Photos by diana, maarika and katre

Kord iga pidu saab otsa ....

I feel sad, extremely sad. It has been the best week in my life. Old friends, new friends, hours in the car, days and nights filled with laughter and “dark” humor… Life is good. Friends and family are what make life living worth. I am so fortunate to have Maarika in my life . She is my only friend from Estonia ( who lives in Estonia) that I have maintained my relationship with. I think we even look alike lol 
But tonight it all comes to an end ( well, at least until next time ) . They are leaving and I have to adjust myself back to my “old” boring self…. ;) OH, I miss her and her friend all ready. 

I just hope that their flight back to Estonia is better than their flight from NY to CA. ( They spent about 9 hours in airport, not knowing if they can come to CA and that was all because NY had ice storm, and their flights were rescheduled…. But they had awesome experience flying here because they got upgraded to First class with no charge and …. Yeah, players….. ;)

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Just dropping in to tell ya that I have been busy Keeping my friends busy.. Well, my friend Maarika is here with her friend Katre, who is now also my friend ( OMG, I sound Like a 5 year old lol) and I try to keep them busy by finding them things to do and places to show.

But it has been absolutely amazing . I love having them around ... They crack me up all the time.... I just don't understand one thing-- WHy in the world they do not like mexican food?? That sucks big time ;)

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What the fuck happened to my NOT to make up pic? My face must be so screwed up even google can't stand it..... Oh, well , whatever....

Anyway you my dear good loyal readers. My very bestestest Est friend is coming to visit me for 10 days... OH> I am so exited I am running 102, 6 fever. lol I am burning up..... And I think I might be allergic to antibiotics doc. prescribed me... Today I got hives all over my body after I took my second dose.... yuck... itchi, very, very itchy...


AND HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO YOU ALL.

Love you honey- thanks for the beautiful flowers and note:0 To bad you can't be here with us ( with me ;) ) See you in 3 months. :)


diana

Warning

WARNING…

Leave now , if you are not ready to see me without make up. YES, without MAKE up. This is huge. Really, it is. I am not that kind of girl , you know, who is willing to show up in public without my clothes… And I must tell, I do feel naked without my make up, because I do not think that I have ever seen myself without MU. Lol

Why I took this picture is because- someone recommended something and I must try and see if it works. I am experimenter and love food, so , this is must.

Mix one egg white with one teaspoon of lemon juice. Take cotton ball or brush, or cotton pad- whatever you have handy. Apply eggwhite mixture to your face and lie down just apply 2 coats. No more.. IT starts working right away…
I spend fortune every month for prescription creams, and gels for my acne problems ( at least $150 every month). And this tip came along on right time. Due to stress I am braking out big time. EVERYWHERE. But face is most important one. I can hide the other parts of my body with covering up with clothes, but I can not do so with my face….

Anyway.. today is my second day to do this mask. AND I must tell you- MY face has never felt so good. IT IS BREATHING. And mask itself feels soo good on my skin. It is not pulling or pushing, it is just tightening and it is the best feeling ever. J

BUT since it is beginning, I have no idea how it will affect my skin in long run. I am afraid that in few days I will break out even more and what’s then??? What is going to be my next step????


Before I leave , I have to tell you about my dream.. It is the weirdest dream I have ever had.

I was working out every day. But I kept gaining weight. Finally I went to see doctor and doctor told me that I was pregnant. And I was about 6 months pregnant…. I gave birth at 36 weeks to healthy baby ( not sure if boy or girl). IT had the most beautiful ocean blue eyes, and looked nothing like Nick. And then I remembered, when Nick was in china , I went to Starbucks and bought coffee from one guy , who I think was the most gorgeous guy I had ever seen (( REALLY, HE WAS) . lol./… Anyway, I woke up after I went to back to Starbucks to look for that guy and tell him that his coffee made me pregnant….

LOL LOL LOL.. BUT I must say, my baby did have THE most beautiful blue eyes I had ever seen… And NOW I desperately want to have baby no3, because maybe, MAYBE my baby will have blue or gray eyes….. ;)

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I have been very inactive for past few days. Both of my kids were sick, I was sick ( constantly am),and I am still sick at this moment. I had to see my doctor again today. I pay him a visit at least once a week, leaving behind 35 dollar co pay an 50 dollar prescription for meds...

After nurse took my temp, and checked for blood pressure ( which was low again.... but it has been low for past 8 years). But that is not what I am here to write....

So , my doctor enters that white tiny room. I sit on the table wearing black pants, and black jacket. My hair isdark brown with purple hightlight... He looks at me and tells me- you hae done womething new to our hair....... ( now, I did it while ack and he did not notice it then.).

I told him, Yeah, Idid.......


THEN I broke down like 5 year old and told him- INEED RELEIF NOW, RIGHT NOW> I CANT TAKE PRESSURE IN MY HEAD ANYMORE. I feel like it is about to explode..... He ( doctor) looks at me and tellls me--" OK, let me go and get your mommy, maybe she knows what to do about your temper........ hahah Only he could say things like that......

Now I am taking augmentin and if this will not help me, then I will have to request for MRI to see what the heck is going on in there...... (In my head)...

I have to stop blogging now. This blogspot is driving me grazy. ....

Birds love me...

Today starte out crappy, so I decided to take my camera and Head to Dana Point . Weather is cold and crappy, insurance companies are cold and crappy....

At least I got some luv from birds. They worked they" tails" off to get me take pics of them. They landed next to my and just stared at me like I was alian from Europe ( kind off...). And when i was about to leave Dana Point , one seal decided to pay me a wisit and cheer me up :)

good sale...

I LOVE HOME DEPOT. I DO , I do , I dooododoodododo. 2 days ago I went to home depot because I really need to buy few plants, to freshen up my front yard. I t looks dead, BUT instead I left the store with 2 brand spankin' new RUGS. YES RUGS. Beautiful contemporary designer rugs, with not so designer price... Rugs for my living room had price tag on, and it was 570 dollars, But I got it with 120 ( clearance) and smaller rug for living room had 270 dollar tag, I payd 50 dollars. I am so fucking exitid about it. These rugs are SO my style and color that I almost started crying right there in Home depot, when they told me how much they are worth. lol. I am such a dork...haha

BTW , I'll be going to las Vegas again,but this time with my kids and with my girlfriend from Estonia. ;) I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!

Babyshower

Today was such a fun day... We were invited to Piias Babyshower. ( one pretty cool estonian "chick") hihi. Babyshower was in her friends house. i met couple of "new" estonians ( new to me) and few other people I have not met before . Overall we had fun. We played few "babyshower"games like Guess what food is in that jar, and guess how big Piia is and nobody could say word BABY . etc. :)

After party we headed home and now kids are sleeping and I am trying to choose next song for my school performance. First song I sang was Que sera sera and i think I did pretty good...lol now I am between Orionco flow, Everything I do, I do it for you, strangers in the night and Eternal flame. I love all those songs and it is really hard to choose between them. Orionco flow song is my fave, but it is really hard to sing. Lyrics are little hard to remember and hard to pronounce out. I am leaning toward Strangers in the night. I LOVE LOVE THAT song, so I better practice little more before stepping on spotling....

OMG. I am just stupid...+ electrical issues..

Today is tuesday. About 2 hour ago my lights started flickering- in every few minutes they would flash for a second and then turn back to normal. I started getting scared, what if we are going to loose electricity... So I went to Sand Diego Gas and Electric website to find more info and see if something was going on with electricity. YES there is . In Mission viejo area there are about 2000 people without electricity, and seems like people in laguna niguel area are starting to loose it too. I am NOT liking it. Not one bit. :(:(:((:( ---- Suspected problem ---- Underground electrical problem. I hope this problem will be resolved really fast. :)

OK. DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME....

Ok. here I am trying to follow all those "beauty secrets" that supposed to make you look younger... So , for few days I have had really puffy eyes. Kind of like I have bad hangover kind of eyes...lol so I did some reserach and went to walgreens. I made sure I was the only customer in store, and after confirming that I walked straight to Preparation H isle and started comparing Right Prep H for me..hahahah. Those , who do not know what preparation H is, then go there,

http://www.preparationh.com/index.asp?src=google

I got the mildest one... You know, after all, I do not want it to shring my whole face..... go, tht would be really ugly.... I payed, rushed home and ' applyed it under my eyes... OMG. OMG OMG. It is not working. Instead of me having puffy eyes, Now I have puffy , red and swollen eyes. THANKS god i trryed it on my face first. Think about it, if I applyed Prep H to my @$$ first, what would have happene. My @$$ would have swollen to a size of an really huge watermelon ( or 2)... Whewww, thanks got we now have eliminated that problem....

Now I have to figure out how to get rid of my swollen eyes.. I do not want to walk to school tomorrow morning and see all the parents whispering- SHE must stayed awake whole night figuring out how to get that Prep H swelling down.....

OK. Off I go to stick my face into to bowl of ice....

:)

Today I did some driving. I drove to LA and back It was worth the trip. lol Well, I attended tiny brainstorming meeting in LA Eesti majas bout upcoming LEP... :) Leila also took time off from her busy " jammies" schedule to show me area where LEP will take place. Thank you L. :)

OK. Nick left few minutes ago. Every time he leaves, I feel like we are having mini divorse . I had few way to many of those. As much as he drives me grazy when he is home, it drives me grazyererer when he leaves. I HATE cleaning up his "mess", I hate our arguments that lead us nowhere( because he Refuses to argue with me- He does not understand me or why i like sweet, or eating way to many snacks, or into "estonian" stuff , blah blah blah. And he refues to listen to my side of story... He walks around with bindfolds.... Anyway, I still luv him...

Now, In few weeks I start my bellydancing again, I enrolled Regina in Chess, I am planning to enroll gabriel some kind of music classes....

AND wish me luck... on tueday I have to perform in front of my "sInging" buddies - in front of 25 college students with song.... Oh, I get sweaty palms thinking about it... I am going to sing Que sera sera.... and song after that will be Like a prayer....

:)

I'm sad about something, I thougt I would not be sad about. My dh Is leaving me again. AGAIN. This is like 10 time he is leaving and he keeps coming back. STOP PLAYING WITH MY FEELING YOU @$$hole. lol But seriosly, he is just going to "china" to do his job and make us rich.... hahah. it is about time...

Today, my singing instructor told us something very interesting.. He told us, that stop dreaming about being RICH IN THE FUTURE, stop dreaming about learing to sing in the future. Stop dreaming about things happening in the future. it is about time to start DREAMING about things happening to you right now. Dream that you are richNOW, dream that you can sing NOW, dream that you can do everything NOW... and HE IS so RighT. I CAN Do eerything now.- I can do whatever I want, I can be whoever I want to be, I just have to take that step now... and I am about to.... :):)

ALSO, I made reservations to TI Amo Ristorante in Laguna beach. We are going there with our Long beach friends... We never beent o TI amo, , but I will let you know how food is there....

Forty Deuce

Saturday in Hollywood. FUN. Tantra, FOrty deuce, Russell Crowe and Sting.. Smoking indoors and more... If I was Russell Crowe and smoked indoors in Forty Deuce, nobody would make a big deal out of it.... But oh well, I was born as Diana Saare ...

TANTRA- awsome restaurant with beautiful interior and tasty food. And prices were pretty low (from 3-19 ) . Coctails-tasty...

I do not like watching sports...

...but with this TV I COULD. WOHOOO. Our plasma is up and WORTH every dollar. :)

Pop pop pop

Something weird just popped to my head...
You all have been to a kids birhtday party, of if not then friends birthday party. You all have searched for that PERFECT present for that perfect someone. ANd then Bday arrives. You wrap, you decorate, you write a card, you dress up, but on your best smile and WEEEEEEE... of you go to that fun fun fun party. You eat, and dance, and drink and play games with kids and pretend that you are having hellofatime... ( but really you are just checking time- is it 1pm yet, is it?
AND then it is time to open presents .... You look around in the room, everybodyis so fucking exited about it . WOHOO> You re getting sweaty, your hands are starting to shake, uh oh uh oh, they are opening your gift now... Does she/he likes it, is it the BEST GIFT he/she ever gotten...

And then it's open. Bday person looks at his mom with a nervous smile, you are not sure what is going on, OMG. OMG OMG. MOM looks back at birthdayperson with even more nervous smile - seems like there is some kind of weird communicaton between the 2 of them... AND THEN together they go- OH HOW FUN, we LOVE IT, oh thank you so much, your brother has one JUST LIKE IT. ..... WA wa wa wawa

I am not sure why I even posted it....lol but lately I have seen so many upset faces- KIDS DO NOT know HOW TO APRECIATE "THINGS" ANYMORE. ME NOT HAPPY, ME CRAPPY. SO NEXT TIME YOU INVITE ME TO YOUR BDAY- all you get is H U G .... and do not act confused.....

New year...

AND new season of PMS has officialy started. OH yeah baby.... moodswings, breakouts, sexual identiy issues ( I just made that up), irritabiltiy, hunger, hunger, hunger, hunger, moodiness... OH. AND imagine this, it will last about 2 weeks. I so am not looking forward to this"season" and my gyn just laughs and tells me - WELL, it is your own fault that you refuse to take birth control... IT will help OR, I can prescibe you some antidepressants blah blah blah... I told her- Look lady, you know my history, YOU know that some weird ingredient in those pills makes me hallusinate ( BIG TIME), AND you till are tryig to prescirby me some?? What's in it for you, bigger paycheck for selling some unnessesary drugs for totally inoscent bytander who has major PMS??? I rather drink bottle of vodka and check myself into AA or rehab, so I could meet LIndsey Lohan ( so what I don't really like her)... DUH...

Anyway, all I really wanted to tell you is , don't be scared if you see me with few extra pounds... Just think of those xtra pounds as- gallon of ice cream, or pork rinds, or 10 jars of mustard or hot and spicy chillies...( yeah, i got bloody blisters in my mouth because of chillies... )

OK. Off I go to check my eating disorder course ( yes, I am taking online eating disorders, becaue I think I HAVE few,,, ( You know , eating chillies and mustard and ice cream CAN"T be normal....

Major food overload....

I am complainer. I AM. I complain about everything and I WHINE, and I yell, and scream and compalin bit more. I started complaining to my dh about that he Never takes me to Caspian Restaurant. ( best persian food around). he takes his business partners there, his friends... BUT WHAT ABOUT ME>.... HE know I love persian foods, MY FAVORITE.

So he made reservations to Caspian. HUGE place. Not sure how many people it fits, but it was overloaded with different naionalities and if you did not have reservation , people had to wait 2 hours to get table. THAT how good and grazy that place was. AND of course, since it was saturday, bellydancers took stage... NOW, I am not professional bellydancer , but those "BELLYDANCERS" were NOT worth seing. NOT AT ALL. First of all, they did have bellies, but you have to WORK IT GIRLS. IF you want to get a dollar from me, better roll your belly and move those hips from left to the right, from right to the left... Anyways, it was just BLAH... B O R I N G .....
BUT FOOD, Oo MI GAD, food was soooo good, I think I am going to dream about my chicken and rice and eggplants and other things that were on that specialty plate. I love persian food because it is very flavorful ( JUST likeEstonian cuisine,but only different) It was just perfect dinner... I wanted to have baklava but , after I finished my chicken I just had no space for extras... :(:(:( , OH, and I tasted persian vodka... Pretty good. I ever had persian vodka before, so I really can not compare to any other persian brands.... :)

I think I will go back to that place, but only when there are no "wannabe" bellydancers on stage... ANd OH, they also danced rumba and salsa I think. Weird....

Hmh

I feel just a tiny bit of upset right now... Why , you ask.. Honestly, there has been a lot of misscommunication between my dh and I lately, and I AM sure misscom. part comes from his side..

What if your guys goes to business trip and you ask- Are you coming home today or tomorrow, ANd his repsonse would me- I might come home tomorrow, I might come home today, but most likely today.... SO I take this most likely version.. I wait, hour, 2. It is horrible storm outside, Our whole house is shaky..... and then I decided to call him.
" HONEY, are you coming home today ( his is in san jose)...
"NO, I am coming home tomorrow"
" Was it so hard for you to call us and let us know that YOU are NOT coming home today, because kids are waiting for you>>>>>
" I thought I told you, I MIGHT COME HOME TOMORROW...




UGh... I am just mad,. That is all... You are old enought to give us straight answer... So why was it so hard for him to do so???

Wohoo, I allready like year 2007

This had to go, to old, to broken, TO OUT....

AND this has to replace it!!! But you have no idea how much drama surrauds this tiny plasma... Find electricion, find articlulating mount, make sure plasma fits, etc... Right now it is all boxed up, but electricion (sp) gonna "fix " some extra outlets for our tv and then it is almost ready to be mounted and OH, we also have to call cable guy to get digital cable with all the extras, because I LOVE EXTRAS... can you belive.. We have been without tv for about 2 months.We do have tv upstairs but it only has about 9 channels... I

am SO ready to start WATCHING tv again....

I LOVE SURPRISES

How should I thank my very good friend , if we are thousands of miles apart?? I hope simple THANK YOU and Cyber hug will do it :) THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. You have no idea how happy you just made me.. I had to put candy away for few days, since I am fasting, but MUCIS and DVD's are AWSOME.... I miss you.. ANd hope to see you soon somewhere closer than Estonia..... ;)