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Oh so mad.

Today was one of those days I felt really creative. Like really, really , really creative. I played quitar, I wrote couple of silly love songs AND I worked 3 hours working on my photoshop project. After i was finally happy with outcome I decided to save my breautiful ( the best graphic project yet) layout containing layers, specieal effects, words, sunshine, fire - everything that I had worked out in my head, and I finally got time to create it. And then BOOOOOM. My computer crashed. IT CRASHED while I was saving my project. Oh, I was mad, I was so mad I made myself hot chocolate with whipped cream and I drank 3 glasses. That how mad I was.!!!!!! I would create this project probably now withing 30 minutes, but I am just so freekin' mad that it happened. Now I just drink my wild strawberry coctail and curse out loud. ( PSS kids are in bed).

Until next time...

Just a thought.

This is one of those weird random thoughts that just came to me while I was Medicine shopping.
I passed the isle where pregnancy tests are on. I just stepped and checked what is new. Then I remembered when I was pregnant with Regina I took a test that had + and- on. - Not pregnant and+ Pregnant. Well, these days you can have plusse s, and minuses, and stripes and circles and NOT PREGNANT, PREGNANT etc. WOuld it be funny if one day you take a pregnancy test and suddenly ROBOTIC voice sayes-YOU ARE PREGNANT, or YOU ARE NOT PREGNANT, TRY AGAIN. LOL. I'd just take pregnancy tests to hear that voice. lol Or then there would be pregnancy tests that also tetermine DNA( if dad is who you think it should be). Now , that is a thought...........

I swear..

... I am not a bad person. Just evil- sometimes. heh. Anyway, what I want to say is that sometimes, when we went out to party and I really did not feel like chatting or dancing with some so called "dude", I pretended that I did not speak Estonian. Well, I know what I did was really wrong, but it saved me many many times from " trouble". ( In Southern Estonia( almost country side), lot of people still don't speak english , and it is easy to spot those people. I meant nothing bad by not dancing with them, but if you saw the awsome moves they had on dance floor, you all wish you never saw those moves. I SWEAR THEY WERE THAT BAD!!! I still carry couple of mental pics with me...... I need therapy- fast.

Couple of times when I went out with my sister, people often asked who am I , am i her friend. People who knew us of course they knew that we are sisters. BUT drunk people, who did not know us, did not know that we are sisters, I told them a little lie. I AM SIJAS MOTHER!!! lol Belive me, it was hilarious to see those drunk reactions. Some of them went back to bar to buy new drink , because they thought they are allready hallusinating, and maybe one more drink will help them calm down, then couple of guys sayed that IT IS possible to drink people young and beautiful ( not sure how to take that comment- lol). But yeah, I had fun, and hopefully have fun next time when I go back and time after that.....

My grandmas sister - she was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. She decided not to get treatments for her deadly disease. We wish her all the best and lots of strenght to fight for her life. :)

Friend Ylle and I- couple of "locals"

We found a lonely wooden dude playing his instrument. Sija offered some of her ice cream to him, but he gave us silent treatment- HOW RUDE!!!

So ,who is getting ready to party???

Guess what it is??? If you guessed"euro" bathroom, you guessed very wrong. lol If you are used to flushing after you use bathroom, then this bathroom is not for you.

Sija ja Marianaga Chillimas kusagil Olle 13es voru Citys.

Sija, Mina ja onu Richard ;)

Merle Jaager/ Merca/ Taarka koos minu emaga Obinitsas vanaema haua peal pitsi tostmas. :) Igavesti lahe inimene on see Merca.

Beautiful flower in my moms garden

Mariana and I ready to party....

Plumtree Sometiemes It is ok to pose ;)

Some old dude wanted to dance with young girls. But he was kind of drunk and constanly stepping on my toes. lol

This is my parents house backyard- young fruit garden :) Full of refreshing , preservitive free fruits

Just look at this sky. So beautiful and different...

Beautiful

My goddaughter Hella and I in her moms Garden :)

I really don't have to describe what is going on in here......

My sister Sija(23 y/o),me and My brother Tiim(19y/o)

Quick update from SAS, seat 41 C

Yep, right now I am in air, on my way to CHICAGO. My flight will be one hour late,because we had to wait for another flight and if we left early 20 people would have missed the flight. SO if I MISS my connection from Chicagot to Santa ana, IT IS NOT MY FAUlt. Bad luck just sends me.:) BAAAAA I wanna go home and kiss and hug my kids and dh.

My bitter-sweet vacation is over and I am back in CA. I wish I could tell you that I am energized and extremely motivated and relaxed, but the sad truth is- I am not. I am tired and worried and stressed. My vacation started with B A N G. On 12^th some stupid deer ran to the road and Of course I just felt the need to hit him or her because I wanted to see what happens. And of course I really, really wanted to cause 60 000 damages in Estonian currency ( it is about 4500 dollars). And since I did not purchase that fun insurance from rental, We have to take care/pay or whatever that huge unwanted and needed sum of money ourselves. We still have some Reginas medical bills from last year that we have not paid yet( her OC medical bills), and now this. And because this accident happened in beginning of my trip, I had to make phone calls, worry about damages not being to huge( which they are) , worry about other deer running into me or million deer’s attacking me , just like in Ring 2.

About more fun things. I did see my family and my mom was totally surprised when I showed up in hospital ( she was hospitalized for couple of days to find the source of severe pain). Then we went to my childhood home and talked a little and ate and drank and laughed and argued- you know, just like every other family. After 3 hours of being home, my sister and I hit the local “club” We danced and drank some hard liquor( well, she did) , I just had fun because I had to be the DRIVER.

Nature around my parents house is absolutely breath taking . It is green, lots of trees, forest. Garden had about 20 apple trees that all carried apples, lots of plum trees, cherry trees, red currants, black currants, different berries, yum.( and more) If I felt like I went out and picked apples from the tree , If I felt liked I lied down and stared the beautiful blue sky with all the clouds that took a different shape in every minute. If I felt like, I took my car and drove somewhere close to lake or visited some local beatiful attractions. It all was amazing.

we celebrated Sijasbirthday ( august 13^th) with some of her closest friends.

We slept long morning hours and woke up during the noon. We visited some relatives, ate a lot of local food( food I grew up eating and I miss it every day because It is hard in US to find the foods that TASTE the same. I gained about 6 lbs because of that 12 day food fest in est. We went out to party almost in every night. Lot of dancing, tequila and weird guys who I scared away by answering their questions in English , pretending I did not speak Estonian- lol. I am bad, bad girl. But really, some of them were beyond annoying and I did not want to hurt their feeling by telling them they are not wanted now. Heh.

OF course I met up with couple of exes and heard million times How good I look and how much younger and younger I look each year I come back to Estonia- I blame it on all the preservatives I am eating in in USA. Lol. I was also asked to move back to Estonia, so I could have “luvers” ( It feels great to be wanted and needed, but untouchable and unreachable. J

I will post pictures later and if something interesting comes back to me I will definitely let you know, because Let me tell you- lot of fun things happened

OH, I almost forgot- I FINALLY HAD CHANGE TO GO TO SAUNA AGAIN. OH, it was so amazing to feel the sweat run down to your body and all I really did was sit and take the heat J

here I am

OK. I got new replacement car and this time I purchased insurance JUST IN CASE. This time it is small and brand new chevy. I am not completely happy with it since it is slow and it is american. But It is ok. At least I can move around and do what I want to do.:) Things are going ok around here. I saw lot of relatives and did some shopping. I ate lot of smoked pork with rind attached to it, smoked chicken and the best Ice creams in whole wide world. We celebrated sijas 23'd birthday and ate and ate and ate and ate. ( potato salads, crabmeat salads, cheese snacks, grilled sausages with cheese in them, garden salads, cakes--and of course lot of alcohol were present, but I decided to play smart this time. I did not have a single drink.
I still have 5 days left so I see what else I can do or see here that I have not had a chance to do or see these past years.

car accident no 3

Accidents always happen on threes. Last night( august 11), as i was driving home from city something went terribly wrong. It as 3AM, outside was dark and weather conditions were horrible-rain, rain and more rain. It was bad. Suddenly out of nowhere appeared deer and stopped in the middle of the road- just in front of me. I braked, but the deer was to close and I hit him bad, really bad. What was strange about this accident was- road was slippery due to rainy weather, I braked but car did not skid, it stopped immediately but not soon enough. Air bags did not come out, but we all ( me , my sister, my brother and my friend ) felt the power of airbags popping to our faces. It was the weirdest things .We all are fine, not a scrach on us, but my rental has exact same damages as my Mercedes had. I was lucky enough to drive the car next morning to repar shop and I was told I should not be driving because what kind of damages my car has due to that deer. SO no I have to deal with insurance and I decided not to take other rental. Damages to car are probably around 3000 dollars ( it is Peugeot). SO there you go. Something exiting for a while. More car accidents. When will it end.???? Angels are watching over us and protecting us....

Hi from somewhere else.

Hi gals and guys. Diana has landed in Estonia. My flight was looong and boring and tireing, but finally after18 hours i reached my final destination. Tomorrow morning I will start my 4 hour car drive to my parents house and see what happens.
Weather here is cold and rainy.
Talk to you later.

San Clemente Beach. My dh and I had lunch date today and we decided to go to San clemente. It is about 20 minutes from us. Beautiful beach. I like it better than Laguna beach :)

Yeah, I know...

... I have not been updating. My husband is home, my kids keep me busy, and my house really, really needs me now more than ever. lol. I am trying to get everything in order here before my sweet and fun adventure in near future. I really can not tell you more, but you will be hearing more about it as it arrives. ( No I am not pregnant and No I am not about to give birth).


Couple of days ago our cat ran away because my dh left door wide open. I made some flyers and posted in our neighborhood. I also asked from neighbors if they have seen him. So last night our neighbors rang our doorbell and told us that they saw cat couple of doors down. SUre enough it was our silly cat Keesu. ( Kids named him princess but we really call him Keesu.)

I also started physical therapy to my left sholder. I LOVE IT!!! It is like personal training session but all I have to do is to pay 15 dollar co-pay instead of 50 dollar and hour. I allready feel better and all the guysI ALMOST gave up all sugar and chocolate. If I feel like eating something extra sveet, I just suck on to some of those sweet and low candies 5 pieces is about 60 cal. Not bad, and it takes care of my chocolate needs. :)

Guess who is back????? MY SWEET WHEELS!!!! Oh, my car looks fantastic- better than new. WELL, front is new and it shines and sparkles and the sweet excelarating sound of engine is just the right music to my ears.:)