Happy Birthday Mall.

Today I took a 54 mile drive to LA area. Target- Estonian house, Occasion- Mall's Birthday. Very fun birthday. Good food, great people and fun conversations. There is never dull moment when estonians are around. ;) ( I know, I am one of the boring ones blah, blah, blah)

Ok. Here is my problem with being Estonian and Living in US and being married to chinese guy. I admit. I AM LAZY when it comes to teaching my kids to speak Estonian. BUT I rather teach them to speak Spanish than Estonian. I am pretty sure that when they'll grow up , they will choose to stay to US. I just know it. Yes, it is important to teach them multiple languages, but why should I force them to speak language they will not need here. I am their mom and I am Estonian, AND acording to "most"estonians, I SHOULD teach my kids my language. NAH, since when I started to listen to others?? huh?? More you pressure me- less you get and more you see my middle finger. Yes, I can be mean and mean in a mean way. SO STOP making me feel quilty. lol

I know, I know. ... Next time I go to Estonian house, I get myself a T shirt that says- NO, I DO NOT TEACH MY KIDS ESTONIAN - AND YES, I SHOULD, BUT I DO NOT FEEL LIKE DOING IT.

But that is just me. I feel bitter today because my dishwasher broke down again with dishes inside and , water was EVERYWHERE when I got home. So there you go Estonians- You got a piece of me and you will get more if you ask for it. lol (

***Disclaimer*** Do not hate me because I am beautiful ;)

Ugly Betty

Fun So I got my glasses. Don't I look Pretty??? My vision is great. I can see Far , far away. further than most of people. lol but my nearvision is kind of messed up. Long hours behind computer, lots and lots of reading and TV watching have done it's work. Anyway, now I am proud owner of Versus glasses ( by Versace).

I have not done much within past few days. Just studing and volunteering in my kids school and cleaning and eating. AND I know where I am going to spend my christmas. :):):) lol I booked a cabin in Big Bear. IT is a beautiful 2 bedroom cabin and very expensive. During Christmas holiday they have 5 night minimum policy (bigbearcoolcabins) and 5 nights is about 1800 dollars. But it looks perfect and I want to get away from all this madness.....

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:)

I have had few pretty grazy days. One one very important day. :0
My beautiful Daughter Regina turned 7. (19th of sept) I feel so happy to have her in our lives. And because she is special, she deserves special treatment. :)

Then - today was one of those days that I wish that I never had. lol Morning started out fine- I did my cardio and while working out I watched movie- JuST MY LUCK. VERY unlucky movie with a happy ending. Anyway. most of you know that Regina was diagnosed with GHD( growth hormone deficency) and she has to start growth hormone therapy. She will start it sometimes beginning next week and it means that I have to inject her with meds every day for next 10 years. AND it is not cheap. So I got a call from pharmacy- Miss Tan, we would like to set up delivery with your daughter meds, but FIRST you have to pay 389 dollars and that is amount your Insurance will not cover. 389 dollars for 30 days I asked??? I told them that I will call few people and ask what the heck is going on because I have invoice from you that my copay is only 30 dollars. So I make those calls ( about 10 of them) and nobody has no Idea what the heck is going on. Finally somebody gave me a straight answer- well, we screwed up and had to do insurance reinvestigation and THAT IS THE AMOUNT YOU OWE!!!!! FUCK. I had a meltdown- BUT THE GOOD news is that next month co pay will be only 135. FUCK FUCK FUCK. So now, I am stuck with this for 10 years???? So what should I give up?? SHopping or my sons daycare??/ Tough one- I think I better stop spending money now..... And then I have this one special friend who just creeps me out with all the " smart" info about growth hormone injections and second cancers. Now I am really freaked out... Thanks K. B. ;)

Ok now- enough of that crap allready. I did something fun also today. I started my bellydancing classes. It was just what I needed. To get my mind of things and just dance . It was so much fun and I really did forget about all the issues I was having. I feel so rested now. But I can all ready feel all the suspicious thoughts filling out my brains free curves.... Welcome to my life. Wanna be part of it, just come and knock on my door and listen to me bitch about things I really need to be bitching- my dh...... ;)

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Main cause for PMS is home. lol My dh finally arrived. He will stay for a week ( mainly because of Reginas Birthay) and then he will leave and come back again in november, because Diana really wants to go to Vegas with girls. lol Diana needs a break(sp).lol

Anyway, It took me 2 hours and 35 minutes to drive to LAX today. Traffic was a bitch. 10 miles and hour and 20 miles an hour it was slooooow. But I am patient girl. I can waith. Good things happen to people who wait.
But I have to admit. I am very bad girl.:( I feel very embarrased about few things.
First- I have not emailed or called to my friend who had surgery few weeks ago. I just could not pick up my phone and do so. Not sure why. I just hope that she forgives me. ((())) Second- I am very self centered little bitch who just cares about my own well being. I am not sure about that eather, I am just me. lol. Just be patient. "GOOD girl me" will be out of closet soon. Until then just laugh at me....
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Top news...

Paris was arrested- because she was drunk and hungry and was speeding because she had to have her burger NOW. Awsome Paris , wtg, you just made my day.


I am really not in the mood to talk about Tom and Katie. I like them. I always did - not sure why, but I still LIKE THEM. SO please- yeah baby looks "asian" but look at Katies eyes and Look at toms eyes- they look asian too. So just stop the drama and let them be. Seriosly. My sister looked asian when she was baby- blond cute asian. lol Now she is 6f 1in caucasian... Sorry Sija , I just had to make that joke. Yeah, and all babys do look like ALIANS with their big heads and weird facial impressions and those sounds they make. OMG. They must be from mars. Dang. What is next- Nicole Richie is not really anorexic- she still is fat???? Only in hollywood...
I need to loose few lbs. Seems like 90 lbs bodys are really in now. 140 is just way to heavy - almost obese. Right???

What else-According to E! News....Britney Spears has reportedly checked herself in to Cedars Sinai St. Johns Medical Center in Los Angeles, where the paparazzi are camped outside and she is in labor / has given birth to her second child.(www.perezhilton.com)

Few more days

( Some people prefer boats....Lol )

.. Few more days and my vacation starts. :).... School for kids, more Me time for me. :0)

Anyway- Yesterday we had such and awsome day. We were invited to Pool party. Not some community pool party- BUT REAL POOL PARTY. Dowside was that place was located 80 miles away from us and I HATE DRIVING to places where I have never been before. But lucily it was really easy drive there. I did get "claustrofobia " ( I have driving issues, I can not breathe if there are way to many cars on road, I feel like they all want to crash me , and squish me and I feel like I have no way out..:lol ) few times, but I turned on radio on max and started singing out loud- open up your buttons babe....lol.

(Regina, Gabriel,me and our new friend Jonathan who lives in Palm Springs )
Anyway, most of the people at the Estonians and I did get to meet few new ones . Like the person who invited us. I have never met him and his family before but Now I know. :) Thanks for the great party. Oh, and my kids were having TOOO much fun. Gabriel stayed into pool for 3 hours, and when he got out his skin was wrinkled. He looked like old dude....lol

HA

When my car doors did not lock my dh suggested that I should call Mercedes road side assistance. I told him - Dude, you know, Trust me, they can not lock my door through satellite because my door has mechanical problem. He just kept blah blah blah blah blah ing and I told him BLAH BLAH BLAH - NOOOOOO.
AND let me tell you- I was right. Passinger side door had some serious health issues - but now it is fixed and is functioning fine. I might be a girl, but I know a little about cars. So stop messing with me.

Now on a different note. I THINK our governer Swarchenegger has been taking some ESL( english second language ) classes. I mean it. His english, pronaunciation is much better than year ago. Yeah, I do pay attention what he is talking about and how he is talking, his CALIFONIA is sounding more like CALIFORNIA now. lol WTG Arnold!!!! I knew that you'd be back ;)

OK- SCHOOL STARTS NEXT WEEK!!!! WOHOOO TO ME. I can finally start studing without - MOMMY, mommy, regina i hurting me, MOMMY, GABRIEL TOLD ME THAT I AM STUPID BABY, MOMMY, HELP ME BECAUSE REGINA IS HURTING ME...
OH, it will be Paradise from 7.40 AM till 2.07 pm -

Today was awsome. :)

(sari that I made


My friend ( from Estonia) celebrated her birthday today. Since she has "good relations" with India, her theme for party was India. So last night I sew myself sari , nothing fancy, simple , black sari ( or Saree). Seems like I did pretty good job since I got lots of good reviews about it. :)

Indian food Is awsome. first time I ever tasted indian food was in 1998 year february in London. I LOVED it and I still to. :) Food at her party was very,very good. Music was Indian and we watched Indian/american movie The Guru( I think that was the name of it.) It was fun fun fun.

All of her friends vere dressed up in Indian style- very cool and different. :):):) happy Birthday Reet.


OH,oh, oh - one more thing- first time ever I had my eyebrows threaded.
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It was so relaxing, and my eyebrows never looked better.

I hate my car- Sometimes---

So today, I was supposed to go to college- orientation. So I start my car, drive to schools parking lot, exit my car- trying to lock my doors, trying again and again and again. Nothing. I hear clicks, but door is not locking. I try to do it manually- not working. I try to push in those knobs inside the car- NOT GOING DOWN... Oh, I was pissed. I did not want to leave my car unloced in college parking lot, so I left and called Mercedes dealership to get my powerlocks fixed. Guess what- I got apointment for monday- but not for today. Oh, I was so pissed. What the heck is wrong with my car. It always does it when I need it the most.

I guess I am going to get a rental car for a weekend because I do not dare to park my car in some strange parking lots when doors are not locked.. i hope I get a good deal....lol

What a week

... do not get to exited. lol nothing special going on here. I finally started scrapbooking again and finished Reginas MAW trip album. Ugh, Scrapbooking is so expencive. I Love going scrapbooking stores and I HATE leaving store because I just NEED lots of the things they have in there. lol

THEN I enrolled gabriel in K+ probram in local YMCA. Now , starting from September I have free time from 7.40am-till 2.07 PM. HO ho ho and Merry chistmas, i am so exited about it. Not that I do not love my kids, but it is time for me to get some ME time ALONE .... Maybe now, I can finally clean my house and it stays clean longer than 10 minutes....
I think I mentioned that I start college again ( 2 online courses) Psychology and Excel.

And I am starting to take belly dancing classes ;) Yeah, next time you go one of those Maroccon restaurants you may find me flashing my fat...... lol

What else?? OH, I went to see Snakes on a Plane. OMG that was heck of a good movie. I think I almost had a heart attack - FEW times . I am scared of snakes, and THIS movie just scared "kaka" out of me big time. lol Wery well played movie. Thumbs up!!!lol

OK .. then last week I took kids to swimming pool- I HATE public swimming pools for a reason- every time i jump into those I come out with huge blisters on my lips- this time they are extra large... And painful and UGLY.... kids are fine , I guess even reginas immune system is now stronger than mine because she is doing much better than me..

OK. Enough for today. I need to do some cardio because I really want to fit into my size 8 jeans again. 10 is not good enough!!!!


AND I almost forgot one very very important thing-- Our Friend Steven Is in St Jude now getting his regular check up. ( He and My daughter Regina were diagnosed with same kind of tumor ) -- ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Sending some good calming vibes to your way...

now I know.

....Our dentist billed me my dh's balance that has not taken care by insurance yet. So that is why it was that much. Now I am off to ortanize my house. To much clutter ...

WHY???

I guess you have noticed that I have kept low profile here. I have been just lazy and buzy also. I try to fix that. Those who know me, know that I can talk "trash " all day long. lol I really can,. Eventhough I am VERY positive person, and I find something good in everything - I CAN BE very mean, honest and find bad in GOOD things. To I make any sense??? Maybe not. But oh well, Who cares- Right???

Today I Received 875 dollar bill from My dentist. I was beyond pissed. Since Regina does not have insurance I have to pay for her cleanings. And it is usually 75 dollars ( yes ONLY). SO today I received this bill and of course I called them and guess what- THEY WERE NOT IN OFFICE. OH , now I am even more pissed becaues I freekin' want to know why they overcharged me?? Dumbasses. I absolutely hate, hate , hate WAITING till morning so I can call them again and streighten this typo. ( AND if they tell me that it is because she received BOTOX, I am going to scream ( lol, yeah, now even dental offices do Botox)..

THEN I went to costco because I needed some food. AND regina was with me. You have 3 guesses about what she wanted to buy from there----- ---- ---- CHOCOLATE bundt cake. It is one of her faves and she HAD to have it . So I got it. AND now I am tempted to finish it up. It smells heavenly and it looks so moist and delicious I can hardly control myself. mhm But I guess I have no choise. I HAVE to have a slice and then one more and one more- and then I will feel sick and throw up. ( I LOVE sweet stuff, but past few weeks sugars make me sick to my stomach. not sure why). Ok.

let the countown begin---20 more days before school starts.

Dear Friends...

As you know I will be spending 4 weeks in China. We will visit lots of different places and I will be really, really busy. I created blog just for my china trip. And since I heard that Blogger is blocked by Chinese something ( not sure who controlls that), then my friend will update for me. I will email her and she will copy and paste. BE patient!!! I'll BE BACK....

and here is my new blog address that is empty right now.
http://tanfamilytravels.blogspot.com/

:)

Way to exited to do anything at all. lol Few days ago I found out that my camcorder has no manners . lol battery lasts only 10 minutes and images look kind of all off color pinkish. So today I went to Best BUY and got myself new awsome toy. I wanted to get camcorder with dvd in it, but after 20 minutes of touching and flipping and talking and other things I decided to get regular one. I got myself Canon Elura 100 digital camcorder. It is nice and small and beautiful :) Maybe now I get China into my computer just the way I want it ;)

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My complection...

Proactive is my answer. I swear. That thing works. After my first wash my skin felt smoother and cleaner. On third day I had 70% less break outs and now, week later I started using it, by skin is getting better and better every minute. I only use it for my body, not to my face, and I feel really exited that finally SOMETHING works. :) LOVE IT :)


4 more days and we are on our way to CHINA!!! ! yeah, I can not wait . I sooo want to get out of here and see and experience china. :)

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Last time I had my hair done by professional hairdresser I paid 100 dollars and it was year ago for color( highlights). So , On saturday afternoon I went back to my hairdresser with an Idea and she was more than exited to do it because at least I wanted something more " funky" and "original". lol After 2,5 hours I ended up looking ALMOST the way I wanted to look. Color was littlebit OFF but I was happy. BUT what made me almost pass out was THE pricetag my head came with.... 200 dollars+tip..... I was not ready for that price. I had no Idea that prices had gone up so much on that hair place ( THe Art Of Hair). But oh well, that was my fault, I did not check with my hairdresser first.

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1000 dollars poorerererer. Yup, thats me. I had to take my car back to dealership to get it fixed. Yesterday, after I dropped Regina off to school, I was on my way home when suddenly something weird happened- My car did not want to stop.... So warning signs, no weird guys yelling- YOUR BRAKES ARE OUT, YOUR BRAKES ARE OUT.. Luckily I was driving only 10 miles an hour and hand brake did the thing.... Brakes, and fuses( or whatever they call those things that light up those warning lights) , and rotary something costed me almost 1000 dollars. Yuck. Now at least I do not have to worry about brakes another year. ( yup, ever year almost same time, same problem).

And. I am not sure what the heck is going on with this CA weather. One day it is steaming hot and then suddenly it is cold and raining. So stupid . Global warming??? duh... Well, all that weird weather has invited some outdoor bugs indoors. I flushed 6 spiders today and got bitten by one. And they keep coming in. Small, big, black, brown... . spiders... I hate spiders and kids hate spiders... yuck...

AND I AM EXITED to tell you that one more week and I'll be out of here... I hope China can handle me...

Mexican Burgers.

I really think that America has gone grazy.... lol Next new best thing- MEXICAN BURGERS. lol Who knew that mexican have burgers, ( but of course since Estonians have them, why not to let mexicans have them also....

Well, here is the recipe. I really needed to eat something different today, so I made these burgers.

Recipe came from Cooking Pleasures magazine..( Photo by Diana Tan)

Mexican Burgers
1-1/2 lb. ground beef
1/4 cup chopped cilantro
2 tablespoons thinly sliced green onion
1 pickled jalapeno chile (I used diced green chiles)
2 teaspoons minced garlic
2 teaspoons chili powder
1 teaspoon grate lime peel (I omitted)
3/4 teaspoon salt
4 slices Monterey Jack cheese

1/2 cup Jalapeno-Lime Mayonnaise
2 cups shredded iceberg lettuce
1/2 cup Quick-Roasted Chile Salsa ( or any other salsa)
1 cup Quick Guacamole

In medium bowl, gently mix together beef, cilantro, green onion, chile, garlic, chili powder, lime peel and salt. Shape into 4 patties. Heat grill. Place burgers on gas grill over medium heat or on charcoal hrill 4-6 inches from medium coals; cover grill. Grill 8-10 minutes or until thoroughly cooked and no longer pink in center, turning once. Top each burger with one slice cheese, grill 1 minute or until cheese has melted. Spread each roll with 2 tablespoons of the Jalapeno-Lime Mayonnaise. Place lettuce on top of tolls; top with burgers, salsa and guacamole.

I loved them. I am not big on buns, so I just had a burger, lettuce, with all the other stuff on it. And it tasted delicious. :):):) Simple and great and tasty recipe. :):)

HA...

I just made one of the biggest mistakes of my life... I opened bottle of red whine that is just horrible. ( I should not be drinking red wine anyway, but I do not trust my doctor- I am planning to tell him that- glass of wine , keeps a doctor away..... Anyway, we are members of Wine club of California and every month we get 2 bottles of red wine delivered to our doorstep... Last month they sent us Caparone family winery wines. One that I opened is Cabernet Sauvignon. It is just WAAAYYY to strong and overpowering. I absolutely hate it. yuck. Yuck, yuck.

But, my latest good wine experience is thanks to Leila. For my birthday she gave me bottle of Rawsons Retreat Shiraz Cabarnet. This wine just tasted right. It was very smooth and calming (;) I LOVED IT. My new fave :):):)

Ok. Now I have to figure out what am I going to with rest of the Caparone bottle. Yuckkkk...

So , you think....

I can live without dishwasher??? BINGO!!! You are absolutley right!!! My dishwasher broke last friday, after my friends " good bye" party. Sine then, I have been handwashing my dishes. MY POOR DELICATE HANDS get real housewife training now. OH, the joys of broken household appliances. ... I think that I will not get this GE profile performance fixed. IT will be its third time and repears exceed 300 dollars. Price for this built in dishwasher is 400 dollars. ( cheap stuff, but hey, it came with house- almost came with house, we updated it to stainless steal .....) . So , now I am doing everything by hand. .... Just trying to same some money...lol..

last night I was forced to post In LIFE as IT IS blog ( www.diana78.blogspot.com) because this PMS blog was not found..... weird. So if you want to know what the heck is going on, go there and read the latest entry about myPMS....


As you know I am married... lol yeah, and I have 2 kids and my husband just had enough and moved to china , so he does not have to listen to my blah, blah blah 24/7......( I love you honey...) So today he called and started bitching about how bad chinese food is.????? And trust me, he does it EVERY TIME HE CALLS( 4 times a week). I KNOW HONEY, you allready told me.... and my response to him - SO GO OUT THERE AND FIND SOM E' Better MSG free food??? Do something about it!!!! Don't just complain, take action and ask around. But knowing my husband... I do not think he will do that. He expects ME to go there and find him THAT IT!!!! Oh, sweety, I feel bad for him. Every time he goes to China he buys his favorite protein bars and shakes with him, he takes Total cereal and mixed nuts( from costco). He is total health food freak... BUT what bugs me is He can not find his way in china... He is Chinese and he asks directions from me- WHAT SHOULD I DO , HONEY??? ( to bad he can not read this blog in china, blogger is blocked by chinese covernment, weird , huh???).

I think that is it for today.... I am turning my TV to fox and watch- So you think you can dance?? What's up my firends?? Any exiting summer vacation plans??

Competition, competition competition..

Ok. I am little unhappy now. I spent 2 hours by the pool and got horrible sunburn and I used 50 spf sunblock. I HURT EVERYWHERE. I want my money back....


Anyway, what I want to write about today may make some of you disagree with me. It is about My California. It is about what I see here every day. Area where we live is close to everything and our house is built on last Developement in Laguna Niguel ( at least that what they are saying). Our community is not finished yet. There is still place for new homes. But do you want to know what is the price for new homes??? 4 years ago when I bought my house we payed 750 000 dollars for our house. If we'd sell our house we'd make around 1,5 million dollars. BUT new houses range from 1,3 million to 2,5 million dollars and THEY ARE NOT worth that amount of money. It is grazy over here. Ridiculos. But of course Laguna Niguel is very beautiful area , very clean and well organised. Close to freeway, toll road, close to few malls , grocery stores etc. I love it here.
Living here is kind of stressful I think. people who live here make GOOD money, they have interior designers, private shoppers , Gardners, mades, own 3-4 houses, apartments, ,condos ( not everybody , but lots of them do). Most of the familyes have more than 2 cars , if they have small kids and both parents work Live in nanny is necessity , well, lot of moms I know, are stay at home moms and they still have live in nanny/ baby sitter. I know lot of people here who are taking acting lessons and drive to LA area few times a week to show up in auditions in hopes of finding awsome HOLLYWOOD fame. I know parents whose kids got chosen to Santa Clause 3 movie and now they are not friends anymore, because one of the kids gets to be on big screen one minute longer. ( jelousy). Whatever.

People who have been in my house know that our house is NOT traditional in any means. lol All my fooms have different colors, furniture is miss and match and I do not shop in High End department stores. Nothing matches in my house. AND then I go to these awsome traditional looking clean, clutter free DO NOT SIT ON MY FURNITURE kind of homes and I feel overwhelmed. I am not sure why, but sometimes it just irks me that I do not have 3000 dollar couch in my house, or my coffe table is out of Ikea? Do I make any sence to you?? Yeah, I do want to decorate my house with Art deco and Salvador Dali and Picasso. But will it make me happy when I have it??? Will I enjoy it for me or will I enjoy it because people will go AWW, ond OWW and wow... you know??
I have been writing here and I forgot why I started writing this. Oh, I remembered. Life here is all about WHO is the Best. My husband blah, my kids, blah, my this blah my that blah... All I hear all day long is blah blah blah and I am so fucking sick of this all. Sometimes I just want to pack my bags and leave this place, and then I take a minute to think about it and I feel like I am a total moron. Why do I ever feel depressed? I live in Southern paradise. I have everything I ever wanted , even more. Husband, kids, house, best cars ( yeah, you may disagree there. lol). But I do get my dull and I want out of here moments. The other day I thought I should back my bags and move to hollywood, take couple of acting classes, get myself agent and start acting . lol I'l probably get a job as and dead fat russian stripper in CSI crime lab..... oh. wow. I get teary eyes even thinking about it.... Watch out Hollywood, Diana has few more glasses of cider and I am ready....;)

Everybody here looks good. THey do. And I love how people talk here I love California English. lol.. I had hard time getting New Jearsey and Memphis one, but CA one sound just Right......

OK. I am going to take care of my sunburn. It really hurts. ...... I love California, but I miss Estonia.:)

I am so tired right now. I hate hot weather, I hate cold weather I hate rainy weather, HECK- I hate when wheather changes from one extreme to other. Whay can't it be JUST RIGHT!!!!!

Anyway, I feel really upset right now. Some of you have met Jill, My very first friend here in US. about 4 years ago she moved to Ca to be with her boyfriend. They have been together for 6 years. Well, things did not work out the way SHE wanted and she decided that it is time for her to move on. AND she is MOVING TO FLORIDA. With whoom will I go to scrapbooking now??? huh??? Ok. That's fine, just pack your bags and leave your good friend behind... not fair. :(

On friday night I threw her a little party. As my good bye gift.. And on Saturday Morning I will drive her to Airport. :( I hope she finds what she is looking for...

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WHY???

These past 2 weeks have been very entertaining. Season finales, series finalies and all the other finalies. Today is Alias 2 hour series finaly. I LOVE Alias. But I am glad to see it go. 2 more hours and then I see what all the fuzz was all about anyway.

I have been really tired past few weeks. Not sure what is going on. I yawn all the time, got very weird skin rash and PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME TO HOME DEPOT nursery dep. I went there the other day , and few moments after I entered the 'blooming " area I had to leave it. I almost passed out. MY head got all dizzy and I started sneezing. To top that i got blurry vision and scratcy throat... THANKS god home depo is only abot mile away from us. Drive home was horrible since I was still sneezing and my eyes were watering. I am taking Claritin and it is helping a lot. :)

Oh people, please give me some good ideas what to get for my "family" in china. Everything is made in China anyway. I got See's candys and few CA books, but that is it. I need something original...

So girls...

I had my annual ob/gyn checkup today. I do it every year and I look forward to it. I remember when we lived in New Jearsey, there was ob/gyn group called Woman Caring for WOman. I loved going there for chekcups. All doctors were really nice and they laughed with you, cryed with you... My last day there--- I remember it... It was halloween, all doctors were dressed up, wearing costumes, my doctor was wearing Queen costume from snow white, she looked just like queen - beautiful but evil same time... oh, anyway... I miss them up there.

BUT I found really good doctor here. Her name is Mona and she is doing awsome job. And her memory is just incredible. I saw her last year ago and she asked some questions about our family and kids and my background .. I told her what was going on with Regina and with my mom and that my DH was working in China... SHE remembered everything. I was impressed..

About my health- she wants to do an ultrasound ( no I am not pregnant), but since my AF is veryirregular ( every 2-3 months) they just want to take a "closer " look. I also have to get some Ovarian cancer screening done because of family history. Not happy about it, but better safe than sorry. And They took my blood for testing. OH, how could I forget the most important test -Pap test. Now I am hoping for negative results.. ( I had false positive about 3 years ago and I hated all the other test they did..... yuck).

SO all of you out there who avoid going to see your doctor once a year. It's no big deal. Just do it. Take off your clothes, put on that funny looking robe and sit patiently until doctor enters and ask you to scoot forward...... JUST DO IT....

just a little update.

http://www.clubvegas.us/hotshots/Default.aspx

I found us... can you??? ( we should be on page 7)

It's my birthday... and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to, cry if I want to
You would cry too if it happened to you

Happy Birthday to meeeeeeee

It's my birthday, and I'll cry if I want toCry if I want to, cry if I want toYou would cry too if it happened to you ..... 

See ya' in Club Vegas in Costa Mesa. :D:D:D:D:D:D
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Pictures...
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Yeah, Vegas was fun. Before we went there we reserved table in VIP lounge.
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VIP Lounge
Seating is available in our VIP Lounge and can be reserved with a credit card in advance. Ordering bottle service gets you a table/booth reservation, with a minimum purchase of one bottle for up to four people.(( we got Gray Goose vodka - 300 dollars per bottle) Club Vegas bottle service INCLUDES VIP Express Access for your whole party, and you will be personally escorted from the front door directly to your table by a VIP host. Seems like lots of money to pay per bottle , but we did not have to pay cover price, all the juices, tonic water etc. were included. And since it was our first time thre we got special price. ( we still payed 300 dollars but 10 people got to enjoyn it....

I would do it again. We had such a great time drining, dancing and just goofing around -3 guys and 7 girls.... Pictures later...

http://www.clubvegas.us/

This girl is happy today...

After yesterdays mishap, I thought , there it comes- from here it can only go downhilll.... but oh boy was I wrong. Things are looking up again. NO, you silly people, my hair did not grow 2 inches owernight nor I had extensions put on... BUT those of you who remember my car accident year ago , on may 23d, know that I had HELL of a time calling Liberty mutual, and Farmers to get my rental money reinbursed ... Well, today it finally happened. 1454.95. I feel like it is my first payday ever. lol. I am soooo happy. Please people, keep sending those awsome checks. All I need is money. And yes, in my case, money buys happiness. Totally.. Good things come it threes... so

1. I got my early Bday present
2. I got My money back
3. --- number 3 is open for business...... ;)

I think that is it for today. I need to get some serious house cleaning done. Tomorrow will be busy day cooking for my DH's Taiwanese business partners.

OH, I had to quit drinking wine. ( red/white) Past few months my body acme really started bothering me. And my dermatologist finally took his paper, pen and started asking questions about my drinking/eating habits. When we got to the part that I have glass of whine almost every evening with my meal- he stopped me right there and told me to quit drinking wine for a week or 2 . So now I have been wine free for 5 days and my back and chest are slowly clearing up. i think I am going to swich to vodka from now on. ... shot today, 2 tomorrow and AA meetings in near future.... See ya'

WTF???

You know what pissed me off today.. ? YOu don't want to know? Well, it is your bad luck. I will tell you anyway...

I went and got my hair cut. I told hairdresser- DO NOT TOUCH MY BANGS. AND first thing she did, she grabbed her scissors and my bangs and woooosh- they are 2 inches shorter. I almost grabbed her scissors and wanted to cut off her fake stupid curly hair... Seriosly, I was fucin' mad. I made clear for her in my " perfect" legal Estonian Immigrant english that FUCKING BITCH, LEAVE MY BROWN FRONT ALONE....... Yeah, I blame it on immigrants, and think that she was on strike.... and lucky me!!!!! F*U*C*K. It took me 3 months to grow my hair out and it took her one second to ruin my good looks, ( well, I still look good, BUT, it's her way good, not MY way good. Since she pissed me off, I bought myself new pair of shoes. Yes, she made me. Plus, shoes really fit right this time.... DANG.. on a good note--- I got my early Bday present from my dh. Sony sybershot digi camera - it is really small and it feels really weird . Lol. I am used to my big Canon SLR camera that I love, and now I have this matchbox size camera ... But I love it anyway. I wanted new camera so this is good. :) ALl I need is to loose 10 more pounds, so I can fit into size 8 clothes. :)

WTF???

You know what pissed me off today.. ? YOu don't want to know? Well, it is your bad luck. I will tell you anyway...

I went and got my hair cut. I told hairdresser- DO NOT TOUCH MY BANGS. AND first thing she did, she grabbed her scissors and my bangs and woooosh- they are 2 inches shorter. I almost grabbed her scissors and wanted to cut off her fake stupid curly hair... Seriosly, I was fucin' mad. I made clear for her in my " perfect" legal Estonian Immigrant english that FUCKING BITCH, LEAVE MY BROWN FRONT ALONE....... Yeah, I blame it on immigrants, and think that she was on strike.... and lucky me!!!!! F*U*C*K. It took me 3 months to grow my hair out and it took her one second to ruin my good looks, ( well, I still look good, BUT, it's her way good, not MY way good. Since she pissed me off, I bought myself new pair of shoes. Yes, she made me. Plus, shoes really fit right this time.... DANG.. on a good note--- I got my early Bday present from my dh. Sony sybershot digi camera - it is really small and it feels really weird . Lol. I am used to my big Canon SLR camera that I love, and now I have this matchbox size camera ... But I love it anyway. I wanted new camera so this is good. :) ALl I need is to loose 10 more pounds, so I can fit into size 8 clothes. :)

Yeah. :)

I got my car back today. IT has new and updated navigation system, FINALLY my house is on right side of the road. lol And it knows where my dermatologist is in San Clemente. lol

Right now I am watching AMerican Idol. THis show sucks big time this year. I would sue them if Chris looses. Other "amateur singers" just suck ( well, Elliot is ok also), but still they are horrible and boring. At least Kelly has good " naive " kind fo sense of humor and makes me laugh every time she opens her mouth.... but it is starting to get old.... I really am hard to please. My husband was right.... Talking about my husband. Since may 1st is huuuuge holiday in china , people take week off , so he decided he spends thousand bucks and comes home. I rather see this money on our bank account, but oh well, if he misses us that much, let him come home for a week..... ;) We also can celebrate my birthday together( almost). My birthday is on May 8th, but he leaves on may 7th. SO I think WE have to do something exiting. We have gift sertificate to go to W hotels
http://www.starwoodhotels.com/whotels
( Thanks Sam), if we get a sitter and there is room vacant --- maybe....


Then I am pissed because my made did not show up today. I clean my house every day, but I want someone to do deep cleaning once a month. UGH. I guess she forgot. Yeah...

Yeah, right..

.. so finally today I took my ML 500 to dealership repears to get my navigation system fixed. That damn thing was driving me grazy. I can not stand broken things. THey are cluttering my mind and make me stressed. So when I got there the guy told me that there are few dents on my doors and they can get those taken out - 150 dollars per door. THanks, but NO thanks. I can live with tiny dents. But I can not live with broken navigation system. :):): Tomorrow I'll find out what the heck is going on.

Then. I got replacement car. At first they wanted to give me C230 ( I think), but then they saw my kids and 2 car seats and I got older ML 350. I HATE IT!!!! Yes, it is ML , big spaceous.... BUT IT IS fuckin'g 350. It aint 500. When I press gas pedal down I get potpot pot rrrrrrrrrpot potpot rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. It means it is not as fast as I like my car to be. It took me while to get used to driving it, becasue I am used to fast excelaration. lol. I am such a drama queen. My friend is right... she told me while ago that I make something out of nothing.... so what was I talking about again..... Just don't mind me today. I am just pissed because I got older car to replace my 2003 car. Blah......

Urb Brothers

Oh maaaaaan

Yeah, that is how I feel today. Today started out pretty good. I volunteer in my daughters classroom every friday. So as I was getting ready to go to her school suddenly something weird happened. I got horrible ringing in my ears, I could not hear anything for few seconds. I lost my balance and almost fell over. Very weird. After that I got very very weird headache . It is just in one part of my head- lover right side of my head( backside). It is still there and bothers me a lot. I allready took 2 prescription painkillers but nothing happened. Pressure and pain are still there and bother me a lot. :( I hate headaches. :(

Problem no 2. My car has awsome navigation system. But beginning this week it started playing tricks on me. One moment it is on, then second moment screan goes blank and nothing for 20 minutes. It irks me. So I called Mercedes service department and they are going to take a look what is going on. And of course things only happen when I do not need them to happen.
Tomorrow I have to drive to LA area. Vennad Urbid( Brothers Urb) are giving a concert in Estonian house and I do not want to miss that concert. I love Urbs. So now I have been printing out mapquest and Yahoo maps to get some directions . I have been in Estonian house few times, but navigation system took me there, I did not have to think about how to get there. Now I do and I am freeking out. Seriosly. I also printed out some alternative directions incase there is somthing wrong on road .... Oh, I really am messed up...


Problem 3. I just waisted 7.50 in movie theater. Seriosly. I WASTED it. Scary Movie 4 was piece of crap. I hated it . I usually like stupid kind of humor , but this one was just gross and stupid and gross one more time. I almost walked out of theater, but since I WASTED my money I had to sit there and "ENJOY" it till the end. And the ending was stupido.!!!

OK. Thats it for today. Stay tuned for more PMS. OR send me sone Tampax....

I'm just lazy

there is alot to write about, but I just don't want to. I lost interest. My latest news is thta WE ( R, G and I got Chinese visas and are ready to pack our bags and move to China - FOREVER...lol 25 days sounds like FOREVER. Nick better find me some interesting activities. I just hope that he does not force me to walk entire Grate wall - ......lol Kids are weird. They told me that they want to go to Estonia first and then think about if they want to go to China. They are weird.


Ok. Yeah, I am PMSing. But I don't get it. I really dont. This past year I get fever before my AF. ( yeah, I know to much information) . I get sick. I also get nausea, headaches, vomiting at times and horrible upper respiratory infections. Doctor looks at me and tells me. YUP, You are PMSing. WTF?? I know you are my good friend, but it does not give you the right to make fun of me when I feel misreable. Seriosly. He is a nutjob. WHy do I even bother to keep him as my doctor. Then he prescribes me antibiotics with refils and tells me- I know , in 4o days you will be back here complaning same thing , so there you go. I save you 35 dollars !!! Another WTF?? Is that how you are trying to tell me that you had enough and I should get my head checked??
But I just smile and say- Thank you doctor. I will sell these drugs on Ebay, because there are lot of people who are willing to pay lots of money for this piece of relief. Then he looks at me and tells me- " I trust you ! " Then he opens the door, tells me see ya'. After this doctors wisit I am 70 dollars poorerererer - it is like loosing 7 bottles of pretty good wine....

Dreams..

I don't know even from where to start. For about week now ( since febr 12th) I have had these weird dreams. They do not include my husband or my EX boyfriends. First of all, every time there is full moon out I loose my sleep, I have nightmares , I wake up sweating and I see things I should not be seeing. ( no , silly, I am not grazy, These weird visions, dreams have been with me since I can remember). This time things got really weird. This guy I am dreaming about is about 29 years old. I met him when I was 14 years old and we only spent like week together just hanging out( singing camp/festival). Well, first night I had a dream that we had a baby together and he hated me Jerry springer way, He even started a world war 3 because he hated me like I was murderer. Next night I dreamed about him wanting to marry me, Then we had another baby , then he came to USA to pick me up and take me back to Estonia. WTF??
I always have very vivid colorful dreams. And I do not dream a lot. But when I do dream everything seems so real and when I wake up , I have to pinch myself to make sure I am awake now.

Last Night dream was really weird. I was in top of a cliff waiting for him. I had this amazing view , and I saw him driving towards me with his Pink Cadillac( I don't think he has Pink cadilac lol). He was wearing sute and I was super exited about just meeting him. But then , when he opened his car door , to step out... My alarm clock went off.... I am not sure why I am having these dreams. We never ever ever dated, and since I was 14 I have met him only twice.
I think I am just lonley....

I really want to work.

But I do not want to have normal job, like OFfice job. I want to movie critic , or mystery shopper , or food critic. Something on those lines. Yeah, I want to judge everything and let everybody know what I think and get payed for it. I used to be mystery shopper( for cheesecake factory, but I only got payed for amount that I spent in restaurant and if it was over 40 dollars , I had to pay it out of my pocket. But it was fun. I had to evaluate all the small details in restaurant, flowers, dust, people, clean staff, how fast my wishes were filled, etc . IT really was fun. But I had to stop it because after one lunch In cheese cake factory I was served salad with wood stick hiden in it and I almost pierced my cheek with it. THey told me they are sorry and that is it. I was so pissed what happened I just stopped going there for food.

I think I find another mystery shopping site and start doing it again with my free time.

What drink are you

You Are a Martini

There's no other way to say it: you're a total lush. You hold your liquor well, and you hold a lot of it!

What Mixed Drink Are You?

Yeah, not that I am proud of that I am Martini, but I sure do love martinis. lol

How Ironic...

.. at first I thought I am doing something wrong because my laptop gets hit with one virus after another. And Now I know I am doing something wrong. I let my kids play with it. Today , after just month being clean, major something hit my laptop. ( after one of my sweethearts finished playing Disney.com). I turned on my computer and within 6 seconds everything was gone from it. Hardwares, softwares, links icons. ... I do not get it. I have virus protection, spyware protection, everything is up do date, and my computer is still under attack. I give up. I do not know what to do next to protect my computer from being attacked. Bummer....

Oh, what a fun weekend.

(Walnut and goat cheese terrine)

...but I am sooo glad it is over. Our busy weekend started early on Friday morning. I went to costco, ralpsh, vons, trader joes, to get all the items needed for nics party. I spent about 550 dollars for food. And then fun started. I started pounding, mixing, scaling, timing - all the dirty work had to be done before saturday. I cleaned, moved furniture.... It was busy day, but fun day because I HAD CHANCE TO COOK. On friday night Nick and I went out to wine testing. OMG. When we entered wines store we were feeling just fine, when we left 1,5 hours later we were DRUNK. 10 different australian wines- whewwwww.
Then around 10 pm on friday night I started baking his cake. I was done with it around midnight.

On saturday noon, Leila ( friend from LA area) came over to help me out with preparations . We diced, chopped, cleaned, decorated- we did every little thing that had to be done to make this party( nicks Birthday party) a great success.
Guest started arriving around 6pm. Thank you guys so much for taking time off from your busy chedules and making my DH feel so special on his birthday. He ( we) really did enjoy having you all over in our house eating, drinking, laughing etc. I would love to write more about his party, but I am really tired right now and have no idea how to put my thoughts into words.
Thank you :)

Leila, Jennifer, Jill and I

Nick and Jennifer

Jason, Lulu and Beth :)

Quick preview...... moment from my Dh's birthday party. This picture just cracks me up. Seriosly, look at as....lol

Happy Birthday to youuuu.

Menu
1. Goat Cheese Terrine- Goat cheese, cream cheese, blue cheese, chives,
cilantro, walnuts
2. Salt cured Salmon - Salmon

3. Appetizers- crab meat, mayo, smoked salmon, cream cheese filled
crusty
puffs

4. Cabbage rolls filled with vegetables and meat

5. Potato salad with a kick- Chinese cabbage, potatoes, red bell
peppers,
cucumbers,
tomatoes, green onions, cilantro, canned peas and carrots,
dressing.

6. Pre-marinated grilled beef

7. 3 lbs of tiger shrimp ( with jack cheese sauce)

8. Pesto Potatoes( boiled)

9. Asparagus with lemon sauce and peppers( steamed), OR steamed mixed vegetables.

10. (pre-marinated) Roasted leg of lamb( with balsamic vinegar reduction

11. Kypsise tort( farmers cheese, strawberry preserves, whipped cream,
fresh
strawberries, condensed milk.)

12. Miniature cheesecakes/ Birthday cake.

13. Single serving desserts( cheesecake, chocolate mousse, whipped
cream,
hot chocolate, caramel sauce, Ice cream,peanut butter, macademia nut butter

14. Bread rolls( pizza dough, cream cheese, bacon, sundries tomatoes, cucumber- baked minutes before dinner)

Drinks, drinks , drinks.( margaritas, cosmos, apple sours.... vodka, whisky,

15. Snitzels( pork)

Ok, this is Menu for my Dh's Birthday. But I know some of the items are subject to change. If weather is rainy- grilling is out of question and I have to come up with roasted fish or chicken.
Also, I will play around with apetizers and see what I come up with.

So , if you guys have nothing to do on April 1st, come celebrate April Fools day with us. ( well, march 31st is my Dh's 40th Birhtday, but we are having a party on April 1st. around 6 pm. :)>):)

James..

Cry
James Blunt
I have seen peace.
I have seen pain,
Resting on the shoulders of your name.
Do you see the truth through all their lies?
Do you see the world through troubled eyes?
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.I have seen birth. I have seen death.
Lived to see a lover's final breath.
Do you see my guilt? Should I feel fright?
Is the fire of hesitation burning bright?

And if you want to talk about it once again,
On you I depend.
I'll cry on your shoulder.
You're a friend.
You and I have lived through many things.
I'll hold on to your heart.
I wouldn't cry for anything,But don't go tearing your life apart.

I have seen fear. I have seen faith.
Seen the look of anger on your face.
And if you want to talk about what will be,
Come and sit with me,
and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.
And if you want to talk about it anymore,
Lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder,
I'm a friend.

I hate evenings.

Today started out really nice. We woke up 8.30 and had pancake breakfast, even Gabriel ate them.lol Then 3 of us played , cleaned garage and around 4 pm we went to Borders book store. Now it is 9 pm and my head is about to explode. I have horrible headache and my eyes are swollen red. I am starting to think that there are some spring allergies that make me feel like this . Seriously.... And then I had headed argument with Nick over the phone... same old, same old. I am sick and tired and he is working his ass off and does not understand why I am sick and tired if I do not have to work. He even dared to compare me with " chinese" females whose husbands are away 6 months at a time and they manage to stay stress free. FUCk the other people. What the heck do I and other people have in common? We are human? That is about it. Cheesh.. what is with him. Find yourself some chinese chick who can cook , clean and stay happy 24/7 with 2 kids. I am not "that " kind of girl.

Srry. I really needed to went. I am sure I regret tomorrow that I even mentioned it, but I really have to let some steam out....

:)

Well, it is friday. Gabriels shool had Parent(s) night out. Yeah, wohoo, awsome, great, I was so freekin' exited. ( whatever). So I dropped Regina and Gabriel to Tutor Time and I went to see 16 Blocks( Bruce willis). No regrets , awsome movie. I just hated that one bad guy who finally did a good thing in a bad way got away..... Happy hollywood ending....
So , about 40 minutes into movie I got a phone call from my doctor ( it was 8.45 pm) about my labs. Luckily I do not carry arthiritus gene but he told me to come back to office sometimes next week to run more tests to find the reason of my pains.
Today new kind of pain appeared. I but on my favorite pair of boots with midium size heals. At first everything was fine, but when I was walking from my car to movie theater both of my feet started hurting to the point I was in tears. Month ago I did not have that pain. Seems like my bones have started drifting to some different direction. :(
Ugh, I want nick to come back and find a good job in US. ( at least 150 000 dollars per year lol) and good health insurance ...

Ok. I have to give Regina meds now. She is still coughing ( she started in January) and nothing makes her cough go away. she also has Laryngitis .


So far these are all of my symptoms.
Joint pains
Fluid filled systs ( ganglion cysts)
Bladder Dysfunction
Bowel Dysfunction
problems with memory
attention,
Dizziness
Depression Fatigue

Balance or Coordination Problems

Abnormal Numbness or Pain

Vision Problems
nausea

Headache

Itching

I need to get out of this house. Outside is most wonderful spring weather and all I do is sit inside. But I am to lazy, I am to tired, I am so sick , I am so busy. I have way to many excused not to go out. But the most accurate one is I am lazy and I have pink eye and my eyes are very sensitive to light right now.

Nick comes home next week. Wohoo. At least I get few "easyer day", because I NEED THEm. I am so burned out.

Not very good day. :(

Today started out not very good. After I woke up I did my streching routine, but I overdid it , I heard a " CRACK" and my back awas locked. I was not able to move. At least kids were sleeping so I had some time to get myself together and but on a smily face. lol I made appointment to see my favorite chiro Dr Ray from PodyPro! and after few "CRACKs" I feel 50 % better. But that is not it.

Few days ago my eyes started hurting and looked puffy. People asked if I was crying or tyred or sick, because my face looked horrible. :( So I went to see doctor for that. And guess what, I have conjunctivitis (pink eye). I got eyedrops for that and I feel much better now. :) I also asked from my doctor why my pains ( bone, joints) are getting worse, not better. He drew some blood to test for artiritus( sp), if tests come back fine, then they will let me know whats the next step will be. Until then I just have to take Celebrex, and since my insurance does not cover it , I have to pay in full ( 107 dollars- monthly dose- I think). Anyway, I am just getting tired of being in pain. I am used to pain, but I have to give up a lot because of pain. There are things I want to do but I can not . I want to get down on floor and play with kids, but it is really hard for me to get down on all four, and play pony rides with them, I want to carry them around them sitting on my sholders- I can't. I am 27 going on 70. :( I want my health back. I want my life back.

The real housewives of Orange county.

Oh wow. Unbelivable. Real housewives??? WTFDTM?? And they are from OC?? WOW. I AM SO EXITED. Maybe I should drop my "poor" husband, go out and findmyself billioner boyfriend so I could get myself boob job, liposuction and full face job ( so I could better fit in///) Just kidding.
What comes next from OC. ?? There is Laguna Beach on MTV, OC, Real life Housewives, and somthing else. Only thing that is missing is - How low income people manage to survive in OC. Orange county is not only Newport Beach, Coto De Caza, or Laguna Beach. There are plenty of lover income citys here. HEre are lot of homeless people ( men, woman, kids) who have no jobs or food to eat before bedtime. But show about them will not get any good ratings , right. SO why spend some Good money on people who have no money??? Life. I do not get it.

Headlines....

As many of you may know by now, Donald is Daddy- again. And I can see future headlines- DONALD TRUMP FOUND DEAD in his bedroom, Melania and baby missing.
I think that Melania is very very very smart woman- and of course he loves Donald and is greatly attracted to him- I blame it on Money..... ( sorry Melania and Donald, I am just being brutally honest.....)

New Trump: Donald, Melania Have a Boy

Monday Mar 20, 2006 7:35am EST
Monday Mar 20, 2006 1:20pm EST (updated)

By Stephen M. Silverman

CREDIT: DAVE ALLOCCA / STARTRAKS

It's a baby boy for Donald Trump and wife Melania, the real-estate entrepreneur announced Monday.

The couple's son, Barron William Trump, was born at 5 a.m. and weighed in at 8 1/2 lbs., Trump tells PEOPLE.

"It's a beautiful baby and she's a beautiful mother," says the 59-year-old Apprentice star.

Of his wife Melania, Trump said, "I just think she's looking forward to being a great mother. I have no doubt how good she will be."

Money, money,money..

What is wrong with everybody?? Fundriser here , fundriser there... Reginas school has Jog-a- thons, Gabriels school has See's candy fundriser, then couple of other families asked money.... do I look like a millioner to you guys. I shop at walmart and Kohls on sales rack... so there you go... nobody will get any money from me.... I am poor.... I spend all my extra money for photography and shutterfly.... and pictureframes. I need more pictureframes..... I do not have enough pictureframes....

I am just little bitter today because everything just pisses me off. People are loosing weight eating meat. People are loosing weight eating bread.,.. And there is me, who eats bread and chicken and I gain weight. ??? I have been monitoring my diet past few weeks. I wrote down how much I ate, what time I ate. Every time my daily intake exceded more than 1400-1500 cal , I gained weight. Every time I had pork, I gained weight. On each day I had 10 containers of yoplay fat free yogurt- I lost weight, On those days I had one head of cabbage I lost weight.... I am so sick of healthy food. Seriosly, I want to eat chicken without worring about feeling sick. I want to eat cheese and not get upset stomach. I want to live happily ever after without worring about money, health problems, cancer, and what other people think. I want world peace.
D

Uh, cold, I wish I had fur, I wish I was a bear, with

..a furry furry hair. ( I think I watch too much Barney). But yes, It is very cold here in usually sunny southern Ca. I
I hate it. I do not mind rain, but this cold is just too much to handle.


I just want to complain more about my problems. Well, lets talk about physical pain I am in.
About 4 years ago my wrists started hurting - they still do. 2 years ago my knees just decided they are sick of being strong and healty knees, and now I got pain there. Year ago, after I had my car accident , my sholders started hurting and now - LATEST- my big toe ( righ one), well, bunion really ia swollen and hurts really , really really.
Everything was fine when I woke up, but around noon things slowly started to change. At first my toe turned numb ( really weird feeling), and then pain set in. and right now (8.48 PM), I am unable to move my toes at all, pain is horrible. I really do not know what is going on. I wish I knew. I hope pain will dissapear for tomorrow, because if it is still there, I do not know how I can drive my kids to school. :(:(:(
Bummer :(

Oscar Night..

I did not plan watch oscars this year, but Jon Stewart with his opening speech just got my attention. I just love his sense of humor. He made me laugh all night long. That guy does not have to try hard to make people laugh- he is natural. ;) He is cute too ;)

Now, if you ask me how many of those movies nominated I had seen then I can tell you- only few-

• _Crash-- I loved it- won best Picture!!!!!!!
• walk the line-- NMS
• Batman Begins- I love it
• Cinderella man-- Did not like it all
• Tim Burton- Corps Bride--- LOOOOOVED IT. I love tim burton.
• Charlie and the chocolate factory- Good but not that good.
• War of the Worlds--- My fave

• I really want to see Transamerica
• Memoirs of Geisha
• King Kong
• North County.

Now I am off to do some minor cleaning. ( kids toys, dirty dishes etc). Tomorrow is monday and my cleaning team is coming to clean my house ( they do it every monday). But I am about to fire them- they are doing ok job and past few weeks they have been avoiding dusting and floors are after cleaning still dirty ( spots here and there) and they broke few dishes and forgot to notify me. SO bye-bye . I HATE LETTING THEM KNOW THAT THEY ARE FIRED. :( Usually nick does the dirty work....

Bohoooo

I just took Nick to LAX airport. It was fun month . He really did help me a lot. He took Gabriel to school and picked Regina up froms school, he took kids out to lunch and played a lot with them. I just do not have that energy to run around and chase them. All I want to do all day long is to sleep or just do nothing. I manage to clean the house, cook, do laundry and then just hug my pillow.
. Everything makes me extremely tired. Some days I hit the bed around 9 am and fall asleep even before kids are asleep, but I am sure, now that he is gone, I will be up until 2-3 am doing nothing. As right now, I am so tired I am about to fall over BUT I can not fall asleep.

Now it is me and kids again. To make things worse- Regina is SICK AGAIN. I have no idea what is going on with this girl. She is coughing and coughing and coughing. She stops for a week and goes again. I think I will take her to see some specialist because she has been coughing since january and nothing seems to be working. :( Well, at least I have my fun neighbor friend who kees me entertained day and night- there is never dull moment when she is around. ;)

2 more days and...

I'll be single again... yup, nick is leaving late on friday night. Poor me. I look forward to sleepless nights, grazy mornings and not cleaning up after him. This time he will be back before his 40 th b day ( on march 31st). But still, he will be gone and will spend my time doing nothing ....

Now about my laptop- while I was in estonia I brought kids computer game Nu pogodi( Just wait_ kids animated series). After I downloaded the game my computer started acting up. And 3 days ago it stopped responding to anything at all. i did virus scans and found porn dialer( whatever is that), I checked memory and my computer had no memory left- also, my computer could not find any hadware left in my computer- no ups drives, no cd/dvd drives etc. I had about 5 picture folders( total 200 pictues that I had not backed up) and I lost them all. yesterday my husband restored my computer to factory settings and now it is working again, but what is weird ( at least I think is weird), after first virus scan( even before computer was hooked up to internet) norton found Alexa (

McAfee(R) AVERT™ recognizes that this program may have legitimate uses in contexts where an authorized administrator has knowingly installed this application. If you agreed to a license agreement for this, or another bundled application, you may have legal obligations with regard to removing this software, or using the host application without this software.
Please contact the software vendor for further information.

See http://vil.nai.com/vil/DATReadme.asp for a list of Program detections added to the DATs.

See http://vil.nai.com/vil/pups/configuration.htm for information about how to enable, disable, and exclude detection of legitimately installed programs.

Summary:

Upon execution of this application, Alexa toolbar is installed in Internet Explorer. Search keywords used in Google were transferred to Alexa servers. Also Alexa sends personal information such as usernames to the Alexa site.)

WHY, WHY, WHY??? But at least now my Toshiba is working fine and after few more virus scans and virus removals, My computer seems to be clean -- we will see about that.

I hope for next 12 months my computer stays fine and clean ( I usually get one bad virus or spyware or addware once a year that totally destroys everything I have in my computer and even virus or spy scans can not detect what my toshiba got. I never learn from my mistakes - instead I make new and worse ones ;O)

Di