Getting ready to move... Pictures and paintings are removed from our walls. Did it with tears in my eyes,  I remember when I took each one of  those pictures and I remember when I put them to walls... I remember  why I chose those images... And to take them down,... was very , very , very hard...
Our home looks and feels COLD without  images, without our personal pieces...
I am  still having conversations with myself... There are hours I am sooo ready to get rid of this house, and then I am about to grab my phone and make a phone call to Realtors...  Love them by the way..
In a way it feels  WRONG to sell this house. IT FEELS WRONG to paint all the walls some sort of beige   so that it would appeal to buyers...  I have to pretend that I love beige??? I have to pretend that I don't like things on walls? I have to pretend that my house is always perfect??? WHAT IS THIS? some sort of  artificial reality?? It is not real.    I have to spend money to make money?? I have to make our home  according what other like. What is wrong with buyers??? WHY can't you see potential yourself. Get it, make changes the way YOU want them.   WHy DO WE have to guess what you BUYERS like?  I hate this, I hate  faking... I hate faking I love beige.. And I am perfect, living clutter free life...   It is just not natural..
Anyway, I have to  make peace with it. and deal with this situation....

Deal ...  What I can not deal with are liars. And that kind of liars who want me to lie to cover their tracks..  Who I thought are my friends are really not..  I am not lying to  make your HOME life peaceful.. Never gonna happen.  I started fresh, and I wanna keep it that way.