Yeah. :)

I got my car back today. IT has new and updated navigation system, FINALLY my house is on right side of the road. lol And it knows where my dermatologist is in San Clemente. lol

Right now I am watching AMerican Idol. THis show sucks big time this year. I would sue them if Chris looses. Other "amateur singers" just suck ( well, Elliot is ok also), but still they are horrible and boring. At least Kelly has good " naive " kind fo sense of humor and makes me laugh every time she opens her mouth.... but it is starting to get old.... I really am hard to please. My husband was right.... Talking about my husband. Since may 1st is huuuuge holiday in china , people take week off , so he decided he spends thousand bucks and comes home. I rather see this money on our bank account, but oh well, if he misses us that much, let him come home for a week..... ;) We also can celebrate my birthday together( almost). My birthday is on May 8th, but he leaves on may 7th. SO I think WE have to do something exiting. We have gift sertificate to go to W hotels
http://www.starwoodhotels.com/whotels
( Thanks Sam), if we get a sitter and there is room vacant --- maybe....


Then I am pissed because my made did not show up today. I clean my house every day, but I want someone to do deep cleaning once a month. UGH. I guess she forgot. Yeah...

Yeah, right..

.. so finally today I took my ML 500 to dealership repears to get my navigation system fixed. That damn thing was driving me grazy. I can not stand broken things. THey are cluttering my mind and make me stressed. So when I got there the guy told me that there are few dents on my doors and they can get those taken out - 150 dollars per door. THanks, but NO thanks. I can live with tiny dents. But I can not live with broken navigation system. :):): Tomorrow I'll find out what the heck is going on.

Then. I got replacement car. At first they wanted to give me C230 ( I think), but then they saw my kids and 2 car seats and I got older ML 350. I HATE IT!!!! Yes, it is ML , big spaceous.... BUT IT IS fuckin'g 350. It aint 500. When I press gas pedal down I get potpot pot rrrrrrrrrpot potpot rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. It means it is not as fast as I like my car to be. It took me while to get used to driving it, becasue I am used to fast excelaration. lol. I am such a drama queen. My friend is right... she told me while ago that I make something out of nothing.... so what was I talking about again..... Just don't mind me today. I am just pissed because I got older car to replace my 2003 car. Blah......

Urb Brothers

Oh maaaaaan

Yeah, that is how I feel today. Today started out pretty good. I volunteer in my daughters classroom every friday. So as I was getting ready to go to her school suddenly something weird happened. I got horrible ringing in my ears, I could not hear anything for few seconds. I lost my balance and almost fell over. Very weird. After that I got very very weird headache . It is just in one part of my head- lover right side of my head( backside). It is still there and bothers me a lot. I allready took 2 prescription painkillers but nothing happened. Pressure and pain are still there and bother me a lot. :( I hate headaches. :(

Problem no 2. My car has awsome navigation system. But beginning this week it started playing tricks on me. One moment it is on, then second moment screan goes blank and nothing for 20 minutes. It irks me. So I called Mercedes service department and they are going to take a look what is going on. And of course things only happen when I do not need them to happen.
Tomorrow I have to drive to LA area. Vennad Urbid( Brothers Urb) are giving a concert in Estonian house and I do not want to miss that concert. I love Urbs. So now I have been printing out mapquest and Yahoo maps to get some directions . I have been in Estonian house few times, but navigation system took me there, I did not have to think about how to get there. Now I do and I am freeking out. Seriosly. I also printed out some alternative directions incase there is somthing wrong on road .... Oh, I really am messed up...


Problem 3. I just waisted 7.50 in movie theater. Seriosly. I WASTED it. Scary Movie 4 was piece of crap. I hated it . I usually like stupid kind of humor , but this one was just gross and stupid and gross one more time. I almost walked out of theater, but since I WASTED my money I had to sit there and "ENJOY" it till the end. And the ending was stupido.!!!

OK. Thats it for today. Stay tuned for more PMS. OR send me sone Tampax....

I'm just lazy

there is alot to write about, but I just don't want to. I lost interest. My latest news is thta WE ( R, G and I got Chinese visas and are ready to pack our bags and move to China - FOREVER...lol 25 days sounds like FOREVER. Nick better find me some interesting activities. I just hope that he does not force me to walk entire Grate wall - ......lol Kids are weird. They told me that they want to go to Estonia first and then think about if they want to go to China. They are weird.


Ok. Yeah, I am PMSing. But I don't get it. I really dont. This past year I get fever before my AF. ( yeah, I know to much information) . I get sick. I also get nausea, headaches, vomiting at times and horrible upper respiratory infections. Doctor looks at me and tells me. YUP, You are PMSing. WTF?? I know you are my good friend, but it does not give you the right to make fun of me when I feel misreable. Seriosly. He is a nutjob. WHy do I even bother to keep him as my doctor. Then he prescribes me antibiotics with refils and tells me- I know , in 4o days you will be back here complaning same thing , so there you go. I save you 35 dollars !!! Another WTF?? Is that how you are trying to tell me that you had enough and I should get my head checked??
But I just smile and say- Thank you doctor. I will sell these drugs on Ebay, because there are lot of people who are willing to pay lots of money for this piece of relief. Then he looks at me and tells me- " I trust you ! " Then he opens the door, tells me see ya'. After this doctors wisit I am 70 dollars poorerererer - it is like loosing 7 bottles of pretty good wine....

Dreams..

I don't know even from where to start. For about week now ( since febr 12th) I have had these weird dreams. They do not include my husband or my EX boyfriends. First of all, every time there is full moon out I loose my sleep, I have nightmares , I wake up sweating and I see things I should not be seeing. ( no , silly, I am not grazy, These weird visions, dreams have been with me since I can remember). This time things got really weird. This guy I am dreaming about is about 29 years old. I met him when I was 14 years old and we only spent like week together just hanging out( singing camp/festival). Well, first night I had a dream that we had a baby together and he hated me Jerry springer way, He even started a world war 3 because he hated me like I was murderer. Next night I dreamed about him wanting to marry me, Then we had another baby , then he came to USA to pick me up and take me back to Estonia. WTF??
I always have very vivid colorful dreams. And I do not dream a lot. But when I do dream everything seems so real and when I wake up , I have to pinch myself to make sure I am awake now.

Last Night dream was really weird. I was in top of a cliff waiting for him. I had this amazing view , and I saw him driving towards me with his Pink Cadillac( I don't think he has Pink cadilac lol). He was wearing sute and I was super exited about just meeting him. But then , when he opened his car door , to step out... My alarm clock went off.... I am not sure why I am having these dreams. We never ever ever dated, and since I was 14 I have met him only twice.
I think I am just lonley....

I really want to work.

But I do not want to have normal job, like OFfice job. I want to movie critic , or mystery shopper , or food critic. Something on those lines. Yeah, I want to judge everything and let everybody know what I think and get payed for it. I used to be mystery shopper( for cheesecake factory, but I only got payed for amount that I spent in restaurant and if it was over 40 dollars , I had to pay it out of my pocket. But it was fun. I had to evaluate all the small details in restaurant, flowers, dust, people, clean staff, how fast my wishes were filled, etc . IT really was fun. But I had to stop it because after one lunch In cheese cake factory I was served salad with wood stick hiden in it and I almost pierced my cheek with it. THey told me they are sorry and that is it. I was so pissed what happened I just stopped going there for food.

I think I find another mystery shopping site and start doing it again with my free time.

What drink are you

You Are a Martini

There's no other way to say it: you're a total lush. You hold your liquor well, and you hold a lot of it!

What Mixed Drink Are You?

Yeah, not that I am proud of that I am Martini, but I sure do love martinis. lol

How Ironic...

.. at first I thought I am doing something wrong because my laptop gets hit with one virus after another. And Now I know I am doing something wrong. I let my kids play with it. Today , after just month being clean, major something hit my laptop. ( after one of my sweethearts finished playing Disney.com). I turned on my computer and within 6 seconds everything was gone from it. Hardwares, softwares, links icons. ... I do not get it. I have virus protection, spyware protection, everything is up do date, and my computer is still under attack. I give up. I do not know what to do next to protect my computer from being attacked. Bummer....

Oh, what a fun weekend.

(Walnut and goat cheese terrine)

...but I am sooo glad it is over. Our busy weekend started early on Friday morning. I went to costco, ralpsh, vons, trader joes, to get all the items needed for nics party. I spent about 550 dollars for food. And then fun started. I started pounding, mixing, scaling, timing - all the dirty work had to be done before saturday. I cleaned, moved furniture.... It was busy day, but fun day because I HAD CHANCE TO COOK. On friday night Nick and I went out to wine testing. OMG. When we entered wines store we were feeling just fine, when we left 1,5 hours later we were DRUNK. 10 different australian wines- whewwwww.
Then around 10 pm on friday night I started baking his cake. I was done with it around midnight.

On saturday noon, Leila ( friend from LA area) came over to help me out with preparations . We diced, chopped, cleaned, decorated- we did every little thing that had to be done to make this party( nicks Birthday party) a great success.
Guest started arriving around 6pm. Thank you guys so much for taking time off from your busy chedules and making my DH feel so special on his birthday. He ( we) really did enjoy having you all over in our house eating, drinking, laughing etc. I would love to write more about his party, but I am really tired right now and have no idea how to put my thoughts into words.
Thank you :)

Leila, Jennifer, Jill and I

Nick and Jennifer

Jason, Lulu and Beth :)

Quick preview...... moment from my Dh's birthday party. This picture just cracks me up. Seriosly, look at as....lol

Happy Birthday to youuuu.

Menu
1. Goat Cheese Terrine- Goat cheese, cream cheese, blue cheese, chives,
cilantro, walnuts
2. Salt cured Salmon - Salmon

3. Appetizers- crab meat, mayo, smoked salmon, cream cheese filled
crusty
puffs

4. Cabbage rolls filled with vegetables and meat

5. Potato salad with a kick- Chinese cabbage, potatoes, red bell
peppers,
cucumbers,
tomatoes, green onions, cilantro, canned peas and carrots,
dressing.

6. Pre-marinated grilled beef

7. 3 lbs of tiger shrimp ( with jack cheese sauce)

8. Pesto Potatoes( boiled)

9. Asparagus with lemon sauce and peppers( steamed), OR steamed mixed vegetables.

10. (pre-marinated) Roasted leg of lamb( with balsamic vinegar reduction

11. Kypsise tort( farmers cheese, strawberry preserves, whipped cream,
fresh
strawberries, condensed milk.)

12. Miniature cheesecakes/ Birthday cake.

13. Single serving desserts( cheesecake, chocolate mousse, whipped
cream,
hot chocolate, caramel sauce, Ice cream,peanut butter, macademia nut butter

14. Bread rolls( pizza dough, cream cheese, bacon, sundries tomatoes, cucumber- baked minutes before dinner)

Drinks, drinks , drinks.( margaritas, cosmos, apple sours.... vodka, whisky,

15. Snitzels( pork)

Ok, this is Menu for my Dh's Birthday. But I know some of the items are subject to change. If weather is rainy- grilling is out of question and I have to come up with roasted fish or chicken.
Also, I will play around with apetizers and see what I come up with.

So , if you guys have nothing to do on April 1st, come celebrate April Fools day with us. ( well, march 31st is my Dh's 40th Birhtday, but we are having a party on April 1st. around 6 pm. :)>):)

James..

Cry
James Blunt
I have seen peace.
I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?

And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend.
I'll cry on your shoulder.
You're a friend.
You and I have lived through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,But don't go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me,
and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I hate evenings.

Today started out really nice. We woke up 8.30 and had pancake breakfast, even Gabriel ate them.lol Then 3 of us played , cleaned garage and around 4 pm we went to Borders book store. Now it is 9 pm and my head is about to explode. I have horrible headache and my eyes are swollen red. I am starting to think that there are some spring allergies that make me feel like this . Seriously.... And then I had headed argument with Nick over the phone... same old, same old. I am sick and tired and he is working his ass off and does not understand why I am sick and tired if I do not have to work. He even dared to compare me with " chinese" females whose husbands are away 6 months at a time and they manage to stay stress free. FUCk the other people. What the heck do I and other people have in common? We are human? That is about it. Cheesh.. what is with him. Find yourself some chinese chick who can cook , clean and stay happy 24/7 with 2 kids. I am not "that " kind of girl.

Srry. I really needed to went. I am sure I regret tomorrow that I even mentioned it, but I really have to let some steam out....

:)

Well, it is friday. Gabriels shool had Parent(s) night out. Yeah, wohoo, awsome, great, I was so freekin' exited. ( whatever). So I dropped Regina and Gabriel to Tutor Time and I went to see 16 Blocks( Bruce willis). No regrets , awsome movie. I just hated that one bad guy who finally did a good thing in a bad way got away..... Happy hollywood ending....
So , about 40 minutes into movie I got a phone call from my doctor ( it was 8.45 pm) about my labs. Luckily I do not carry arthiritus gene but he told me to come back to office sometimes next week to run more tests to find the reason of my pains.
Today new kind of pain appeared. I but on my favorite pair of boots with midium size heals. At first everything was fine, but when I was walking from my car to movie theater both of my feet started hurting to the point I was in tears. Month ago I did not have that pain. Seems like my bones have started drifting to some different direction. :(
Ugh, I want nick to come back and find a good job in US. ( at least 150 000 dollars per year lol) and good health insurance ...

Ok. I have to give Regina meds now. She is still coughing ( she started in January) and nothing makes her cough go away. she also has Laryngitis .


So far these are all of my symptoms.
Joint pains
Fluid filled systs ( ganglion cysts)
Bladder Dysfunction
Bowel Dysfunction
problems with memory
attention,
Dizziness
Depression Fatigue

Balance or Coordination Problems

Abnormal Numbness or Pain

Vision Problems
nausea

Headache

Itching

I need to get out of this house. Outside is most wonderful spring weather and all I do is sit inside. But I am to lazy, I am to tired, I am so sick , I am so busy. I have way to many excused not to go out. But the most accurate one is I am lazy and I have pink eye and my eyes are very sensitive to light right now.

Nick comes home next week. Wohoo. At least I get few "easyer day", because I NEED THEm. I am so burned out.

Not very good day. :(

Today started out not very good. After I woke up I did my streching routine, but I overdid it , I heard a " CRACK" and my back awas locked. I was not able to move. At least kids were sleeping so I had some time to get myself together and but on a smily face. lol I made appointment to see my favorite chiro Dr Ray from PodyPro! and after few "CRACKs" I feel 50 % better. But that is not it.

Few days ago my eyes started hurting and looked puffy. People asked if I was crying or tyred or sick, because my face looked horrible. :( So I went to see doctor for that. And guess what, I have conjunctivitis (pink eye). I got eyedrops for that and I feel much better now. :) I also asked from my doctor why my pains ( bone, joints) are getting worse, not better. He drew some blood to test for artiritus( sp), if tests come back fine, then they will let me know whats the next step will be. Until then I just have to take Celebrex, and since my insurance does not cover it , I have to pay in full ( 107 dollars- monthly dose- I think). Anyway, I am just getting tired of being in pain. I am used to pain, but I have to give up a lot because of pain. There are things I want to do but I can not . I want to get down on floor and play with kids, but it is really hard for me to get down on all four, and play pony rides with them, I want to carry them around them sitting on my sholders- I can't. I am 27 going on 70. :( I want my health back. I want my life back.

The real housewives of Orange county.

Oh wow. Unbelivable. Real housewives??? WTFDTM?? And they are from OC?? WOW. I AM SO EXITED. Maybe I should drop my "poor" husband, go out and findmyself billioner boyfriend so I could get myself boob job, liposuction and full face job ( so I could better fit in///) Just kidding.
What comes next from OC. ?? There is Laguna Beach on MTV, OC, Real life Housewives, and somthing else. Only thing that is missing is - How low income people manage to survive in OC. Orange county is not only Newport Beach, Coto De Caza, or Laguna Beach. There are plenty of lover income citys here. HEre are lot of homeless people ( men, woman, kids) who have no jobs or food to eat before bedtime. But show about them will not get any good ratings , right. SO why spend some Good money on people who have no money??? Life. I do not get it.

Headlines....

As many of you may know by now, Donald is Daddy- again. And I can see future headlines- DONALD TRUMP FOUND DEAD in his bedroom, Melania and baby missing.
I think that Melania is very very very smart woman- and of course he loves Donald and is greatly attracted to him- I blame it on Money..... ( sorry Melania and Donald, I am just being brutally honest.....)

New Trump: Donald, Melania Have a Boy

Monday Mar 20, 2006 7:35am EST
Monday Mar 20, 2006 1:20pm EST (updated)

By Stephen M. Silverman

CREDIT: DAVE ALLOCCA / STARTRAKS

It's a baby boy for Donald Trump and wife Melania, the real-estate entrepreneur announced Monday.

The couple's son, Barron William Trump, was born at 5 a.m. and weighed in at 8 1/2 lbs., Trump tells PEOPLE.

"It's a beautiful baby and she's a beautiful mother," says the 59-year-old Apprentice star.

Of his wife Melania, Trump said, "I just think she's looking forward to being a great mother. I have no doubt how good she will be."

Money, money,money..

What is wrong with everybody?? Fundriser here , fundriser there... Reginas school has Jog-a- thons, Gabriels school has See's candy fundriser, then couple of other families asked money.... do I look like a millioner to you guys. I shop at walmart and Kohls on sales rack... so there you go... nobody will get any money from me.... I am poor.... I spend all my extra money for photography and shutterfly.... and pictureframes. I need more pictureframes..... I do not have enough pictureframes....

I am just little bitter today because everything just pisses me off. People are loosing weight eating meat. People are loosing weight eating bread.,.. And there is me, who eats bread and chicken and I gain weight. ??? I have been monitoring my diet past few weeks. I wrote down how much I ate, what time I ate. Every time my daily intake exceded more than 1400-1500 cal , I gained weight. Every time I had pork, I gained weight. On each day I had 10 containers of yoplay fat free yogurt- I lost weight, On those days I had one head of cabbage I lost weight.... I am so sick of healthy food. Seriosly, I want to eat chicken without worring about feeling sick. I want to eat cheese and not get upset stomach. I want to live happily ever after without worring about money, health problems, cancer, and what other people think. I want world peace.
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