3 girls..

3 girls, 2 bedrooms and at least 10 pairs of shoes....
I hope you guys had fun thanksgiving and did not overdue your turkey.
Shortly before thanksgiving I had an oportunity to spend 3 nights in Vegas. I am so glad I did go and I am thankful to my DH who came home to take care of kids while I was getting wasted in some top notch lounges...lol

Vegas Was so much fun. But imagine this- one of us did not care about time, 2 of us are addicted of being on time, 1 of us was on strict diet, 1 of us wanted to spend all night long dancing and 2 of us wanted to leave as soon as clock hit midnight ....(lol) But regardless of our differences WE managed to stay friends and not beat each other up.

We saw 2 shows- Mamma Mia and Chippendales ( sp). Mamma mia was good BUT our seats were far back and it was hard to see peoples facial expressions. Music was awsome I just wish we spent an extra dollar to get better seats. After show we went to MIX lounge. I have been most of the lounges there before, but oh boy, I wish I had apartment up there. Mandalay Bay lounge has awsome view to city. We danced and enjoyed free coctails until midnight.

Now chippendales was different story. We had AWSOME seats- just in Center and second row. We had the best view what was going on. I recommend this show to all of you..... Very nice seating arrangements, hot looking bodys ( on stage)... But I do have to mention this... Leila, Reet and I ( and couple of other girls.) were BEST looking, BEST dressed people there.. Seriosly. If you seen what I saw , you'd be covering your eyes and screaming on top of your lungs-OH, I AM BLIND, I CAN"T see GIVE THAT GIRL SOME clothes to but on..... body with at least 4 muffintops ..not prettyyyyy.... OH ,,,,, and

Make sure you take your voice with you when you go because I can quaranteete you- You will be screaming your lungs out...... After Chippendales we

( Leila has to work more on his ghetto face... and fingers....lol

hit the Voodoo lounge- MY FAVE lounge in the city. It is located in Rio casino 51st floor and the VIEWS from there ARE breathtaking.. music was good , band was awsome.. and drinks ( mostly water .... were deliciouuuussss)

ha. But again, I am not sure was it diet Leila was on, or was it buffet Reet had for lunch - they started bothering me with questions- So bitch, are y ready to leave now??? Oh cheesh, I was just getting started and there they were, my 2 favorite downeres dragging me away ......

But regardless of our differences we had the BEST time ever. Reet and I sampled 2 buffets( The Orlens- awsome food choises and lunch was only 8 dollars, And Mirage buffet that looked contemporary but food was overcooked( to dry) and price for lunch was 18 dollars. AND mirage dessert selection sucked big time. Not enought to eat....lol If you ask Reet- she whould tell you that she had a lunch with food critic who turned out to be not so mellow about her photographs as welll. Sorry, but I had to keep myself entertained.......lol

OK. Enjoy our pics. Some of the pics are taken by Reet and some by me. i do not like when someboyd uses my pics and tells other that they took them, so Reet Thank you for taking some awsome shots of me ;)

Not to worry. :)

Happy thanksgiving to you all. Thank you so much guys for being there for me when I needed you most. Thank you for your kind words and support , Thank you for understanding my weird European accent, thank you for reading my blog and thank you for being part of my life. :):):):)

I have some good news for you - first- Regina is doing great . I got a email from her doctor and he said , that most likely changes in her MRI I due to Radiation therapy... So Thanksgiving will be happy after all. But we still have to go back to memphis in January 9th. Who wants to join me ???

AND I AM BACK FROM VEGAS>> Yeah baby.... But details later. I am so tired and I have to clean up my house and do prep work for tomorrows thanksgiving...

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ALl I got to say that I am worried. Past couple of weeks REgina has complained headaches and now.....
Dr Gajjar told me that there are changes in Reginas Brain ( original Tumor site) and he does not know what is going on. We have to keep an close eye on her and give call back in middle of december. They want to bring her in in Beginning of january for another MRI. :(
I am very emotional over this. Shuttle will pick us up in 10 minutes and all I can do is cry. :(:(:(

I love you all ;)

I hope that I am Gay post did not scare you off my dear girlfriends..... But seriosly - my dh told me that he would not mind AT ALL if I had a "girlfriend" . Well, I hope he really ment it because I am about to ... yeah, .....

This post will be ALL about me and my needs. And holidays fast aproaching ( sp?_ I have created MY wishlist. YES. MY, MY MY ,MY ALL ABOUT MY NEEDS- wishlist. OH btw, our 8th anniversary is on December 28th....

1. Startbucks giftcards- just make sure it is not BLANK card.lol


2. Best buy giftcards OR new Rebel XTi digital slr ;)


3. iTunes giftcards because I have I pod and I need sponsors who could afford to pay for my music needs.


4. Kohls giftcards - because I really need new trendy clothes


5. shutterfly giftcard - because I love taking pictures and ordering them online.


6. Target giftcards- because I just like target


7. New mercedes- yes, haha( this one is for my dh)


8. 8x10 picture frames


9. Sephora giftcards


10. IKEA giftcards- because I want to purchase one of their roundtables


11. Presidenti coffee from estonia


12. Metsatollu CD


13. Trader Joes giftcard


14. RED WINE- Chiraz or syrah, or Zinfandel

Not much to ask?? No. Not that I want to pressure you to get me all those things, but I just want to let you know that THIS female has needs and wants..... ;)

Talk to you next week. IT started to rain today and I hope it stops tomorrow, BECAUse we are going to Memphis, St Jude again for 3 month check up ( Regina has MRI and labs...)

ok Guys..

I HAVE TO COME OUT OF THE CLOSET ONCE AND FOR ALL. I AM GAY......
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lol I just could not resist not writing this.





disclaimer- I have nothing agains homosexuals. I have gay/lesbian friends. i just want to fit in....... ;)

F*u*c*k this weather.

I can't take it anymore. 95 degrees in november. Oh, COME ON. Give me a break. I need Cold, brrrrrr kind of weather. I want to have goosbumps all over my body, I want to wear these ugly season inspired sweaters. I want real fall and real winter. I want to get out of here RIGHT NOW!!! Oh, it was hot today, and It is still HOT. My masterbedroom feels like sauna, BUT I am not turning AC on because I do not want to see another 300 dollar electricity bill in the middle of november. Ridiculos.

Ok guys. I need some information from you. Those of you who love Big Bear and know everything about Big bear, please give me some insite about best snowboarding instructors, or sky camps etc. We are going to big bear during Christmas season- 22-27th of dec. And if weather conditions allow us, we really want to learn to snowboard.... So please give me some advice. I DID do internet research and got some inf. but I prefer personal experiences..... ok.

OH......Oh.....HOOOOOO..... And if I get really lucky I may go to NY in february next year. ( A L O N E ). BUT that happens only if my dh comes home from Chianaland... OMG. I am worst wife ever. We spend no time together and all I can think about is how to get away from him when he comes home..... Bad me, very bad me.... But I still deserve a "cookie".

OH and btw, if you really love me, you will send me an anniversary card before December 28th. 8 years of marrige and not sure how many more to go..... But one for sure... all of you who predicted that my marrige will end after year or two, and I was way to immature to get married- you were soooooo wrong. Dumbasses.... ;)

Bellydancing and more....

I am hooked. Every wednesday evening 6.30 I leave my house to dance- Bellydance it is. It is not as easy at it looks. It can be challenging if you do not have loose hips ( I DO, IDO lol). and We got few of those in our class. ... But oh, I am hooked. Past few days, after I put my kids down to bed, I turn on my Ipod ( bellydancing folder) and start dancing and practicing and sometimes I do it 2 hours in a row, but I am just sooo hoooooooked. I love figuring out all the new moves and the ways my body can move . AND thank god I have some kind of belly - not the most attractive one,but it pays its purpose.lol sometimes in december we have recital in somewhere in Laguna Beach- I keep you posted and let you know when ( I think it is around december 7th). ;)

Ok. Now littlebit about my very weird weight issues. Past 3 weeks I have been eating nonstop "junk "food- candy, candy, chocolate, cakes, cookies AND my weight started coming off fast . I dropped to 134 lbs. Now , past week I started eating healty again and working out regulary and I GAINED 4 LBS withing 4 days. I am not sure what the heck is going on. But I will figure it out. ( I know my hormones are paying huge role on my weight issues).

OH. AND my dear friends ( who ever you are). I started Christmas shopping- so you better be nice OR I keep everything..... ;)

Now about my music interest- few of you know that I LOVE trance, eurodane, hip hop rock and electronic... I can't live without that "trash".

But for few days I have been listening someting different- New age, contemporary etc. Some examples- Trans-Siberian Orchestra, Nu sound, John Mayer, Celtic woman, Origen, Conjure One, The Frey...

And I am totally enjoying this type of music. In some weird way It brings back so many good old memories, even though music/and old memories have nothing in common with each other, but I just keep remembering old good times .. and friends.... Missis M.K- I Totally completly miss you. I hope to see you soon. :)

:)

Today was such a busy day. First helped out Gabes teacher. And then real fun started. My good and very talented friend Parisa asked me to take some pictures of her. ( she needs them because of her work). 2 hours of picture taking paradise.

I really did enjoy photographing her, since camera loves her. :) And I know that she does not mind that I share some of the pics with you :)

Here is her website.

http://www.parisa-defaie.com/

And now I am just relaxing and hoping that my kids do not get reall sick by tomorrow. Both of them had low grade fevers today. :(

I almost forgot , yesterday I went to my neighbros house to halloween party. She is did awsoem job decorating her house. And her food was all halloween themed. She is horrible cook ( yes, she tells this to everyone, ) but she is awsome baker and decorator. :)

(APple cranberry punch)

Brain Jello--

Do not feed BIRDS.....

I know I am smart. I am just fuckin’ lazy. Yeah. You got it girl. And I want to do 0 about me learning mucho to get perfecto.. ( I have no Idea if there are even such words). Haha.

Like most of you know I am taking psych classes. Very me. I LOVE psychology. I have finished reading my WHOLE book ( 15 chapters) . We are on chapter 7 now and it is about learning, IQ, intelligence etc. SO I took IQ test today. Good IQ test. I scored high and I was surprised to see that I scored that high. I was sure that I scored below 100, but seems like my brain is not dead at all. It is getting smarter, in fact.. My IQ score was 120. Not bad. I am not genius but it is above average ( max to my age is 166) and I am very very exited about it. I knew that MATH is my weak point and I scored VERY low on math, but I scored very high on pattern recognition and general knowledge ( about 85% in both. Now I know that Regina gets puzzle and problem solving from me and MATH abilities from Nick. Gabriel is totally something else. I still have not figured “HIM” out. Because he is like me. HE likes EVERYTHING, he is good at EVERYTHING. He can sing, he can dance, he is good at solving problems, he learns everything very fast, he makes friends fast- Almost like me …lol. He is a male version of me… ;)


Back to me now…. I feel the need to stop eating. I decided , that starting from tomorrow, I will only buy healthy food in my house- Well, Most of my food is healthy, BUT my kids eat crap during school snack times. SO there will be no foods with additives, no SMG, NO GMO, no Red food colorings, no shit….. yup, Diana is going Organic and natural. And so does my grocery bill.. Henrys, trader joes, wild oats, farmers market… etc. These are the best stores in whole wide world, BUT they are located little further away from us. I hate driving . I like things to be around me … but to healthier Diana I am ready to drive.
I hope to stop HOT FLASHES with better nutrition…..

OK. I have to do my cardio now. I ate 2 cups of taro ice cream tonight and I can FEEL IT crawling to my thighs- and forming those orange peal like “ mountains”.

Bored, so bored....

I am officially bored with my life. My house is clean, My kids are well behaved, I am great cook, awesome catch ( wink, wink). Yeah, here I am totally , completely full of myself because I am just so bored. Today I went to see Movie Departed- Leo, Matt, Jack – you know, the good stuff… I have to tell you , I never, ever liked Leonardo . He was not my type of actor OR I did not like even how he looked. BUT this movie just made me fall in love with him. Seriously- He looked hot - real hot, baby. And I almost cried when his head got blown off. HIS poor beautiful head, those amazing eyes. To bad he is such an ass in real life. Imagine this- he only dates supermodels and I know why. His poor self esteem is so low and he has no friends. Boohoo. So he needs a 6 feet tall self esteem booster…

AND this brings me to my latest nightmare . About 4 nights ago ( on 17th of oct) I had a bad dream . I was in my bank filling in some forms. Suddenly one guy, dressed very nicely walked towards me- I smiled. He asked- What the fuck I am smiling about because there is nothing to smile about – I am going to blow your head off first. All I could think about was- Please no, my kids are still young- And then BOOM, my brains flew out of my head and …. I had to wake up because my alarm clock sounded. Dang, I wanted to know what happened next. I tried to have same dream next night- But it did not happen- instead I dreamed about how overweight I had become, because I did not fit in from my front door. I guess it is my biggest fear….

OK. Back to my Officially boring life. I need something exiting. I need to get out of my house more often without kids. I mean evenings, nights. I miss dancing. I miss clubbing. I miss the feeling I get in club , when beat is so loud I can hear my heart beating in the rhythm of trance. I miss how it made me feel when I let my guard down and just danced, danced, and danced. I MISS having a drink with my friends and just goofing around. And I miss my husband to- just a little….

>>>M<<<

I am not sure what world has become. Since when we started caring what other people would do , or what color underwear they wear. ? Since when Brad and Angelina become our super hero’s and since when we would tell our kids – SHUT up, I want to know did Jen really brake up with Vince.
I am just so sick and tired of all this commotion around 21st century “superheroes”. I turn on TV, and hear- Braking news just in- Katie give birth to a healthy baby girl. I switch channel, - NO, No, No- Katie give birth to a healthy BOY. Oh. Now I am confused- I switch one more time—Oh, no- Katie did not give birth yet. Few more weeks to go. WTF??? I can’t take it anymore. I want to turn on TV and watch something together with kids- show like teaching kids to dance, or how to teach them to sing- or how to boost self esteem. Yeah, it is nothing racy, but what are we teaching our kids by telling them- you know- Maddox has Mohawk- it is really in now, We should go to hairdresser because you are going to be coolest kid ever ….
Or I hear kids talking before they go to their classes- You know what my mom told me, I am really cute and when I grow up I am going to be the most popular girl .- AhAAA. Yeah, it is going to be me. MHM…
Other girls join in- me to, me to , my mom told me that I am pretty to and I am going to be most beautiful girl in the whole wide world.

Then I hear boys talk- but you know what I want to be when I grow up- girls ask WHAT- I am going to by a big gun and do some shooting. Because it is so much fun ….. ( WTF????) and then they imitate shooting ( at age 6-7). And girls stick their fingers in their mouths, then zzzzzzzzzz on their butt and - UH, I’m so hot…. ZZZZZZZZz , peace bros and sistaaaas…..

I just listen to these conversations and wonder- I must be doing something right because my kids want to be train driver, trash truck drivers and doctors and bakers. ( sound reasonable …) OR, should I start pushing them to be more “ hip “ these days like--- Pamela Anderson Look a likes…??? Or should I take them to get their pedicures and manicures every week because when you do not get your nails done you are sooooooo yesterday…. ( yeah, you are--- let me remind you- last time I had my nails done was 2 years ago…) …

Talk to you later bitches and HOs.

My fave quote- It is a discusting little gross fairytale Poor girl meets a rich guy and they fall in love. And they live happily ever after. I am so bored of that story.. ( Erica from Bachelor )

:)

:) I have been doing much better these past few days. My energy levels are still pretty low, but emotionally I am in better place. I have been very busy with things around here. Monday, tuesday and wednesday I spent lot of time in my kids school taking pictures of kids. ( for yearbook). Kids are so cute. They all know me by name and run to me and give hugs . Funny is, that they tell their parents about that some mom took pics of them and moms were all curious WTF??? lol Funny.

I also have been decorating for halloween. lots of cute little decorations. I love halloween. I love colors, emotions, candy, kids, decorations. EVERYTHING> :):):) I love smells of halloween, I love costumes. I just love it. :)

I also got a outfit to my HP. Beautiful new Daisy skin. I love daisys , these flwoers remind me estonia and midsummers day. :)

We also went to one more pumpkin farms with our friends. They give me such an hard time. they make fun of me for taking belly dancing classes. They think I do not get their jokes, but trust me, i do . I just do not reply to them because If I do, ( Knowig Him) h would make even worse jokes. So FY.

Oh, Today I baked some cinnamon rolls. Oh, THye came out sooooo goood. My house is smelling delicious. It is 9.36 PM and I am eating bread. End of the world is here. But this is only time of the day when i am hungry. I could go all day long without eating and then around 10 pm I get little hungry.

OH. I saw my cardiologist. I had complete blood test and everything came out fine. So it must be in my head. I just think myself sick. I got to change my thinking. I have to be more positive. :) I hate being positive. To much hahahah and ohohohoh just makes me go . DAMN what the heck is wrong with me.....


AND... have you estonian chickis have noticed coffe names in starbucks... Sulawesi, and Estima... What's next- Talina////????

Aaaah

I do not know what is going on with me. My energy levels are acting up. One moment I feel happy and energized and then suddenly I am tired and down. I eat my lunch, but around 2 hours after lunch , horrible hunger hits me. I start sweating, get irritable and moody and at times even nauseous (sp?) and dizzy. I HAVE TO have a bite of something, if not I may pass out because I just loose all my strenght and energy. it is very weird feeling. And second time around I get same kind of feeling after I eat my dinner. . My mood can change with a snap. AND I can't stop yawning. Oh, and my vision is weird also. Sometimes when I wake up in the morning I have hard time opening my eyes and when I do everything seems blurry... but that goes away after few minutes. i guess I am just starting to get stressed again and there is just way to much pressure and responsibilites in my sholders. I really, really do need a brake. I need a brake to think , and find myself again. I feel like I am starting to separate myself from everybody and everything. I have not done my fave things for a while- I used to see EVERY new movie out there- now I just netflix them. I used to be exited about scrapbooking and taking pics - now my camera just collects dust because I lost my interest. BUT I clean, and clean and clean and clean and I am about to go grazy if I pick up mop one more time and wash my floors. I am going nuts. I am going to bee around 1 am and wake up 6 am every morning. ( I just can't fall asleep- I am tired, but I can't sleep. I toss and turn and toss and turn and have nightmares (sp?). And few of my friends are just driving me grazy by complaning about things that just are not even worth mentioning. And when I want to vent away ... ah, I am not even going there. .... Anyway, .I havent felt so lonely in years.........

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All I got to say is- Blogger beta sucks. I hate it so much , I am about to STOP bloggin forever. I can't upload pics, I cant post, I can't log in? What next? UGH. I posted loooooong post before. Hit post and nothing. Everything just dissapeared like someone had flushed it down with water. Suckers.


Anyway- I took kids to pumpkin patch today. ( yes, I had 101 fever, but it is not my job to be sick. I still have to take care of kids and entertain them. then I get a call from Nick telling me I AM S I C K tooo. Honestly? Are you sure sweety? If you are, you are not getting any symphaty from me. I know your job is important- MAKING MONEY. blah, blah blha, so we can afford this beautiful house, but MY job is more important. So stop whining and do not tell me that your life is hard. I am the one who takes care of kids, I AM the one who cleans the house, I AM the one who cooks, I am the one who pays the bills ( wo what that you make the money), I am the one who takes care of kids so what that I have fever. So pleas tell me , whose life is fucking hard?? HUH.??? OHOHOH I forgot to mention- I am the one who has to attend all the IEP meetings and I AM THE FUCKING ONE WHO HAS NO LIFE BECAUSE I SIMPLY AM SO TIRED IN THE END OF THE DAY that I lost interest doing thing I LOVE to do. SO SHut up. ( sorry ). But I just had to let it out. I need to do it more often ( UPs, I forgot one thing- I AM THE one who also has to study when kids are in school, so I CAN DO SOMETING BETTER WITH MY LIFE THAN JUST CLEANING AND COOKING.

Anway- pumpkin patch was lots of fun. I have not seen my kids so energized for ages. They were runnin around, playing games, and taking rides up on a storm. And total amount spent in pumpkin patch -80 dollars( 40 dollars for rides and rest of it for games and food) SUCKERS. All they want is money from us. They know that they can't sell that many pumpkins so they came up with alternitive route. Seems like it is working.
Oh, we had lunch in hometown buffet. I love food, even though my taste and smell have gone to vacation- I managed to remember how chocolate, ice cream, peach gobbler, chocolate mousse cake tastes and I ate and I ate and I ate. Now I feel sick to my stomach. But who cares. It was food. We never stop complaning about food.

Fall

Did I TELL you that I love fall??? I do.
Today , I did 1 hour and 15 minutes of volntering in Gabriels class. After class I had to walk to my car, but what I noticed was something really beautiful. IT is amazing how colorful fall is this year. Red, yellow, brownish tones are decorating trees ever

ywhere. Air feels nice and crisp, and I can SMELL the freshness in air. I Oh. It felt so nice. I started missing Estonian muddy, dark, and rainy fall.

I used to hate that "part" , but now I miss it.

Feeling crafty.

Today I went to Tall Mouse ( craft store) and bought about 20 wooden pieces ( dollar each) - pumpkins, cats, snow mans, santas, people. etc. And I started decorating them. I am on roll right now. AND I LOVE FALL. AIR outside is so nice and crisp. :)

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Today was lazy day. I took kids to best buy and toysrus. There was huuuuge sale going on. Lot of the things buy one , get other 50% off, clearance sales on gamecube games, and much more. Gabriel threw horrible tantrum in store. I WANT NEW GAMES kind of tantrum. I told him- Too bad, he just made it to naughty list.

After shopping we went to IHOP. I have not been to IHOP for ages. NOW I know where all smokers in OC go. IHOP. lol

Gabiel had LOTS OF FOOD. He ate his kids meal ( 2 fryed eggs, bacon ) and then he wanted my ham and cheese omlette ( he ate half of it) THEN he wanted to eat my pancakes( something Harvest ones. do not remember what it was.) And he did eat 1 .

I had to laugh out loud in there. Listen to this. Gabriel wanted tabasco sauce on his eggs. and bacon. 3 drops were not enough. HE WANTED me to pour half of it out, so he could stick his bacon into HOT SALSA. - of course I had to please my son. HE was really happy that I did it. THEN he wanted me to pour some strawberry syrup over his eggs. ( I had to do it )> He ate his eggs with strawberry syrup. THEN the mixed strawberry syrup and tabasco sauce- AND I WAS ABOUT TO THROW UP , when he decided- MOM. I NEED some regular syrup inside this mix. BECAUSE it does not taste right. So i gave him his syrup and - he told me----- MOM , THIS WAS BEST LUNCH I EVER HAD. lololollololol

Regina was just looking at him and rolling her eyes and telling me - GAbriel is so discusting. lololol

NICE. And then I did some cleaning. Dusting and ant killing and dishwashing since my diswasher is kaput.

Happy Birthday Mall.

Today I took a 54 mile drive to LA area. Target- Estonian house, Occasion- Mall's Birthday. Very fun birthday. Good food, great people and fun conversations. There is never dull moment when estonians are around. ;) ( I know, I am one of the boring ones blah, blah, blah)

Ok. Here is my problem with being Estonian and Living in US and being married to chinese guy. I admit. I AM LAZY when it comes to teaching my kids to speak Estonian. BUT I rather teach them to speak Spanish than Estonian. I am pretty sure that when they'll grow up , they will choose to stay to US. I just know it. Yes, it is important to teach them multiple languages, but why should I force them to speak language they will not need here. I am their mom and I am Estonian, AND acording to "most"estonians, I SHOULD teach my kids my language. NAH, since when I started to listen to others?? huh?? More you pressure me- less you get and more you see my middle finger. Yes, I can be mean and mean in a mean way. SO STOP making me feel quilty. lol

I know, I know. ... Next time I go to Estonian house, I get myself a T shirt that says- NO, I DO NOT TEACH MY KIDS ESTONIAN - AND YES, I SHOULD, BUT I DO NOT FEEL LIKE DOING IT.

But that is just me. I feel bitter today because my dishwasher broke down again with dishes inside and , water was EVERYWHERE when I got home. So there you go Estonians- You got a piece of me and you will get more if you ask for it. lol (

***Disclaimer*** Do not hate me because I am beautiful ;)

Ugly Betty

Fun So I got my glasses. Don't I look Pretty??? My vision is great. I can see Far , far away. further than most of people. lol but my nearvision is kind of messed up. Long hours behind computer, lots and lots of reading and TV watching have done it's work. Anyway, now I am proud owner of Versus glasses ( by Versace).

I have not done much within past few days. Just studing and volunteering in my kids school and cleaning and eating. AND I know where I am going to spend my christmas. :):):) lol I booked a cabin in Big Bear. IT is a beautiful 2 bedroom cabin and very expensive. During Christmas holiday they have 5 night minimum policy (bigbearcoolcabins) and 5 nights is about 1800 dollars. But it looks perfect and I want to get away from all this madness.....

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:)

I have had few pretty grazy days. One one very important day. :0
My beautiful Daughter Regina turned 7. (19th of sept) I feel so happy to have her in our lives. And because she is special, she deserves special treatment. :)

Then - today was one of those days that I wish that I never had. lol Morning started out fine- I did my cardio and while working out I watched movie- JuST MY LUCK. VERY unlucky movie with a happy ending. Anyway. most of you know that Regina was diagnosed with GHD( growth hormone deficency) and she has to start growth hormone therapy. She will start it sometimes beginning next week and it means that I have to inject her with meds every day for next 10 years. AND it is not cheap. So I got a call from pharmacy- Miss Tan, we would like to set up delivery with your daughter meds, but FIRST you have to pay 389 dollars and that is amount your Insurance will not cover. 389 dollars for 30 days I asked??? I told them that I will call few people and ask what the heck is going on because I have invoice from you that my copay is only 30 dollars. So I make those calls ( about 10 of them) and nobody has no Idea what the heck is going on. Finally somebody gave me a straight answer- well, we screwed up and had to do insurance reinvestigation and THAT IS THE AMOUNT YOU OWE!!!!! FUCK. I had a meltdown- BUT THE GOOD news is that next month co pay will be only 135. FUCK FUCK FUCK. So now, I am stuck with this for 10 years???? So what should I give up?? SHopping or my sons daycare??/ Tough one- I think I better stop spending money now..... And then I have this one special friend who just creeps me out with all the " smart" info about growth hormone injections and second cancers. Now I am really freaked out... Thanks K. B. ;)

Ok now- enough of that crap allready. I did something fun also today. I started my bellydancing classes. It was just what I needed. To get my mind of things and just dance . It was so much fun and I really did forget about all the issues I was having. I feel so rested now. But I can all ready feel all the suspicious thoughts filling out my brains free curves.... Welcome to my life. Wanna be part of it, just come and knock on my door and listen to me bitch about things I really need to be bitching- my dh...... ;)

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Main cause for PMS is home. lol My dh finally arrived. He will stay for a week ( mainly because of Reginas Birthay) and then he will leave and come back again in november, because Diana really wants to go to Vegas with girls. lol Diana needs a break(sp).lol

Anyway, It took me 2 hours and 35 minutes to drive to LAX today. Traffic was a bitch. 10 miles and hour and 20 miles an hour it was slooooow. But I am patient girl. I can waith. Good things happen to people who wait.
But I have to admit. I am very bad girl.:( I feel very embarrased about few things.
First- I have not emailed or called to my friend who had surgery few weeks ago. I just could not pick up my phone and do so. Not sure why. I just hope that she forgives me. ((())) Second- I am very self centered little bitch who just cares about my own well being. I am not sure about that eather, I am just me. lol. Just be patient. "GOOD girl me" will be out of closet soon. Until then just laugh at me....
http://www.dancesisterdance.com/myvid/index.php?v=5c48ff18222f

Top news...

Paris was arrested- because she was drunk and hungry and was speeding because she had to have her burger NOW. Awsome Paris , wtg, you just made my day.


I am really not in the mood to talk about Tom and Katie. I like them. I always did - not sure why, but I still LIKE THEM. SO please- yeah baby looks "asian" but look at Katies eyes and Look at toms eyes- they look asian too. So just stop the drama and let them be. Seriosly. My sister looked asian when she was baby- blond cute asian. lol Now she is 6f 1in caucasian... Sorry Sija , I just had to make that joke. Yeah, and all babys do look like ALIANS with their big heads and weird facial impressions and those sounds they make. OMG. They must be from mars. Dang. What is next- Nicole Richie is not really anorexic- she still is fat???? Only in hollywood...
I need to loose few lbs. Seems like 90 lbs bodys are really in now. 140 is just way to heavy - almost obese. Right???

What else-According to E! News....Britney Spears has reportedly checked herself in to Cedars Sinai St. Johns Medical Center in Los Angeles, where the paparazzi are camped outside and she is in labor / has given birth to her second child.(www.perezhilton.com)

Few more days

( Some people prefer boats....Lol )

.. Few more days and my vacation starts. :).... School for kids, more Me time for me. :0)

Anyway- Yesterday we had such and awsome day. We were invited to Pool party. Not some community pool party- BUT REAL POOL PARTY. Dowside was that place was located 80 miles away from us and I HATE DRIVING to places where I have never been before. But lucily it was really easy drive there. I did get "claustrofobia " ( I have driving issues, I can not breathe if there are way to many cars on road, I feel like they all want to crash me , and squish me and I feel like I have no way out..:lol ) few times, but I turned on radio on max and started singing out loud- open up your buttons babe....lol.

(Regina, Gabriel,me and our new friend Jonathan who lives in Palm Springs )
Anyway, most of the people at the Estonians and I did get to meet few new ones . Like the person who invited us. I have never met him and his family before but Now I know. :) Thanks for the great party. Oh, and my kids were having TOOO much fun. Gabriel stayed into pool for 3 hours, and when he got out his skin was wrinkled. He looked like old dude....lol

HA

When my car doors did not lock my dh suggested that I should call Mercedes road side assistance. I told him - Dude, you know, Trust me, they can not lock my door through satellite because my door has mechanical problem. He just kept blah blah blah blah blah ing and I told him BLAH BLAH BLAH - NOOOOOO.
AND let me tell you- I was right. Passinger side door had some serious health issues - but now it is fixed and is functioning fine. I might be a girl, but I know a little about cars. So stop messing with me.

Now on a different note. I THINK our governer Swarchenegger has been taking some ESL( english second language ) classes. I mean it. His english, pronaunciation is much better than year ago. Yeah, I do pay attention what he is talking about and how he is talking, his CALIFONIA is sounding more like CALIFORNIA now. lol WTG Arnold!!!! I knew that you'd be back ;)

OK- SCHOOL STARTS NEXT WEEK!!!! WOHOOO TO ME. I can finally start studing without - MOMMY, mommy, regina i hurting me, MOMMY, GABRIEL TOLD ME THAT I AM STUPID BABY, MOMMY, HELP ME BECAUSE REGINA IS HURTING ME...
OH, it will be Paradise from 7.40 AM till 2.07 pm -

Today was awsome. :)

(sari that I made


My friend ( from Estonia) celebrated her birthday today. Since she has "good relations" with India, her theme for party was India. So last night I sew myself sari , nothing fancy, simple , black sari ( or Saree). Seems like I did pretty good job since I got lots of good reviews about it. :)

Indian food Is awsome. first time I ever tasted indian food was in 1998 year february in London. I LOVED it and I still to. :) Food at her party was very,very good. Music was Indian and we watched Indian/american movie The Guru( I think that was the name of it.) It was fun fun fun.

All of her friends vere dressed up in Indian style- very cool and different. :):):) happy Birthday Reet.


OH,oh, oh - one more thing- first time ever I had my eyebrows threaded.
http://www.hairfacts.com/methods/threading.html
It was so relaxing, and my eyebrows never looked better.

I hate my car- Sometimes---

So today, I was supposed to go to college- orientation. So I start my car, drive to schools parking lot, exit my car- trying to lock my doors, trying again and again and again. Nothing. I hear clicks, but door is not locking. I try to do it manually- not working. I try to push in those knobs inside the car- NOT GOING DOWN... Oh, I was pissed. I did not want to leave my car unloced in college parking lot, so I left and called Mercedes dealership to get my powerlocks fixed. Guess what- I got apointment for monday- but not for today. Oh, I was so pissed. What the heck is wrong with my car. It always does it when I need it the most.

I guess I am going to get a rental car for a weekend because I do not dare to park my car in some strange parking lots when doors are not locked.. i hope I get a good deal....lol

What a week

... do not get to exited. lol nothing special going on here. I finally started scrapbooking again and finished Reginas MAW trip album. Ugh, Scrapbooking is so expencive. I Love going scrapbooking stores and I HATE leaving store because I just NEED lots of the things they have in there. lol

THEN I enrolled gabriel in K+ probram in local YMCA. Now , starting from September I have free time from 7.40am-till 2.07 PM. HO ho ho and Merry chistmas, i am so exited about it. Not that I do not love my kids, but it is time for me to get some ME time ALONE .... Maybe now, I can finally clean my house and it stays clean longer than 10 minutes....
I think I mentioned that I start college again ( 2 online courses) Psychology and Excel.

And I am starting to take belly dancing classes ;) Yeah, next time you go one of those Maroccon restaurants you may find me flashing my fat...... lol

What else?? OH, I went to see Snakes on a Plane. OMG that was heck of a good movie. I think I almost had a heart attack - FEW times . I am scared of snakes, and THIS movie just scared "kaka" out of me big time. lol Wery well played movie. Thumbs up!!!lol

OK .. then last week I took kids to swimming pool- I HATE public swimming pools for a reason- every time i jump into those I come out with huge blisters on my lips- this time they are extra large... And painful and UGLY.... kids are fine , I guess even reginas immune system is now stronger than mine because she is doing much better than me..

OK. Enough for today. I need to do some cardio because I really want to fit into my size 8 jeans again. 10 is not good enough!!!!


AND I almost forgot one very very important thing-- Our Friend Steven Is in St Jude now getting his regular check up. ( He and My daughter Regina were diagnosed with same kind of tumor ) -- ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Sending some good calming vibes to your way...

now I know.

....Our dentist billed me my dh's balance that has not taken care by insurance yet. So that is why it was that much. Now I am off to ortanize my house. To much clutter ...

WHY???

I guess you have noticed that I have kept low profile here. I have been just lazy and buzy also. I try to fix that. Those who know me, know that I can talk "trash " all day long. lol I really can,. Eventhough I am VERY positive person, and I find something good in everything - I CAN BE very mean, honest and find bad in GOOD things. To I make any sense??? Maybe not. But oh well, Who cares- Right???

Today I Received 875 dollar bill from My dentist. I was beyond pissed. Since Regina does not have insurance I have to pay for her cleanings. And it is usually 75 dollars ( yes ONLY). SO today I received this bill and of course I called them and guess what- THEY WERE NOT IN OFFICE. OH , now I am even more pissed becaues I freekin' want to know why they overcharged me?? Dumbasses. I absolutely hate, hate , hate WAITING till morning so I can call them again and streighten this typo. ( AND if they tell me that it is because she received BOTOX, I am going to scream ( lol, yeah, now even dental offices do Botox)..

THEN I went to costco because I needed some food. AND regina was with me. You have 3 guesses about what she wanted to buy from there----- ---- ---- CHOCOLATE bundt cake. It is one of her faves and she HAD to have it . So I got it. AND now I am tempted to finish it up. It smells heavenly and it looks so moist and delicious I can hardly control myself. mhm But I guess I have no choise. I HAVE to have a slice and then one more and one more- and then I will feel sick and throw up. ( I LOVE sweet stuff, but past few weeks sugars make me sick to my stomach. not sure why). Ok.

let the countown begin---20 more days before school starts.

Dear Friends...

As you know I will be spending 4 weeks in China. We will visit lots of different places and I will be really, really busy. I created blog just for my china trip. And since I heard that Blogger is blocked by Chinese something ( not sure who controlls that), then my friend will update for me. I will email her and she will copy and paste. BE patient!!! I'll BE BACK....

and here is my new blog address that is empty right now.
http://tanfamilytravels.blogspot.com/

:)

Way to exited to do anything at all. lol Few days ago I found out that my camcorder has no manners . lol battery lasts only 10 minutes and images look kind of all off color pinkish. So today I went to Best BUY and got myself new awsome toy. I wanted to get camcorder with dvd in it, but after 20 minutes of touching and flipping and talking and other things I decided to get regular one. I got myself Canon Elura 100 digital camcorder. It is nice and small and beautiful :) Maybe now I get China into my computer just the way I want it ;)

http://www.usa.canon.com/consumer/controller?act=ModelDetailAct&fcategoryid=174&modelid=12827

My complection...

Proactive is my answer. I swear. That thing works. After my first wash my skin felt smoother and cleaner. On third day I had 70% less break outs and now, week later I started using it, by skin is getting better and better every minute. I only use it for my body, not to my face, and I feel really exited that finally SOMETHING works. :) LOVE IT :)


4 more days and we are on our way to CHINA!!! ! yeah, I can not wait . I sooo want to get out of here and see and experience china. :)

...

Last time I had my hair done by professional hairdresser I paid 100 dollars and it was year ago for color( highlights). So , On saturday afternoon I went back to my hairdresser with an Idea and she was more than exited to do it because at least I wanted something more " funky" and "original". lol After 2,5 hours I ended up looking ALMOST the way I wanted to look. Color was littlebit OFF but I was happy. BUT what made me almost pass out was THE pricetag my head came with.... 200 dollars+tip..... I was not ready for that price. I had no Idea that prices had gone up so much on that hair place ( THe Art Of Hair). But oh well, that was my fault, I did not check with my hairdresser first.

...

1000 dollars poorerererer. Yup, thats me. I had to take my car back to dealership to get it fixed. Yesterday, after I dropped Regina off to school, I was on my way home when suddenly something weird happened- My car did not want to stop.... So warning signs, no weird guys yelling- YOUR BRAKES ARE OUT, YOUR BRAKES ARE OUT.. Luckily I was driving only 10 miles an hour and hand brake did the thing.... Brakes, and fuses( or whatever they call those things that light up those warning lights) , and rotary something costed me almost 1000 dollars. Yuck. Now at least I do not have to worry about brakes another year. ( yup, ever year almost same time, same problem).

And. I am not sure what the heck is going on with this CA weather. One day it is steaming hot and then suddenly it is cold and raining. So stupid . Global warming??? duh... Well, all that weird weather has invited some outdoor bugs indoors. I flushed 6 spiders today and got bitten by one. And they keep coming in. Small, big, black, brown... . spiders... I hate spiders and kids hate spiders... yuck...

AND I AM EXITED to tell you that one more week and I'll be out of here... I hope China can handle me...

Mexican Burgers.

I really think that America has gone grazy.... lol Next new best thing- MEXICAN BURGERS. lol Who knew that mexican have burgers, ( but of course since Estonians have them, why not to let mexicans have them also....

Well, here is the recipe. I really needed to eat something different today, so I made these burgers.

Recipe came from Cooking Pleasures magazine..( Photo by Diana Tan)

Mexican Burgers
1-1/2 lb. ground beef
1/4 cup chopped cilantro
2 tablespoons thinly sliced green onion
1 pickled jalapeno chile (I used diced green chiles)
2 teaspoons minced garlic
2 teaspoons chili powder
1 teaspoon grate lime peel (I omitted)
3/4 teaspoon salt
4 slices Monterey Jack cheese

1/2 cup Jalapeno-Lime Mayonnaise
2 cups shredded iceberg lettuce
1/2 cup Quick-Roasted Chile Salsa ( or any other salsa)
1 cup Quick Guacamole

In medium bowl, gently mix together beef, cilantro, green onion, chile, garlic, chili powder, lime peel and salt. Shape into 4 patties. Heat grill. Place burgers on gas grill over medium heat or on charcoal hrill 4-6 inches from medium coals; cover grill. Grill 8-10 minutes or until thoroughly cooked and no longer pink in center, turning once. Top each burger with one slice cheese, grill 1 minute or until cheese has melted. Spread each roll with 2 tablespoons of the Jalapeno-Lime Mayonnaise. Place lettuce on top of tolls; top with burgers, salsa and guacamole.

I loved them. I am not big on buns, so I just had a burger, lettuce, with all the other stuff on it. And it tasted delicious. :):):) Simple and great and tasty recipe. :):)

HA...

I just made one of the biggest mistakes of my life... I opened bottle of red whine that is just horrible. ( I should not be drinking red wine anyway, but I do not trust my doctor- I am planning to tell him that- glass of wine , keeps a doctor away..... Anyway, we are members of Wine club of California and every month we get 2 bottles of red wine delivered to our doorstep... Last month they sent us Caparone family winery wines. One that I opened is Cabernet Sauvignon. It is just WAAAYYY to strong and overpowering. I absolutely hate it. yuck. Yuck, yuck.

But, my latest good wine experience is thanks to Leila. For my birthday she gave me bottle of Rawsons Retreat Shiraz Cabarnet. This wine just tasted right. It was very smooth and calming (;) I LOVED IT. My new fave :):):)

Ok. Now I have to figure out what am I going to with rest of the Caparone bottle. Yuckkkk...