus removals, My computer seems to be clean -- we will see about that.

I hope for next 12 months my computer stays fine and clean ( I usually get one bad virus or spyware or addware once a year that totally destroys everything I have in my computer and even virus or spy scans can not detect what my toshiba got. I never learn from my mistakes - instead I make new and worse ones ;O)