WHAT THE *F* IS WRONG WITH ME??

I just recovered from fuckin' flu. I was fine for 10 days. ONLY 10 DAYS??/ Thats all I get ?
Yesterday I went to bed 10.15 PM. And I woke up this morning 9 AM with a banging headache and nausea ... and swollen tonsils and ringing in my ears. Am I damned because I wrote badly about our health care system? Or Is it because people ask me why I am so anti Estonian( which I am not, or kind of I am uh whateva) Anyway, I am sick again and it feels like there is this huge rock tied to my chest.... Peppermint tea, camomille tea, echinasea tea or however you spell this anyway., vitamins, more camomille more peppermint, more fish and apples and gallons of water and chicken noodle soup. Oh I feel crappidy crappy .....

Oh..

I am this point in my life , I have no point...lol. I can't stand stupid drama or backstabbing. It is fun for a while, but really.. Who cares... I can't stand living in past and hearing comments like- But when I lived there, but this is how things were done back then.... WHo the fuck cares how things were done 10 years ago... We should care how things should be done NOW. How to improve imperfections.. All I want is to people to take step back, breathe in and out- GO shop in burlington "goat" factory and drink some red "whine".. and then start thinking.

You know what drives me insane the most? If you do not care, I am still telling you.
I am pissed with American health system. I am thankful for all the great doctors and nurses. And I think when America gets universal heatcare, our health will go downhill from there....

Anyway. We pay our taxes- LOTS OF TAXES... Property tax for our family is almost 9000 dollars per year. And we get this bill sometimes in End of December. Not happy. But we want to live in this big $ 3700 dollars per month for 32 years kind of house..., 1000 dollars for utilities, ( trash , gas, electricity, water, exterminator, gardener, community fees...etc.
700 dollars for food... AND our paycheck is gone.... GONE with a wind...

And then we get monthly medical bills- sometimes 500 dollars, sometimes 5000 dollars. Our february bill was 3000 dollars. We still have not payed it. They send us warning that they will send collectors into our house blah blah blah.... Who cares...

... Now... Every time I go to CHLA I ask from different people and families about their medical bills- Family from Iraq- they have been CHLA patients for over a year, THEY DO NOT HAVE TO PAY A PENNY FOR ANYTHING!!! Not even for a living. Luckily our great government takes care of them and makes sure they are safe and healthy.... Oh, I forgot to mention- Wife has 2 mercedeses, one BMW, and some other car she was very proud about.....

Family from mexico ( not all of them are that lucky)... pays nothing- because they know how to work this system...

Family from America- gets bills, cries and pays the bills...

Family from Russia- NON. they pay nothing NOt even a penny... Americans take care of them.


I know, not everybody gets this superior treatment... BUT if family from america drives BMW, lives in a great house.. Makes 100 000 dollars per year... and can handle lifestyle they live... And then add medical bills... life is over..
I often hear people say.. Oh, they drive a great car, they must have lot of money... yeah,, we have money to handle our "regular" expenses, but it does not include monthly extras like medical bills, emotional support, doctors appointments because health issues due stress...

Why can't America take care our OUR children first and then somebody else? Who the fuck are they trying to impress? the whole world--- LOOK, I took care of your health over our countries health..

Diana is mad and upset and ready to explode...