Happy New Year!Year 2006 (Red Dog) is the 4703rd Chinese year. The Chinese believe that the first king of China was the Yellow King (he was not the first emperor of China). The Yellow King became king in 2697 B.C., therefore China will enter the 4703rd year on February 4th, 2006. Also, the Chinese Year uses the cycle of 60 Stem-Branch counting systems and the Red Dog is the 23rd Stem-Branch in the cycle. Since 4700 = (60 *78) + 23, therefore this Red Dog Year is the 4703rd Chinese Year. Complicated??? Tell me about it. lol last night ( saturday) we went to our friends B day and it was also Chinese new years ever. ( she is wearing pink sweater on Pic, Melody). We started out in some Mr Pocets sports bar, where we played pool, arcade, foosball, ... and around 6.pm we went to chinese restaurant. I was not impressed with that restaurant very much. Food was toooo sweet, ( even my dh thought that food sucked big time). We do not like sweet chinese food. We love everything spicy.!!!!! After that party we went to other pary- one of our friends moves to London and she invited all the estonian chicks to her house( regulars, I mean). Almost all the girls had bought cake with them, so all there really was to eat were cakes- cheesecakes, rhubarb pie, apple pie, grazy hair cake( srry Leila, that is how I call that cake), and some other cakes ... so it was sweeeet night. ;). TODAY- sunday, we went to one more B day- it was first B day to our friends baby. Happy B Day Josh. Joshuas dad was men of the day and grilled us huuuuge hamburgers, stakes, sausages- food was awsome. Kids played, I ate, sun was shining and now I regret that I ate b/c my jeans are fitting really tight and I keep promising - tomorrow I will start my diet, tomorrow I will start my diet- and Like that I have been promising for 3 weeks now. But oh well, there is always day after tomorrow......;)

Nothing much is going on now. Today we went to see Big Mommas House2. FUNNY, VERY FUNNY!! Tomorrow we got lots of things going on. Birthday Party, Chinese New Years Eve, one of our friend is moving to london- so she has open house by-by party ( also tomorrow. Then , on sunday we have one more B party to go. At least we have something to do instead of sitting home and eating. ( yup, I am still eating. ) I gained 6 lbs within 8 days and working out is not an opiton right now. I tryed, but I ran out of breath after 10 minutes of biking, walking or lifting weights. So , if you see me in near future DO NOT ASK IF I AM PREGNANT- just know, I just got fat...

blues, I got wednesday blues...

Srry I have note been calling, emailing, chitchatting on msn or just catching up with you on any other way. I have very good reason for that- I JUST DONT FEEL LIKE IT. :( DO I sound mean? Do not take it personally- it is all in my head, You have done nothing wrong ;).
My healt is almost back to normal, only thing that is bothering me is sinus pressure now. But I think it is because Santa Ana winds brought some awsomely polluted air to Laguna Niguel and my allergies are acting up( not fun) . My bladder infection and tonsilitus are under control and I do not have to use restroom in every 5 minutes. :)

OK. OH, I forgot to mention. Past 5 days I have been eating like I am on steroids( not a joke). Antibiotics I am taking are making me hungry 24/7. I wake up middle of the night and I am hungry, I finished eating my breakfast and I am hungry, and I MEAN HUNGRY. If I do not get to eat food when I want it , I get those weird chills- GIMME FOOD NOW CHILLLLLS. AND I get very very very moody.... I have 5 more days on antibiotics . My pants don't fit me anymore.... APPI ( HELP)

I wish...

This weather that we had for couple of days, would last all year long. It is not to hot, not to cold- just right. perfect. :)
My dh is home now, kids are happy, I am happy and he is happy and all I hear is what a life, what a life what a life. blahblahblah. lol Yeah, i am PMSing and all the other things combined...

Anyway, yesterday , after we dropped kids to school we went to Barnes and Noble. he had coffe, I had my grande nonfat decaf latte with splenda... It was good.

Since sun was shining and weather was perfect, we headed to the beach. Laguna Beach was just beautiful yesterday. And we took some pictures and I discovered that something is wrong with my lense, there was some dust stuck inside somewhere and because of that my pictures had darks spots on them. So last night I read the manual and cleaned my camera..... But regardless
of that my dh got some good pictures of me and I got some good ones of him....

HELP....

In an hour I have to drive to LAX( los angeles airport) that is about 55 miles away. No big deal, my car has navigation system and I find it- even if I take wrong exit or miss right exit- I will find it.
Problem- my fever is back and i sneeze million times per hour. Also I got couple of little nosebleeds. Just wish me luck because my 2 whiny/tired/ sick kids will be with me on every step on the road.

Oh, i forgot to mention that I am going to LAX because my dh is coming home, so he could back his suitcase again to fly somewhere else. What a life....

Still hungry...

..I am still hungry and I am still eating scocolate I even added some chocolate chips into my salad....lol I am loosing my mind.....

But today I want to tell you about other things like what I pay to keep my smile almost white and what I do to keep my skin clean ( almost clean).

Now , that I have dental insurance I decided to update my fillings, they kind of lost theyr shine and started bothering me again. So today I got one filling changed. I HATE when doctors pokes my gums with needle and injects that numbing medicine. Oh I hate it so much I want to bite off his fingers every time he does it. Then I have to hang out all by myself for 10 minutes and then fun starts. He drills and pokes and drills and bonds and scrapes and drills some more and after some 20 minutes of drilling and filling my molar was done. My mouth was numb, my lips felt like they had tripled in size and bit my inner cheek at least 10 times before medicine wore off. AND now I am stuck with headache and toothace and with a huge regret that I decided to get my filling changed.

But I have to go back on friday, because there are 2 more ugly fillings that have to be changed( who sayes that they have ? I DO). And after I get these temporary fillings( 90 dollars each), I wait until september and then my "REAL" insurance finally kicks in and I can get brand new shiny crowns!!!! wohooo for those....( around 450 dollars each, but if I did not have insurance then it would be around 1000 dollars each).

I also saw my dermatologist. He was pretty happy how my skin finally looks. And then I told her , HELL YEAH, IT BETTER LOOK GOOD, I am paying fucking 50 dollars for Plexion mask( insurance only pays 20 dollars), I am paying 65 dollars for Rosac and then there is that Retin-A that costs more that all the other creams.( oh, and cheapest one of them all is Amoxicillin that I am taking 1500 mg per day, I only pay 5 dollar co payment for those) After I told him that, He looked at me for a minute, wrote down something on his little black book and then he told me- WE ARE DOING SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR MEDS. I HAD NO IDEA THAT YOU HAD TO PAY THAT MUCH FOR YOUR MEDICATIONS.( well, I did not before, but after my husband quit his awsome job, and we switched insurances, we got one that has horrible prescription medication plan, who new....) So now I have to try out all the generic brands for those meds that I am using, and if they work , I stay on them, if not- I have to pay high price to stay blemish free....

There goes my diet- again...

I did so good for a week with my dieting. I avoided sweets, ate about 1500 cals per day... but today was different. VERY different. This morning I woke up very, very hungry- so I made myself some cressents with parmesan, olive and sun dryed tomato filling. For lunch I had 2 bowls full of broccoly and smoked cheese soup, and for dinner- I had healthy dinner. I had salad. And then , around 8 PM real fun started. I started having chocolate grawings. BIG ones, and not just for chocolate. I wanted something MORE than just plain chocolate.

I checked my pantry, refrigirator, drawers etc . . I found vanilla pudding( powder form), cinnamon, Vana tallinn( liqour) , semi sweet chocolate chips, swiss sweet chocolate, and half and half. I heated some cream, poured in chocolate chips, powdered chocolate, vanilla , cinnamon - heated it until everything was nice and melted, then I added some vanilla pudding, honey and Vana Tallinn. I turned down the heat, poured everything into mixer and mixed it until it all was nice and foamy. OH AND NOW I HAVE been eating it. IT is sooooo good. Rich, and creamy and sweet and bitter same time. I wanna stop but I can not. I feel addicted. I had about 2 cups allready and 2 more are waiting. I need help. Someone- please take my spoon away and lock me into dark room without food for a week...... I NEED HELP!!!!!

...

OK. Please forgive me for being honest.....
Anyway, this was little shocker for both of us. Anorexia has left Estonia. Seriously. Where were all skinny girls wearing skimpy hooker like clothing??? OH, I forgot, it is winter in Estonia, so everyone probably gained kilo or 10 to keep themselves warm.... lol even my husband noticed it when we went to clubs and bars. But I am sure, if I go back during summertime ( whenever that happens), unhealthy underweight girls showing to much skin will be all over the place. There is still 5,1/2 months till warmer weather, so all of you still have some time to work out before hooker clothing season starts.....

Let me just do what I know best....

Oh, here I go. My trip to estonia was very different this time. I went there with my family, it was cold there and I finally got it- I LOVE USA, I LOVE CALIFORNIA.Yup. As mad as I may sound, I did not feel right home there this time. I think I am just spoiled.
****My search for best latte****
I may say that I did not find it. Wherever I went and ordered my latte, something was wrong with it. AND THEY do not make non fat or low fat lattes there, ( most of the lattes are made with 3,5% milk). So I had fat lattes, that had no real flavor. I MISSED MY STARBUCKS A LOT. bohooo. Latte sucked, but I do have to mention the best place I got it- it was in ADAVERE windmill( little restaurant/ tourist attraction). It was nothing special, but it tasted better than other coffee drinks.

*** Nowhere to go with kids???**(Laura is non smoker))
I wish estonia was as smoke free as CA. Trust me, it is horrible there. People even smoke in shopping malls( restaurant areas). It was very hard for us to go out with kids and have dinner somewhere. We managed to do so couple of times, but it was not plesent experience when smoker here, smoker there, smokers on left, smokerson right... We tryed to eat as fast as possible and then headed outside. GUESS what, when you get cought smoking outsides you may get fined( Yup, no smoking outside in public places) . YES, I did smoke to couple of times, but I left my cigarettes to estonia, and I never did so when kids were around.( bad me)

***More to come*** Estonia is gaining weight***

Grandma', grandpa', Gabriel and Regina

Nick, me and Allan( my grandmother and his grandfather were brother and sister, AND My grandpa and his grandma were brother and sister ( ( he had few beers... as you can see.... and he was about to have few more....

Happy 7th Anniversary to us( December 28th, 2005)

:):):)

Now I know...

all of you , who have been reading my Life as it Is Blog, know our current situation. www.diana78.blogspot.com
Now I know why people always complain about covernment jobs/facilities etc. Fuck- LA passport services sucks, passport general info sucks, USPS sucks and workers there suck because systems they operate suck.
I Am sooo hireing a lawer if I do not get MY promised passport tomorrow morning. Does paying for overnight express delivery means that it reallly takes 4 overnights to deliver one fucking important document??? AND why isn't her package in USPS system for tracking???? Someone needs some serious spanking!!!!!!!

Oh my dear Estonian people- wait another 10 hours before I can give you YES or NO. I feel embarrased that I got everybodys hopes up and I feel sad if we do not get to go to EST this year. I know my mom is very exited about us going. And I hate to make her sad. And Regina and Gabriel started crying when i told them that we may not go tomorrow. Kids are so aware what is going on in here. They hear me talking on the phone they see me crying and they know - OH NO, REGINAS PASSPORT IS Not IN LAGUNA NIGUEL YET! lol I hate , hate, hate, hate letting everyone down, and it is not even my fault. Oh, WTF. It is 10.10 pm and I have not had anything to eat today. I tryed to eat apple, but after 2 bites I just threw up( yeah, that is how "exited" I am about things not going the way they supposed to go.

Good Night, Good Morning and Happy holidays. I need hugs and lots of them.

My day...

Today was totally MY day. lol It did not start out as MY day but it ended. Today I had guy in the house who had to prime my ceiling and walls. Last week i had constuction guys in my house because my ceiling had huge long cracks and some of my walls looked just stupid. So I just called to s&S construciton and they fixed it. SO today the was the day my walls got primed . AND tomorrow is another big day. My diningroom window has moisture seal block and moisture has sneaked in between 2 windows. TOmorrow my window will be replaced. UGH. Long day with people I do not know..

Well, anyway. I got 2 awsome packages from Estonia today. One from my Mom and one from my friend. My mom sent me 4 packs of my favorite coffee in whole wide world ( Presidentti Caffee) it is a Finnish coffee and it is my absolute favorite. That just made my day.

Then another package arrived. And when I opened it it just blew me away. The other day I was thinking emailing to my friend and telling her that I miss her teas. ( she picks and tries tealeaves, herbs, special berries etc, immune system boosters ). And when I opened the box , it had 3 different kinds of teas in ( OH I am in heaven), chocolate and cookies for kids( Estonian ones. My Christmas spirit is back. I am so fuckin' happy today. Seriously. I can not stop smiling. I have not had sex for loooooooong time, and if people see me like this , they will definitely think I had some recently..... lol

Oh, something did go wrong today.... I forgot to apply sunscrean today. I am using some meds and creams to clear my acme and because of that I can not expose my skin to sun. Today I went out to pick Regina from school and I totally forgot. Now my face hurts and burns, and I only was on sun about 8-10 minutes. Hope my skin does not peel off tomorrow.

What a good day...

Today was totally MY day. lol It did not start out as MY day but it ended. Today I had guy in the house who had to prime my ceiling and walls. Last week i had constuction guys in my house because my ceiling had huge long cracks and some of my walls looked just stupid. So I just called to s&S construciton and they fixed it. SO today the was the day my walls got primed . AND tomorrow is another big day. My diningroom window has moisture seal block and moisture has sneaked in between 2 windows. TOmorrow my window will be replaced. UGH. Long day with people I do not know..

Well, anyway. I got 2 awsome packages from Estonia today. One from my Mom and one from my friend. My mom sent me 4 packs of my favorite coffee in whole wide world ( Presidentti Caffee) it is a Finnish coffee and it is my absolute favorite. That just made my day.

Then another package arrived. And when I opened it it just blew me away. The other day I was thinking emailing to my friend and telling her that I miss her teas. ( she picks and tries tealeaves, herbs, special berries etc, immune system boosters ). And when I opened the box , it had 3 different kinds of teas in ( OH I am in heaven), chocolate and cookies for kids( Estonian ones. My Christmas spirit is back. I am so fuckin' happy today. Seriously. I can not stop smiling. I have not had sex for loooooooong time, and if people see me like this , they will definitely think I had some recently..... lol

Oh, something did go wrong today.... I forgot to apply sunscrean today. I am using some meds and creams to clear my acme and because of that I can not expose my skin to sun. Today I went out to pick Regina from school and I totally forgot. Now my face hurts and burns, and I only was on sun about 8-10 minutes. Hope my skin does not peel off tomorrow.

The end of the world is close by.... I am wearing white.. Not sure what happened, but other day I went to Mervins. And there it was- hanging between black and gray jackets- White beautiful midlengt jacket. Price tag 50%off original price. I tryed it on and it fit and it looked good,and people walking by commented how nice I looked on this white jacket.....lol I just had to have it... and then, I went home and found my sisters knitted scarf. Wrapped it around my short neck around my head and voilaa.... I look like something else......

Madonna..

.. I just have to talk about her today. I LUV, LUV, LUV her. She is so fucking awsome. Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, I allready see your faces, and hear your comments- but I DO NOT CARE!! I love her. She has been my favorite since I remember. I always admired her. i am not much into that kaballah or chaballah or whatever ballah thing, but I am totally INTO her. TOTALLY. If I was gay, I would stalk her until my face was on front page of PEOPLE magazine. lol. But since I am almost happily married, I just drool in fron of Tv and secretly try to act like her. Oh, BTW, my brettish accent is much better than hers. lol

And she is such an awsome shape.... OH, I want her to be my trainer....

*******
Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly

Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up
I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call
Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Time goes by so slowly for those who wait
No time to hesitate
Those who run seem to have all the fun
I'm caught up
I don't know what to do

Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly
Time goes by so slowly
I don't know what to do

Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up
I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call
Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up
I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call
Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Ring ring ring goes the telephone
The lights are on but there's no-one home
Tick tick tock it's a quarter to two
And I'm done
I'm hanging up on you

I can't keep on waiting for you
I know that you're still hesitating
Don't cry for me
'cause I'll find my way
you'll wake up one day
but it'll be too late

Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up
I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call
Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Every little thing that you say or do
I'm hung up
I'm hung up on you
Waiting for your call
Baby night and day
I'm fed up
I'm tired of waiting on you

Whatever..

These past couple of months have been nothing but grazy. I have not had good night sleep since Nick left. Most nights I sleep 5-6 hours , there are nights I only get to sleep 4 hours. I am afride to fall asleep alone. . I am tired, grumpy and people just irritate me. Yeah, I know- BLAH, blah, blah blah- get some sleep. BU HOW???? I just can not fall asleep alone. I check kids million times during the night. I wake up ever 30 minutes because this freeking 3300 sq/f house is just creeping me out. And our cat has to go before christmas. I can not take it anymore. I sneeze like grazy and cat hair is everywhere. And last night I found my cat in my bathroom licking my retainers. Yuck. On monday I will go and get myself new retainers. NO WAY I stick something into my mouth that is licked by some cat , who licked his @$$ before licking my retainers.

Anyway, I am sleepy but I can not sleep. My mind is busy and restless , I am hungry and it is 11.16 pm.

M a d w o m a n Diana

Overall , awsome day!!!

Yeah!! After multiple phone calls to Trenton NJ, I finally got some questions answered. I mentioned you about Reginas Birth certificate coming in with typos. Well, at first they started blaming me, that I made mistakes on my application. SO I told them, look you ladies, I have it here with me and I am about to fax it to you. YOU tell me then that there are mistakes in my DD application. Suddenly they got really busy, but me on hold and after few minutes on hold, they got back to me and told me, SRRY madam, you were right, person who typed up these certificates made mistake. BUT to fix it, I HAVE to send it in with explanation letter and with my birth certificate copy. DUH!!! I told them I have ordered them before and they DO not need my birth certificate, just give me address, and number of the people who are responsible for this 35 dollar month late mistake. So I got more number, and after few more phonecalls I STILL have to mail in Reginas Birth certificate with explanation letter,but I do not have to include mine. Cool. They wanted me to mail it in with overnight delivery- 47 fucking dollars!!! Hell no!!!!!!!!!!! So I just did monday delivery that costed me 27 dollars. heck, *^*(%(*&(__&*&% I hate spending money on someone elses mistake.!!! ORDER!!! WHERE IS ORDER!????


Anyway, after that hectic morning I helped out in my daughters class, as I do in every friday. Then we got home, ate lunch, picked up Gabe. Dropped my kids off to playmates( after school acitivity/daycare) around 5.30pm. AND then the real fun started. My neighbors invited me to have dinner with them and then we went to see movie. We had dinner at Macaroni Grill. It was ok. I ordered wrong salad. It was way to sweet and way to fatty. YUCK!!! I hate fatty dressings. After few bites of my salad I was full. But then I saw dessert list and I had to get myself tiramisu- YUCK again. It was WRONG, WRONG, WRONG!!! If you ever had tiramisu before , then you know it has to be nice, moist, full of mascapone and coffeee. But this one was waaaay to dry, way to fresh, way to b l a n d!!!!! But I enjoyed dinner with friends. ANother funny thing my neighbors is--- I just found out that they TO got married in Las Vegas. They DO got married on 28th of december, but they got married in 1996, we got married in 1998. I mean, me and S. have the same "dry", weird, mean, kind of sence of humor. We constantly make jokes about each other and laugh out loud. lol We like same kind of things, same kinds of movies, even same kinds of foods. And our views about how to rise kids are same also. I little spooked out. lol And what is even spookier, our sons look like brothers.!!! I SWEAR!! Gabriel and D. look like brothers. ( He son is 7 months younger than Gabe.) :):):)

Oh, the movie we went to see was SAW 2. OH boy, lots and lots of blood. I LOVED IT!!! Saw on was more suspencful, but saw 2 was just bloody mess. lol Good mess!!!!!!! Thumbs up!!!!