Getting ready to move... Pictures and paintings are removed from our walls. Did it with tears in my eyes,  I remember when I took each one of  those pictures and I remember when I put them to walls... I remember  why I chose those images... And to take them down,... was very , very , very hard...
Our home looks and feels COLD without  images, without our personal pieces...
I am  still having conversations with myself... There are hours I am sooo ready to get rid of this house, and then I am about to grab my phone and make a phone call to Realtors...  Love them by the way..
In a way it feels  WRONG to sell this house. IT FEELS WRONG to paint all the walls some sort of beige   so that it would appeal to buyers...  I have to pretend that I love beige??? I have to pretend that I don't like things on walls? I have to pretend that my house is always perfect??? WHAT IS THIS? some sort of  artificial reality?? It is not real.    I have to spend money to make money?? I have to make our home  according what other like. What is wrong with buyers??? WHY can't you see potential yourself. Get it, make changes the way YOU want them.   WHy DO WE have to guess what you BUYERS like?  I hate this, I hate  faking... I hate faking I love beige.. And I am perfect, living clutter free life...   It is just not natural..
Anyway, I have to  make peace with it. and deal with this situation....

Deal ...  What I can not deal with are liars. And that kind of liars who want me to lie to cover their tracks..  Who I thought are my friends are really not..  I am not lying to  make your HOME life peaceful.. Never gonna happen.  I started fresh, and I wanna keep it that way.

I am very opinionated person. I watch LOT of late night tv. and lot of prime time tv.. DVRD... But nothing, NOTHING makes me more emotional than NY housewives, OC housewives, and Atlanta Housewives... I watch these shows and shake my head. THANK YOU ORANGE COUNTY. for keeping me real.   Gossip is good, till it reaches the tipping point. I gossip, I  bitch about my friends, husband , exes. I DO... But I don't feel angry, hurtful towards them.. They are the ones who help me grow stronger, healthier and more beautiful THey are my rocks.


Thank you Friends:)

Love di

Just MY opinion..

 Obesity is NOT a disease.. THERE are diseases that lead to obesity , and if you find out what those diseases are and you take care of them, you will do just fine. 

Now, I am sure there are "few of you" who take it personally, and  start a fire where fire is not needed,  but I stay strong to my OPINION.
I work hard to stay 6-10 size.. It varies from month to month, and I know IF I don't work hard, I end up 300 lb woman because I LOVE FOOD. I can eat nonstop and not feel full. I can...  BUT I choose not to.. I eat, I work out and I enjoy it.


WHEWWWW, I feel better now that i said it OUT LOUD :D