Birds love me...

Today starte out crappy, so I decided to take my camera and Head to Dana Point . Weather is cold and crappy, insurance companies are cold and crappy....

At least I got some luv from birds. They worked they" tails" off to get me take pics of them. They landed next to my and just stared at me like I was alian from Europe ( kind off...). And when i was about to leave Dana Point , one seal decided to pay me a wisit and cheer me up :)

good sale...

I LOVE HOME DEPOT. I DO , I do , I dooododoodododo. 2 days ago I went to home depot because I really need to buy few plants, to freshen up my front yard. I t looks dead, BUT instead I left the store with 2 brand spankin' new RUGS. YES RUGS. Beautiful contemporary designer rugs, with not so designer price... Rugs for my living room had price tag on, and it was 570 dollars, But I got it with 120 ( clearance) and smaller rug for living room had 270 dollar tag, I payd 50 dollars. I am so fucking exitid about it. These rugs are SO my style and color that I almost started crying right there in Home depot, when they told me how much they are worth. lol. I am such a dork...haha

BTW , I'll be going to las Vegas again,but this time with my kids and with my girlfriend from Estonia. ;) I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!

Babyshower

Today was such a fun day... We were invited to Piias Babyshower. ( one pretty cool estonian "chick") hihi. Babyshower was in her friends house. i met couple of "new" estonians ( new to me) and few other people I have not met before . Overall we had fun. We played few "babyshower"games like Guess what food is in that jar, and guess how big Piia is and nobody could say word BABY . etc. :)

After party we headed home and now kids are sleeping and I am trying to choose next song for my school performance. First song I sang was Que sera sera and i think I did pretty good...lol now I am between Orionco flow, Everything I do, I do it for you, strangers in the night and Eternal flame. I love all those songs and it is really hard to choose between them. Orionco flow song is my fave, but it is really hard to sing. Lyrics are little hard to remember and hard to pronounce out. I am leaning toward Strangers in the night. I LOVE LOVE THAT song, so I better practice little more before stepping on spotling....

OMG. I am just stupid...+ electrical issues..

Today is tuesday. About 2 hour ago my lights started flickering- in every few minutes they would flash for a second and then turn back to normal. I started getting scared, what if we are going to loose electricity... So I went to Sand Diego Gas and Electric website to find more info and see if something was going on with electricity. YES there is . In Mission viejo area there are about 2000 people without electricity, and seems like people in laguna niguel area are starting to loose it too. I am NOT liking it. Not one bit. :(:(:((:( ---- Suspected problem ---- Underground electrical problem. I hope this problem will be resolved really fast. :)

OK. DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME....

Ok. here I am trying to follow all those "beauty secrets" that supposed to make you look younger... So , for few days I have had really puffy eyes. Kind of like I have bad hangover kind of eyes...lol so I did some reserach and went to walgreens. I made sure I was the only customer in store, and after confirming that I walked straight to Preparation H isle and started comparing Right Prep H for me..hahahah. Those , who do not know what preparation H is, then go there,

http://www.preparationh.com/index.asp?src=google

I got the mildest one... You know, after all, I do not want it to shring my whole face..... go, tht would be really ugly.... I payed, rushed home and ' applyed it under my eyes... OMG. OMG OMG. It is not working. Instead of me having puffy eyes, Now I have puffy , red and swollen eyes. THANKS god i trryed it on my face first. Think about it, if I applyed Prep H to my @$$ first, what would have happene. My @$$ would have swollen to a size of an really huge watermelon ( or 2)... Whewww, thanks got we now have eliminated that problem....

Now I have to figure out how to get rid of my swollen eyes.. I do not want to walk to school tomorrow morning and see all the parents whispering- SHE must stayed awake whole night figuring out how to get that Prep H swelling down.....

OK. Off I go to stick my face into to bowl of ice....

:)

Today I did some driving. I drove to LA and back It was worth the trip. lol Well, I attended tiny brainstorming meeting in LA Eesti majas bout upcoming LEP... :) Leila also took time off from her busy " jammies" schedule to show me area where LEP will take place. Thank you L. :)

OK. Nick left few minutes ago. Every time he leaves, I feel like we are having mini divorse . I had few way to many of those. As much as he drives me grazy when he is home, it drives me grazyererer when he leaves. I HATE cleaning up his "mess", I hate our arguments that lead us nowhere( because he Refuses to argue with me- He does not understand me or why i like sweet, or eating way to many snacks, or into "estonian" stuff , blah blah blah. And he refues to listen to my side of story... He walks around with bindfolds.... Anyway, I still luv him...

Now, In few weeks I start my bellydancing again, I enrolled Regina in Chess, I am planning to enroll gabriel some kind of music classes....

AND wish me luck... on tueday I have to perform in front of my "sInging" buddies - in front of 25 college students with song.... Oh, I get sweaty palms thinking about it... I am going to sing Que sera sera.... and song after that will be Like a prayer....

:)

I'm sad about something, I thougt I would not be sad about. My dh Is leaving me again. AGAIN. This is like 10 time he is leaving and he keeps coming back. STOP PLAYING WITH MY FEELING YOU @$$hole. lol But seriosly, he is just going to "china" to do his job and make us rich.... hahah. it is about time...

Today, my singing instructor told us something very interesting.. He told us, that stop dreaming about being RICH IN THE FUTURE, stop dreaming about learing to sing in the future. Stop dreaming about things happening in the future. it is about time to start DREAMING about things happening to you right now. Dream that you are richNOW, dream that you can sing NOW, dream that you can do everything NOW... and HE IS so RighT. I CAN Do eerything now.- I can do whatever I want, I can be whoever I want to be, I just have to take that step now... and I am about to.... :):)

ALSO, I made reservations to TI Amo Ristorante in Laguna beach. We are going there with our Long beach friends... We never beent o TI amo, , but I will let you know how food is there....

Forty Deuce

Saturday in Hollywood. FUN. Tantra, FOrty deuce, Russell Crowe and Sting.. Smoking indoors and more... If I was Russell Crowe and smoked indoors in Forty Deuce, nobody would make a big deal out of it.... But oh well, I was born as Diana Saare ...

TANTRA- awsome restaurant with beautiful interior and tasty food. And prices were pretty low (from 3-19 ) . Coctails-tasty...

I do not like watching sports...

...but with this TV I COULD. WOHOOO. Our plasma is up and WORTH every dollar. :)

Pop pop pop

Something weird just popped to my head...
You all have been to a kids birhtday party, of if not then friends birthday party. You all have searched for that PERFECT present for that perfect someone. ANd then Bday arrives. You wrap, you decorate, you write a card, you dress up, but on your best smile and WEEEEEEE... of you go to that fun fun fun party. You eat, and dance, and drink and play games with kids and pretend that you are having hellofatime... ( but really you are just checking time- is it 1pm yet, is it?
AND then it is time to open presents .... You look around in the room, everybodyis so fucking exited about it . WOHOO> You re getting sweaty, your hands are starting to shake, uh oh uh oh, they are opening your gift now... Does she/he likes it, is it the BEST GIFT he/she ever gotten...

And then it's open. Bday person looks at his mom with a nervous smile, you are not sure what is going on, OMG. OMG OMG. MOM looks back at birthdayperson with even more nervous smile - seems like there is some kind of weird communicaton between the 2 of them... AND THEN together they go- OH HOW FUN, we LOVE IT, oh thank you so much, your brother has one JUST LIKE IT. ..... WA wa wa wawa

I am not sure why I even posted it....lol but lately I have seen so many upset faces- KIDS DO NOT know HOW TO APRECIATE "THINGS" ANYMORE. ME NOT HAPPY, ME CRAPPY. SO NEXT TIME YOU INVITE ME TO YOUR BDAY- all you get is H U G .... and do not act confused.....

New year...

AND new season of PMS has officialy started. OH yeah baby.... moodswings, breakouts, sexual identiy issues ( I just made that up), irritabiltiy, hunger, hunger, hunger, hunger, moodiness... OH. AND imagine this, it will last about 2 weeks. I so am not looking forward to this"season" and my gyn just laughs and tells me - WELL, it is your own fault that you refuse to take birth control... IT will help OR, I can prescibe you some antidepressants blah blah blah... I told her- Look lady, you know my history, YOU know that some weird ingredient in those pills makes me hallusinate ( BIG TIME), AND you till are tryig to prescirby me some?? What's in it for you, bigger paycheck for selling some unnessesary drugs for totally inoscent bytander who has major PMS??? I rather drink bottle of vodka and check myself into AA or rehab, so I could meet LIndsey Lohan ( so what I don't really like her)... DUH...

Anyway, all I really wanted to tell you is , don't be scared if you see me with few extra pounds... Just think of those xtra pounds as- gallon of ice cream, or pork rinds, or 10 jars of mustard or hot and spicy chillies...( yeah, i got bloody blisters in my mouth because of chillies... )

OK. Off I go to check my eating disorder course ( yes, I am taking online eating disorders, becaue I think I HAVE few,,, ( You know , eating chillies and mustard and ice cream CAN"T be normal....

Major food overload....

I am complainer. I AM. I complain about everything and I WHINE, and I yell, and scream and compalin bit more. I started complaining to my dh about that he Never takes me to Caspian Restaurant. ( best persian food around). he takes his business partners there, his friends... BUT WHAT ABOUT ME>.... HE know I love persian foods, MY FAVORITE.

So he made reservations to Caspian. HUGE place. Not sure how many people it fits, but it was overloaded with different naionalities and if you did not have reservation , people had to wait 2 hours to get table. THAT how good and grazy that place was. AND of course, since it was saturday, bellydancers took stage... NOW, I am not professional bellydancer , but those "BELLYDANCERS" were NOT worth seing. NOT AT ALL. First of all, they did have bellies, but you have to WORK IT GIRLS. IF you want to get a dollar from me, better roll your belly and move those hips from left to the right, from right to the left... Anyways, it was just BLAH... B O R I N G .....
BUT FOOD, Oo MI GAD, food was soooo good, I think I am going to dream about my chicken and rice and eggplants and other things that were on that specialty plate. I love persian food because it is very flavorful ( JUST likeEstonian cuisine,but only different) It was just perfect dinner... I wanted to have baklava but , after I finished my chicken I just had no space for extras... :(:(:( , OH, and I tasted persian vodka... Pretty good. I ever had persian vodka before, so I really can not compare to any other persian brands.... :)

I think I will go back to that place, but only when there are no "wannabe" bellydancers on stage... ANd OH, they also danced rumba and salsa I think. Weird....

Hmh

I feel just a tiny bit of upset right now... Why , you ask.. Honestly, there has been a lot of misscommunication between my dh and I lately, and I AM sure misscom. part comes from his side..

What if your guys goes to business trip and you ask- Are you coming home today or tomorrow, ANd his repsonse would me- I might come home tomorrow, I might come home today, but most likely today.... SO I take this most likely version.. I wait, hour, 2. It is horrible storm outside, Our whole house is shaky..... and then I decided to call him.
" HONEY, are you coming home today ( his is in san jose)...
"NO, I am coming home tomorrow"
" Was it so hard for you to call us and let us know that YOU are NOT coming home today, because kids are waiting for you>>>>>
" I thought I told you, I MIGHT COME HOME TOMORROW...




UGh... I am just mad,. That is all... You are old enought to give us straight answer... So why was it so hard for him to do so???

Wohoo, I allready like year 2007

This had to go, to old, to broken, TO OUT....

AND this has to replace it!!! But you have no idea how much drama surrauds this tiny plasma... Find electricion, find articlulating mount, make sure plasma fits, etc... Right now it is all boxed up, but electricion (sp) gonna "fix " some extra outlets for our tv and then it is almost ready to be mounted and OH, we also have to call cable guy to get digital cable with all the extras, because I LOVE EXTRAS... can you belive.. We have been without tv for about 2 months.We do have tv upstairs but it only has about 9 channels... I

am SO ready to start WATCHING tv again....

I LOVE SURPRISES

How should I thank my very good friend , if we are thousands of miles apart?? I hope simple THANK YOU and Cyber hug will do it :) THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. You have no idea how happy you just made me.. I had to put candy away for few days, since I am fasting, but MUCIS and DVD's are AWSOME.... I miss you.. ANd hope to see you soon somewhere closer than Estonia..... ;)

Hei guys...

Check us out- Diona and Levina ... ;) ANd please Rate it. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E1yfeY19wsM

1/2/07

So, year 2007 is here. Am I supposed to feel different than I did 2 days ago? Am I suppose to have some weird New Year resolutions like - I am going to loose 10 lbs and keep it off, I am going to be better person ( inside of course), I am going to be better wife ( HAHA, not gonna happen, I am sick and tired of being good wife.

SO- I am going to be sloppy , full of (*&*(^*& kind of wife this year. No breakfast if you wake up after 8 am- I WILL NOT cook twice in on morning. I WILL not pick up his clothes because I want him to understand what will happen IF i just leave stuff hanging around the house.... And I WILL not have sex, because I'm afride that he will trick me having baby no 3- NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. Sound s like fun??

AND I WILL SPEND LESS MONEY THIS YEAR!!! ( I have to follow this promise) ....

Happy New Year!!

Head Uut Aastat!!

Onnellista Uutta Vuotta!!

S Novim Godom!!

Big Bear Welcomed us with beautiful white snow :)
BUT I have to brag- I LEARNED TO SNOWBOARD TODAY - WOHOO TO MEEEEEE. You have no idea how frustrated I was at first. I almost started crying because I just fell and fell and fell and fell even more... Yes , 2 first hours I spent falling. lol... But second 2 hours was the best time I have had in a long time... I learned it, I fell once or twice, ut OMG, I CAN DO IT. :):):):) Tomorrow (24th) I am going to spend 2 more hours snowboarding and then I have to cook christmas dinner. :):)

OK. BTW. Gariel and regina spent 6 hours in snowboarding camp also and Gabriel also loves snowboarding. Regina thinks it is not her thing( just like her dad ) ;)

Happy holidays to you :)

Happy Anniversary to Us

Can you belive it ?? 8 years ago, on 28th of December in Caterbury Chapel ( Excalibur hotel in Las Vegas ) we tied the knot... Whoever told that Las Vegas marrages do not last lied... I was just 20 and he was 32. OMG OMG OMG... We are soooo old now. ( well, he is, I am still twenty something...lol ) So 8 years ago, 28th of dec it was 1998.... Awful lot of eights.. Nick likes 8. it is a lucky sign in china. His car number is NICK 88 ( something do to with father... Not sure what... chinese numerology is to complicated...lol ) Anyway, We are leaving to big bear on 22nd , and we will be back before our anniversary... We still have not figured out what to do.. At first we wanted to have little one night Vegas celebration, but decided not to because it will be just too much .. Maybe we just do Hollywood or LA celebration- Nice dinner, clubbing, and spend a night somewhere there... I love The Standard hotel , they also have Awsome lounge and REnessance (sp? ) hotel is one of the coolest hotels there, but we'll see... Maybe we just go to pechanga or some other casino that is close by. Something fun...

if you have any good ideas just let me know. I am very open to Ideas..... :)

You all, have a Very Merry Christmas and enjoy your family/friends, /alone=== whatever time you are having. :).

Ok, this self centered little bitch is back...

.. and here is my Xmas list- AGAIN.. but mostly it is for my better other half....

1. Startbucks giftcards- just make sure it is not BLANK card.lol (Thank you )



2. Best buy giftcards OR new Rebel XTi digital slr ;)



3. iTunes giftcards because I have I pod and I need sponsors who could afford to pay for my music needs.(thank you )



4. Kohls giftcards - because I really need new trendy clothes (thank you )



5. shutterfly giftcard - because I love taking pictures and ordering them online.



6. Target giftcards- because I just like target



7. New mercedes- yes, haha( this one is for my dh)



8. 8x10 picture frames



9. Sephora giftcards(thank you)



10. IKEA giftcards- because I want to purchase one of their roundtables



11. Presidenti coffee from estonia



12. Metsatollu CD



13. Trader Joes giftcard



14. RED WINE- Chiraz or syrah, or Zinfandel

AND I did have an ultrasound today... I found out that I indeed am very fertile RIGHT NOW... But I do not think that I will put my eggs into use anytime soon.... Everything looked good, so I guess I do have to get my thyroid checked....

And nick is coming home tomorrow. Yesterday I went to sport Chalet ( sp) and got ourselves whole bunch of warm clothing for Big bear purporses... I WANT TO LEARN TO SNOWBOARD. I really do,, so watch out, I can feel adrenaline rush just thinking about my new upcoming adventure....

:)

Today I opened pox with christmas cards I had received over the years ( from 1998 till last year) . I have accumulated at least 1000 cards- I save all cards and letters. I just can not throw the away.

As I was reading them , I found some envelopes and cards that my grandmother had sent me in 2001. Suddenly I just felt so sad that she is not with us anymore and I truly miss her. She had beautiful handwritting and I just had to take one of the envelopes with her handwrittig on it and I framed it. I completely feel like she is with us today and I wish I was not in US when she passed away few years ago. But we can't turn back time. :( I wish we could.

I also had need to create some Christmas stuff today. One of the things I created was just simple orange and clove(sp?) ball... I am not sure what to call it, but it makes my bathroom feel all nice and Christmasy...Lol And second thing - I took some rabbit wire , made a cylinder out of it and decorated it with purple christmas lights ( I go this idea from my friend who lives in estonia. ). It lookes beutiful when all lights but those purple ones are turned off in the room :)

Keep your fingers crossed for me tomorrow.. I have had some major female problems lately ( ovarian pain, nausea, cramps, swelling, water retention , swelling feet ( you know, signs of pregnancy, BUT I am not pregnant) anyway, I am having a pelvic ultrasound tomorrow to rule out ovarian cysts or even something worse... If ultrasound is normal, then next step-endocronology appointment to check my thryoid function and also appointment with immunologist.. because I just keep having one infection after another and no meds work.. also my earinfections are not clearing away... I have huge amount of pressure in my head - I feel like poking a hole to my head and letting fluids go free. I just wish nausea will go away- I do not feel like walking around with feeling that I am going to thow up NOW all the time.

happy Hanukkah...

You know what, Call me grazy or whatever you want, but I decided that This year, we are celebratin Hanukkah. Which means, since Friday, kids have been receiving one gift per day. We also do candle thing... But of course, kids belive in santa, and since we will celebrate our Christmas in Big bear, I kind of mix 2 traditions into one- Today kids baked cookies for Santa and tomorrow each of them will receive one gift. OMG, I am confusing my kids... WTF, I am confusing myself.... lol But hey, we live in 21st century... I do whatever I want to do in privacy on my home... well, publishing all over the net does not really count, but I am HAVING HELL OF A TIME having fun....lol

I hope santa is hungry, because kids left him lots of cookies...

Meltdown...

I just had major meltdown today. I is not even worth mentioning, but I am going to do it anyway. Well, NICk ( my genius Husband) got US about year ago "SURPRIZZZZEEE zoom whitening certificates. ( dumb move, I know his intenitons were good, but PLEASE CHECK wity your wife before you do so).

I am allready doing custom whitening through my dentist office ( custom molds and whitening gels). Well, I did get few of my teeth fixed ( I had to chane fillings and get crowns...) It was not cheep and I tryed my best, Nut I JUST do not have extra " thousands" hanging around the house to FIX all of my teeth ( meaning- get ALL NEW FILLINGS) Because dentists do zoom ONLY when ALL TEETH are in perfect condition- Mine are not... So there you go 175 dollars WASTED because I am just not going to do it. And in some werid way I feel angry at my DH just because he tryed to do something good- BUT it is just NOT GOOD-GOOD I wanted.... and when dentist told me that HE is not going to but my heatlh on risk by doing my whitening I just started crying because I just had ENOUGH.

I've had doubble ear infection for 2 weeks and NOTHING seems to be working, I had sinus infection, tonsilitus and I DID really good job keeping everything under control - just I WAS so ready to get ZOOMED and no it is just not going to happen. I hate days like today. I absolutely do.

Oh, my garbage disposal is still broken and to get GE technition to chekck it out it is 85 dollars and if it has to be replaced- I DO NOT WANT TO EVEN THINK HOW MUCH MONEY THAT is going to be. I CAN NOT STAND BROKEN THINGS, AND I ABSOLUTELY CAN NOT stand how 85 dollars feels like ripping people off.... Dumbasses. I need my chirstmas spirit back... I need to start baking cookies and eating them big time. I also need to open bottle of something because I am OFF the meds ( because I just decided I donot need them since they do not work)... Ok. I am done for today..... Happy holidays.

here I am

Before my first bellydancing recital...

Ok. I decided to add few words also about m recital... First of all- we could not rehearse before our performance. SO it was totally OMG type of recital.lol From Alise viejo group only 6 girls showed up, I was kind of pissed about it. laguna beach had more dancers... and some of those beginner bithces were real BITCHES.... cheesh.. I asked them about performance and all I got was - YOu should know better....duh. I do , I was just testing you- seemed like you fat ass had no idea yourself.. TOTALLY.....
Anyway, performance was ok. SInce 2 groups were united on stage, little confusion moments kicked in and I probably looked like chicken on wheels,b but at least i could move my hips ...lol duh...
Next belly dancing season starts in february- I can't wait till then.

yeah....

Ihope you guys enjoyed my last entry. :) i was told that I should learn to express my feeling more often... We'll see about that. Just mild warning to all of you out there .... better be nice or I blow some asskicking steam to your way... and i am not going to hold back.... But talking about steam... I really , really wanted to relax today. So I went online and started looking up for some of my favorite chirstmas food drink recipes, so I could share them with you :) If you et a moment check them out. They are quite tasty :)

First 2 recipes are Glogg Recipes- it is a HOT drink full of holiday flavour. I am sure you will enjoy it. Especially those of you who get inches of snow...
http://virtual.finland.fi/netcomm/news/showarticle.asp?intNWSAID=26071

http://www.hurrah.com/cookbook/glogg.html

Next- Liver Pate. ... One of my faves. If you do not love liver, you will like this dish. ;)

Liver pāté
500 g calf's or pig's liver
200 g bacon
2 onions
garlic
2 carrots
pepper, nutmeg ,salt
1 gl water
100 g butter
sugar
cognac, brandy or rum
Cut bacon and fry it with sliced vegetables. Add sliced liver and brown the mixture. Add seasoning and water and boil until all the ingredients are soft. Grind the mixture with a mincing machine. Add butter and whipthe mixture. Put the mixture into bowls and store it in a cold place.

Potato Salad with Red Peet....... OH, YUMMMMMMMMM

Potato salad with red beet
700 g cooked beet
400 g cooked potatoes
200 g cooked carrots
1 medium salted herring (kipper can do)
1 - 2 pickled cucumbers
2 apples
200 g roast pork or cooked beef
2 - 3 hard-boiled eggs
6 dl sour cream
salt according to taste
½ tsp mustard
a little sugar
spring onions to garnish
Makes salad for 10 - 12 persons. This salad contains lots of cooked red beet, the sweet taste of which goes well with salt herring and pickled cucumber. Peel the potatoes, carrots and beets, and core and peel the apples. Fillet the herring, removing the skin and even the smallest bones. Cut everything (except eggs) into tiny cubes. Stir sour cream, mustard, salt and sugar together to make a sauce. Mix all the ingredients with the sauce, leave covered in the fridge for an hour or two, and take out about one hour before serving. Put a nice heap of salad in a dish or a bowl, cover the surface with finely chopped eggs,egg slices or segments, and decorate with chopped spring onion.

Estonian SourKraut.


Estonian sauerkraut (mulgikapsad)
1 kg sauerkraut
½ gl barley grouts
400-500 g bacon
1 - 2 onions
salt, teaspoon of brown sugar
water
Put the sauerkraut in a saucepan with pearl barley and meat. Cover it with water and stew it under the lid. It is important to see that the water does not boil off. Add salt and sugar. Cut the onions into little cubes and fry them with little fat or oil. Add them to the sauerkraut. Serve Estonian sauerkraut with boiled potatoes and pork.(use crock pot to cook this dish )

These are just few recipes...
I also give you some links with more info about Estonian Christmas celebrations. :
http://eeuropeanhistory.suite101.com/article.cfm/estonian_christmas_traditions
http://www.vm.ee/estonia/kat_459/pea_174/2829.html
http://www.vm.ee/eng/kat_174/1191.html

Be ready for more ME...

I had no Idea that I am Lesbian swinger who likes to be FU@^! into all holes same time. Oh, and of course I am out here to look for LOVE and swing and AND THE BEST- I am transexual. :0) Maybe now I get some attention???? If you guessed that my MYSPACE account was hacked , you are 100% right. Sadly I become a victim of one of the spammers out there and I had no control over it. I changed my password 2 times yesterday, YET , they were still able to log into my account and post nonsence under my profile. I changed my password once more and it has been successful change. BUT oh boy, I thought that I could keep all those things secret ..... Dang hackers..... shame on you, You filty little perverts with distorted imagination, one day you pay for your actions..... i suspect that you all are 17 year old horny Motherfuckers ---- May acne never leave you , may it cover your whole body with fluid filled pimples and I hope you will be prisoners on your own home without computers.....

UUUHHHHHH I got it out of my system- well, almost, I still have few things to say, but I rather ,not because santa may add me to his naughty list ;)

On a happyer note. Last night I had change to enjoy professional bellydancing. My instructor invited us to persian restaurant where on Friday nights bellydancers show up ( GOOD and experienced ones) and give us awsome show. IT was AWSOME. I could not get myeyes off that girl ( you see, I must be lesbian ;) ) Her body bended and shaked and moved the way I never seen anybody move.. ( BTW, dancer was from Ukraine and very pretty. ) Regina and gabriel were with me. Gabriel was staring mouth wide open, but Regina fell asleep ( it was 9.30 PM ) lol

And today I did some christmas food shopping. :) Estonian House In la hosted a Christmas Bazaar/ fair. I got myself blood sausage/black budding, sourkraut with barley, fresh bacon filled rye bread, pickled pumpkin, gingersnaps:) Oh, I am so glad I went there, I cant wait till christmas and cook real estonian christmas dinner :) ( This year we will be on big bear. :) 2, 1/2 people can come with us. lol And that is it......

oh, And we went and brougt us christmas tree. Short 5 feet one. Regina and Gabriel decorated it and it lookes beautiful :):):)

Bellydance class Recital

Those of you who are interested here is the info about my first performance. It will be group performance .

Thursday, December 7th , 7.30 PM-9PM

Location: 384 Legion Street

laguna Beach . CA 92651

Admission Free+ refreshments.

More info Call Jheri St James

(949)494 5031

I hope to see you there :):):)

FALLALALALAl mess...

yeah, thanksgiving is OVER for this year. Turkey was PERFECT- cooked by me- thank you very much..... ;)

NOW Chirstams is different story. I am done with christmas shopping. DONE.I spent 350 dollars today in TARGET. people better LOVE their present Or I want my money back...... BUT this is how my family room looked few hours ago. MESS. MESS that I can not stand , messs that clutters my brain, MESS that I become sometimes ... Anyway, I had fun shopping and I will be having even more fun wrapping those presents tomorrow.:).

NOW, Yes, I have finished shopping for friends , but what in the world should I get to my dh?? Every fuckin' year i stand in front of same problem- What would my dh want. I know what he wants- BMW 7 series or whatever he calles it, OR Porsche Cayenne.. Does he think that I am santa claus or married to Donald trump??? he has I pod, he has underwear, he has ties,,, Maybe I should get him some English lessons because his english is getting worse and worse, soon I will have hard time understanding what he has to say.( I already do, he blames it on ME not listening... lol ). Anyway, good and original ideas needed....

ALSO I am PMSing big time. Today I ate whole jar of wasabe mustard. yeah, my comfort food. Into mustard I mixed some feta cheese and balsamic vinegar and I ate it with tablespoon. I tryed to tip fruits in it but it just tasted wrong... Maybe next time I should try tipping vegetables in it..

3 girls..

3 girls, 2 bedrooms and at least 10 pairs of shoes....
I hope you guys had fun thanksgiving and did not overdue your turkey.
Shortly before thanksgiving I had an oportunity to spend 3 nights in Vegas. I am so glad I did go and I am thankful to my DH who came home to take care of kids while I was getting wasted in some top notch lounges...lol

Vegas Was so much fun. But imagine this- one of us did not care about time, 2 of us are addicted of being on time, 1 of us was on strict diet, 1 of us wanted to spend all night long dancing and 2 of us wanted to leave as soon as clock hit midnight ....(lol) But regardless of our differences WE managed to stay friends and not beat each other up.

We saw 2 shows- Mamma Mia and Chippendales ( sp). Mamma mia was good BUT our seats were far back and it was hard to see peoples facial expressions. Music was awsome I just wish we spent an extra dollar to get better seats. After show we went to MIX lounge. I have been most of the lounges there before, but oh boy, I wish I had apartment up there. Mandalay Bay lounge has awsome view to city. We danced and enjoyed free coctails until midnight.

Now chippendales was different story. We had AWSOME seats- just in Center and second row. We had the best view what was going on. I recommend this show to all of you..... Very nice seating arrangements, hot looking bodys ( on stage)... But I do have to mention this... Leila, Reet and I ( and couple of other girls.) were BEST looking, BEST dressed people there.. Seriosly. If you seen what I saw , you'd be covering your eyes and screaming on top of your lungs-OH, I AM BLIND, I CAN"T see GIVE THAT GIRL SOME clothes to but on..... body with at least 4 muffintops ..not prettyyyyy.... OH ,,,,, and

Make sure you take your voice with you when you go because I can quaranteete you- You will be screaming your lungs out...... After Chippendales we

( Leila has to work more on his ghetto face... and fingers....lol

hit the Voodoo lounge- MY FAVE lounge in the city. It is located in Rio casino 51st floor and the VIEWS from there ARE breathtaking.. music was good , band was awsome.. and drinks ( mostly water .... were deliciouuuussss)

ha. But again, I am not sure was it diet Leila was on, or was it buffet Reet had for lunch - they started bothering me with questions- So bitch, are y ready to leave now??? Oh cheesh, I was just getting started and there they were, my 2 favorite downeres dragging me away ......

But regardless of our differences we had the BEST time ever. Reet and I sampled 2 buffets( The Orlens- awsome food choises and lunch was only 8 dollars, And Mirage buffet that looked contemporary but food was overcooked( to dry) and price for lunch was 18 dollars. AND mirage dessert selection sucked big time. Not enought to eat....lol If you ask Reet- she whould tell you that she had a lunch with food critic who turned out to be not so mellow about her photographs as welll. Sorry, but I had to keep myself entertained.......lol

OK. Enjoy our pics. Some of the pics are taken by Reet and some by me. i do not like when someboyd uses my pics and tells other that they took them, so Reet Thank you for taking some awsome shots of me ;)

Not to worry. :)

Happy thanksgiving to you all. Thank you so much guys for being there for me when I needed you most. Thank you for your kind words and support , Thank you for understanding my weird European accent, thank you for reading my blog and thank you for being part of my life. :):):):)

I have some good news for you - first- Regina is doing great . I got a email from her doctor and he said , that most likely changes in her MRI I due to Radiation therapy... So Thanksgiving will be happy after all. But we still have to go back to memphis in January 9th. Who wants to join me ???

AND I AM BACK FROM VEGAS>> Yeah baby.... But details later. I am so tired and I have to clean up my house and do prep work for tomorrows thanksgiving...

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ALl I got to say that I am worried. Past couple of weeks REgina has complained headaches and now.....
Dr Gajjar told me that there are changes in Reginas Brain ( original Tumor site) and he does not know what is going on. We have to keep an close eye on her and give call back in middle of december. They want to bring her in in Beginning of january for another MRI. :(
I am very emotional over this. Shuttle will pick us up in 10 minutes and all I can do is cry. :(:(:(

I love you all ;)

I hope that I am Gay post did not scare you off my dear girlfriends..... But seriosly - my dh told me that he would not mind AT ALL if I had a "girlfriend" . Well, I hope he really ment it because I am about to ... yeah, .....

This post will be ALL about me and my needs. And holidays fast aproaching ( sp?_ I have created MY wishlist. YES. MY, MY MY ,MY ALL ABOUT MY NEEDS- wishlist. OH btw, our 8th anniversary is on December 28th....

1. Startbucks giftcards- just make sure it is not BLANK card.lol


2. Best buy giftcards OR new Rebel XTi digital slr ;)


3. iTunes giftcards because I have I pod and I need sponsors who could afford to pay for my music needs.


4. Kohls giftcards - because I really need new trendy clothes


5. shutterfly giftcard - because I love taking pictures and ordering them online.


6. Target giftcards- because I just like target


7. New mercedes- yes, haha( this one is for my dh)


8. 8x10 picture frames


9. Sephora giftcards


10. IKEA giftcards- because I want to purchase one of their roundtables


11. Presidenti coffee from estonia


12. Metsatollu CD


13. Trader Joes giftcard


14. RED WINE- Chiraz or syrah, or Zinfandel

Not much to ask?? No. Not that I want to pressure you to get me all those things, but I just want to let you know that THIS female has needs and wants..... ;)

Talk to you next week. IT started to rain today and I hope it stops tomorrow, BECAUse we are going to Memphis, St Jude again for 3 month check up ( Regina has MRI and labs...)

ok Guys..

I HAVE TO COME OUT OF THE CLOSET ONCE AND FOR ALL. I AM GAY......
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lol I just could not resist not writing this.





disclaimer- I have nothing agains homosexuals. I have gay/lesbian friends. i just want to fit in....... ;)

F*u*c*k this weather.

I can't take it anymore. 95 degrees in november. Oh, COME ON. Give me a break. I need Cold, brrrrrr kind of weather. I want to have goosbumps all over my body, I want to wear these ugly season inspired sweaters. I want real fall and real winter. I want to get out of here RIGHT NOW!!! Oh, it was hot today, and It is still HOT. My masterbedroom feels like sauna, BUT I am not turning AC on because I do not want to see another 300 dollar electricity bill in the middle of november. Ridiculos.

Ok guys. I need some information from you. Those of you who love Big Bear and know everything about Big bear, please give me some insite about best snowboarding instructors, or sky camps etc. We are going to big bear during Christmas season- 22-27th of dec. And if weather conditions allow us, we really want to learn to snowboard.... So please give me some advice. I DID do internet research and got some inf. but I prefer personal experiences..... ok.

OH......Oh.....HOOOOOO..... And if I get really lucky I may go to NY in february next year. ( A L O N E ). BUT that happens only if my dh comes home from Chianaland... OMG. I am worst wife ever. We spend no time together and all I can think about is how to get away from him when he comes home..... Bad me, very bad me.... But I still deserve a "cookie".

OH and btw, if you really love me, you will send me an anniversary card before December 28th. 8 years of marrige and not sure how many more to go..... But one for sure... all of you who predicted that my marrige will end after year or two, and I was way to immature to get married- you were soooooo wrong. Dumbasses.... ;)

Bellydancing and more....

I am hooked. Every wednesday evening 6.30 I leave my house to dance- Bellydance it is. It is not as easy at it looks. It can be challenging if you do not have loose hips ( I DO, IDO lol). and We got few of those in our class. ... But oh, I am hooked. Past few days, after I put my kids down to bed, I turn on my Ipod ( bellydancing folder) and start dancing and practicing and sometimes I do it 2 hours in a row, but I am just sooo hoooooooked. I love figuring out all the new moves and the ways my body can move . AND thank god I have some kind of belly - not the most attractive one,but it pays its purpose.lol sometimes in december we have recital in somewhere in Laguna Beach- I keep you posted and let you know when ( I think it is around december 7th). ;)

Ok. Now littlebit about my very weird weight issues. Past 3 weeks I have been eating nonstop "junk "food- candy, candy, chocolate, cakes, cookies AND my weight started coming off fast . I dropped to 134 lbs. Now , past week I started eating healty again and working out regulary and I GAINED 4 LBS withing 4 days. I am not sure what the heck is going on. But I will figure it out. ( I know my hormones are paying huge role on my weight issues).

OH. AND my dear friends ( who ever you are). I started Christmas shopping- so you better be nice OR I keep everything..... ;)

Now about my music interest- few of you know that I LOVE trance, eurodane, hip hop rock and electronic... I can't live without that "trash".

But for few days I have been listening someting different- New age, contemporary etc. Some examples- Trans-Siberian Orchestra, Nu sound, John Mayer, Celtic woman, Origen, Conjure One, The Frey...

And I am totally enjoying this type of music. In some weird way It brings back so many good old memories, even though music/and old memories have nothing in common with each other, but I just keep remembering old good times .. and friends.... Missis M.K- I Totally completly miss you. I hope to see you soon. :)