I don't know what to say, or what to do, or how to build my confidence level up again. I want to feel that I can conquer the WORLD, or at least I want to feel like I will be able to do it.
Right now everything is maybe. Maybe I can do this, MAYBE I am smart enough, MAYBE I am beautiful , confident. Maybe. Everything is maybe. I am still lost,.. very lost. Lost in this world Lost in Me. Lost, but longing to find ME, GET TO KNOW ME again.

I am not a great friend, I am not a great person. I AM TRYING, but I am not trying hard enough. I feel like I have separated me from "world" , I am very picky and am very selective and critical about everything and everybody.. In a way I feel good about having my feet on ground, but I am not feeling great about speaking my mind and hurting some people.

Be patient. THere will be more of me:)